I Gotta Say I Don't Buy All Them Planning Strategies And Tips That Require More Effort Than Just Sitting

rb this with ur opinion on this shade of pink:

why is deciding on a title for my thesis so hard

13 I 2023

two days ago I went to the 0th term exam for commutative algebra and received the highest possible grade!

the thing I noticed when studying for it was that the topics that used to be fairly ok but not very clear became completely intuitive. the best example of this would be fibers of maps induced on spectra. it feels so good when after trying to understand something for two months everything finally clicks and I obtain a deeper level of understanding

also I realized that making pretty notes actually doesn't help at all, so I switched to making more messy, natural ones. maybe I can no longer look at them and admire the work of art, but I think the principle behind it is that the more I focus on making my notes pretty the less attention I pay to actual information processing

so maybe these ^ don't look as good as they could and they are probably hardly useful for anyone other than me lol but the benefit is that I started learning really fast compared to how it was going when my notes were a work of art

currently I am studying sheaf cohomology and preparing for a complex analysis test (it's next week). I have two courses left to pass and I would like to ace them too, although that's rather unrealistic

the second batch of topics for complex analysis includes: order of growth of entire functions, analytic continuation, gamma, zeta, theta functions and probably elliptic functions. significantly more sophisticated than the first part of the material. for the course on algebraic methods, everything is hard lol I am waiting for the moment when homological algebra and sheaf theory become intuitive

next semester I am going to take algebraic topology (fucking finally), differential geometry, number theory, statistics and algebra 2 (mostly galois theory). I have never taken 5 courses in one semester so I'm very scared

the human experience is so crazy. at any time i want, for free, i can comprehend the beauty and the horror of my own fragile existence, the cosmic insigificance and personal significance of my experiences, the impossibly vast yet laughably tiny boundaries of my own consciousness, and feel sick to my stomach with anticipation for everything i have yet to understand and grief for everything i have yet to lose.

me : I love learning new things

Me when it’s time to learn anything new that I’m not instantly good at:

→ 3 IX 2021

such a weird day today. i finished complete spaces and then moved on to preparing for the math conference i'm going to on sunday. there is a lot of high level stuff so i won't be able to learn everything, of course, but i'm doing my fav thing ever and enjoying it thoroughly. that is, switching from a topic to a topic in the spare of 15 minutes and reading a bit about anything until it stops being ✨super exciting✨

this amounts to a total of 8 hours of math and i am not done yet. love it, absolutely love to waste time like that

concentration: fucking ∞

tomorrow i'm doing an algebra speedrun with bf and two of our friends. this is an experiment aiming at seeing how much information we are able to pack into our heads in one sitting. we haven't studied abstract algebra before. then in a few as i mentioned i am going to a math conference, with bf and our other friend. excited about that too. i fucking love math

The beautiful modernism of Oliver Byrne’s, The First Six Books of the Elements of Euclid, 1847

Quatrefoil Knot

I know your thesis was about something to do with algebraic topology, may I ask what exactly it was about?

(and congrats to you getting your bachelors degree and into a masters program)

(thank you!)

my thesis was about an open question regarding a certain skein module of tangles on 2n nodes. the conjecture is that the module is free and in my thesis I constructed a generating set that is free for n=2,3 (direct calculation) but I have yet to prove that for a general n. if you are interested I can send you the paper in which the question was posed, all the details are explained there and would be hard to write down here without tex lol

but how is this related to adhd? I'd say my ability to have fun is diminished because of the dopamine deficiency, I'm basically constantly bored, and afaik adhd increases the risk of substance abuse disorders, so I don't see the point of bringing up adhd in this context

Me: I don't take alcohol, smoke weed or do any other substances.

Everyone: Omg!! then how do you have fun??

Me: I have ADHD.