Maybe There's Something In The Air, Maybe I'm Sick, Stressed, Or Just Plain Old Lazy— But I Can't Seem

New life, new motivations??

I feel like a new person. I don’t know what the mental switch was, but I really do feel like someone completely different. For the first time in so, so, long, today I got the urge to exercise! I’m saying goodbye to lying on the floor and never wanting to get up for the rest of my life, goodbye to my horrid self-isolation and unmotivated slugging around. I feel like I’ve stumbled upon something wonderful!

And even though I’m not living in my dream room or wearing my dream clothing, or even have dream grades- I feel so much better just living as a different person, crossing over through lives from a saggy, depressing one to a completely new and bright one! I couldn’t be happier for my personality of smoke and mirrors- after practicing, I can convince even myself that I have likes and dislikes now. I’ve started to enjoy actually doing things, and have been making myself a whole heck of a lot happier meanwhile.

After measuring myself, I can tell that I’ve definitely gained some weight from my prime. No worries, though- now that I’ve started working out again, and am enjoying it, I’m sure I’ll get it all off before my clothes arrive!

For now, though- it’s getting very late. I’ll be setting my alarm really early, excited for tomorrow for once. I honestly cannot believe how quickly I’ve started living in this personality! It feels so fresh to be productive and have the energy to do things now. I’m almost living my dream, I can tell! So, so close.

Goodbye for now, I’ll write tomorrow!

<3 Caramel

Lunchtime

no idea if youve taken youre exam yet but i wish you luck!!!!

thank you for the spam, that rlly surprised me.. your blog is so pretty and fun to read through!!

i have my own exams to take in these next few weeks, so maybe our combined will to pass will result in it lol

good luck ^^

-🍊

Omg yes best of luck on your exams!! You've got this!! I spammed your blog because, well, it was really relatable... Glad we're friends, hehe (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

I'm imagining we're studying together like this ~♪

I don't remember if I already sent you one so erm

AHHH!!!

W-wh-when did it become popular to fish slap your mutuals..?!?!!??!

Lazy

Ahhhhh

Spring break has really made me lazy. I thought I had the capability to laze around day after day if undisturbed, but it seems I do end up getting restless from time to time. Can't believe I'm even allowed to lie in my bed for eleven more days. Hopefully, I'll take this time to clean up, draw, and study instead.

Overall, it's nice to see myself actually want to do something instead of feeling content doing nothing at all. Glad I'm not completely devoid of energy- can't wait to see what the break brings!

I don't know what the inverse of fun is but I just had a ton of it

Wishing the apocalypse started right now, ruining billions of lives and throwing the world into irreversible chaos because I'd rather hide from zombies and eat scraps than do a midterm for two hours

I'm back! Sorry I haven't been active lately, life planning is getting into my head, and I've been working on a big passion project I'll share with you all soon ^^ also, thank you my lovely @pixo0 for reviving me with those sweet messages.

Here's some photos I took but forgot to post— I took them at the height of spring.

Ah— I feel like I wasted the long-awaited cherry blossom season just staying inside and drawing... I guess there's always next year. Time seems to move faster recently anyways.

How has everyone been doing? I miss you.

Small town syndrome in a big, big, city?

My grandma dropped something off for me to eat, she kept asking me questions about my sister. Everyone's proud of my sister- and for good reason, I guess. She always wears nice clothes, keeps all her grades in the 98s or so, and wins a ton of RG competitions.

It feels even worse eating fast food now, thinking of what I could have been. What an extraordinary family, with such a failure slapped into it. I need an escape from this life, I think.

It feels a lot like the 'small town syndrome' that people who live far from big cities and stores get, the feeling of "I need to get out of here".

Thank goodness it's spring break, though- now I have time to clean myself up from all this garbage I've surrounded myself with.

I really hope I can- I'll pack together all the motivation and energy I have left into this one project.

"Where are we, Sen?"

OMG UR BLOG AND PHOTOS ARE SO CUTEEE!! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ lowkey makes me wanna pick up photography again lol

AHH OH MY GOODNESS THANK YOU!!!!

Yes, you should absolutely pick it back up again— scrolling back through everything is so fun!!!

I'd love to see your photography (⁠♡⁠ω⁠♡⁠ ⁠)⁠ ⁠~⁠♪