Cainisss - 😔

“When you beg of people, they hate you for it. When you beg of Allah, He loves you.”

— Yasmin Mogahed

Sleepy Nicolas Brown

It just that , we always find our way back together no matter hard we fought but not this time . I just can’t accept that , i know it’s because of me that we become like this . Im really sorry about that . I don’t think im gonna find someone like you too . And i don’t think im gonna be in love again . I’ve been given everything i have , did everything and anything where i have never ever did for someone else except you . And you can see where did it lead us ?? Now we are just strangers kan , that’s sad . Don’t mind me . Just find someone if he makes you happy , if he knows how to make you laugh even if you’re in a bad mood , if he won’t give up on you even you did said harsh things to him . Just don’t follow my standards. You did found someone else before right ?? You can now . You will heal , you will be happy again . You are strong , so strong so independent woman . You will be okay . But i don’t know if i will . You’re my everything , my heart , my soul , my home . This is sad . Susah nya nak terus kan hidup macam ni . Setiap hari sedih . Setiap hari check text ws you . Baca conversation lama kita . Gambar gambar lama kita . I cuba untuk tak nangis taip this post . It’s hard huhu . I rindu you dempol . Rindu gila gila . I nak you . I talk to izz about you , rindu you semua . Tp dia marah i pulak huhu dia cakap nama i dah busuk dekat mata family you , kawan you . Sebab you dah bgtau adik adik you en . Dorang pun mesti ada bgtau parents you and ada juga yg tweet . You pun bgtau dayana and dayana pun mesti akan bgtau orang lain punya , dah nama pun gossip en . Or ada lain ke i dont know . But i don’t care . I still want you . Tp you nampak macam dah give up , macam betul nak move on . Im sorryy . Minta maaf mokk . Maybe i will delete this post , im really at my lowest . Iloveyou dempol more than anything in this world . I rindu sayang cinta you sangat sangat . Please takecare , drive safe stay safe , eat well . Again , i minta maaf atas semua yang telah terjadi that lead to this now . Jaga diri ye mokk 😍🥰😘

“I want the part of you that you refuse to give.”

— Ellen Hopkins (via to-be-okay)

(25/12/2021) 08/01/2022 - 14 days after last time hugged her

It’s been 2 weeks since we met. I saw everything when we met, your eyes aren’t the same as before. Im went kl because i was trying to get you back even im not sure if you really want me back. Im stupid for not realising it early. Im sorry for making you force yourself just to spend time with me. And thank you for that few days, its been awhile since we date huhu. That 3 days were amazing, we went to every place and eat everywhere we want even we both short on money hahaha. I really miss you a lot. I wish i could turn back time and change everything back like we were used to. I miss it a lot when you call me everytime i was sleeping and you always laugh when you suddenly call me to wake me up. I still do remember every little thing about you and not one second i have not ever think about you. You are always on my mind no matter what i do. I hope you are more happy now. I wish your next bf will treat you far more better than i am. This may be the last one from me, i hope so huhu. Takecare sayang baby ayang cayunk gemok gedempol yunk yang mok pol. Iloveyou nfmk. *cries fr

(25/12/2021) 03/01/2022 - 9 days after last time hugged her

Im still can’t stop thinking about you.

Iloveyou 😢😢😢

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