*writes Two Paragraphs After Months Of Literally Nothing And It Took Three Hours*

writing is best when it’s "an inspired plague", writing feeling like work is the kiss of death

-from "on writing", on the idea of enjoying your writing

— 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑑𝑜. 𝒎𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕.

bisexual!dva · f/f/m love triangle · mekamechanic · slow burn · friends to lovers · questioning sexuality · alcohol · angst · light nsfw/suggestive · fluff · swearing · depression & ptsd

dva (hana song) x brigitte | dva (hana song) x dae-hyun

After Hana Song (D.va) self-destructs her mech Tokki, she endures a long recovery. At the end of it, she is on honorable leave from the Korean military and her e-sports career is at a screeching halt. When a prestigious mech racing ring recruits her, she convinces herself that she needs to win.

The only problem is that she needs a built-from-scratch mech for the races. With her mechanic Dae-Hyun repairing Tokki, Hana searches for more help. A second mech would help her recover from her PTSD, anyway. Eager to recruit her, Overwatch connects Hana with mechanic Brigitte Lindholm.

Despite feelings for Dae-Hyun days before, Hana can't shake her fascination with Brig. Amidst her desire for a new sense of purpose, another identity crisis forms: her sexuality. 

As her physical wounds finally begin to heal, her inner world is again in pieces. Hana finds herself with a hidden agenda, two disassembled mechs, a blossoming crush, and an ongoing struggle with the idea of sacrifice.

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if i have to tell you i lose as the writer.. if you can figure it out yourself i win

-from "on writing", on the idea of showing not telling as a writer

lowkey the fact that notebooks were like 2 for $1 when i was at formative hobby finding age (horseback riding lessons & dance classes, etc. were not)...

“how did you get into writing” girl nobody gets into writing. writing shows up one day at your door and gets into you

i think i tend to forget how good boredom is for creativity because we're all so addicted to numbing ourselves with screens and stimulation. but standing in the shower or going for a walk with no music or just sitting in your bedroom without being allowed to touch any screens & all of a sudden i have multiple new projects to start, a solution to a months-long plot problem & 4 new original characters

no my own is different actually.. it determines my entire worth and value both as a writer and an overall person

don't judge a fic by its stats

➜ fandom: genshin impact ➜ content: kaeya x reader, mutual yearning, childhood/old friends, alcohol, nsfw implied, friends with benefits, the one that got away, oneshot, pyro!reader, mild jealousy, banter, intentional lowercase ➜ words: 1k

  ↪ 𝒒𝒖𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒚.

       you had started making specialty drinks for angelshare on tuesday nights. you moved back to mondstadt and spent most of your time arranging the furniture in the apartment above lisa’s. If you weren't settling in, you would read on the balcony or have preparatory meetings with jean.

        grandmaster jean had recently appointed you as her medical advisor. years ago, you had been a knight. that was before you went off to sumeru with lisa, a childhood friend, to study.

        you studied field medicine and honed your pyro vision. you did groundbreaking research. you created pyro-infused potions that became long-term solutions for trauma survivors, pioneered sutures that saved hundreds of lives and limbs on the battlefield.

        after the last few years of horrific injuries and tragic deaths, you liked mixing drinks.

you appreciated the simplicity of drunkards like nimrod. you liked to talk to charles, another one of the bartenders, about the weather in the evenings.

        you accepted the gig as a favor to diluc. you owed him a few from years ago, but you considered it a favor to you as well. you liked that your workplace this night wasn’t stained with blood.

        “i’m headed out to clean the tables,” charles said.

        “okay,” you said, not paying much mind.

you reached up onto one of the higher shelves to put back a skinny green bottle of elixir.

        on tuesdays, it was usually the regulars at the tavern. you had come to learn this even in the few weeks you had been back in mondstadt.

        you also learned that could take a breath here. with the impending stress as the new medical advisor for the city, you welcomed a few sips on the tavern's dime.

        you took a small glass vial from her bag, tipping it bottom up into your liquor concoction behind the bar. the vial was a shot of your own creation, one that helped with hangovers too. as you went in for another sip, you heard the movement of a chair as a patron sat down at the counter.

        “what can I get you?” you asked, swallowing and feeling the warmth settle into your chest.

        “what do you recommend these days? i trust you haven’t come all the way from sumeru to not impress your patrons.”

        the familiar, forever-taunting voice made the fire in your chest turn ice.

        “yes,” she said. your tone was still grasping at who was sitting in front of you as you turned to face him. “i do hope i can impress you.”

        “well, that depends. are you free to take a hike to starsnatch cliff?” kaeya asked.

        you felt her face turn red. you remembered being teenagers again, new recruits for the knights together. those days, you would dream up elaborate dares for each other.

        you two always had a case of your beginner potions and kaeya's flask in hand. you would get into trouble all night long and be at training in the morning.

        you had made it to a bed of flowers on starsnatch cliff once, the summer before they never saw each other again. kaeya brought strong tavern wine. you brought your latest experimental enchanted berries. your friendship changed forever that night.

        “when hell freezes over, kaeya,” she said, as calm as you could.

you hardly stifled her embarrassment. you were unsure if the heat in your face was from the liquor settling into your cheeks or your attempts to keep your memories at bay.

        you knew how much he lived to get a reaction from people. once upon a time, you had a foot in front of him in that race.

        “i’m sure with your help, i could make that happen,” he said with a smile.

        “right,” you said.

you reached up onto her tiptoes to grab a goblet from one of the higher shelves in the glassware cabinet.

        “you haven’t grown much,” kaeya said with a laugh.

you could tell from the sing-song of his laugh that he’d been drinking too. you could feel his eyes shamelessly tumble over your body as you reached up.

“would you like some help?”

         “that’s okay,” you said, stubborn as usual.

you set the goblet on the counter in front of him.

“i don’t think master diluc would like you behind the bar.”

        kaeya scoffed, not bothering to hide the roll of his eyes.

        “master?” he drew out. “fancy that. you’re keen on him again.”

        you all but laughed in his face.

        “again,” you repeated. “that was over a decade ago. besides, master diluc is my boss now. i don’t think that would be appropriate.”

        “huh," he said.

he paused for a moment, taking you in your face now too, as if he was tracing over a sketch from his memory with his eyes. you were stricken with the sight of him again too. you couldn't meet his gaze, though. you lingered on the smaller things: the dip in his chin, the long front of his hair that fell over his face.

"you must’ve had a change of heart since i’ve spoken to you last,” kaeya said, tempting your gaze upward to his.

“i didn’t know it bothered you to fraternize with your coworkers.”

        you bit your lip down. whether to keep herself from giggling or snapping at him, you didn’t know. you reasoned it was the wine-mix you'd been drinking that made you end up with a smile, but this denial was familiar to you. to you when every time you were with him.

        “what am I making you?” you asked.

you slid the goblet down to the other end of the bar. you had tall corked bottles lined between the two of you.

        “quite happy,” kaeya said.

his smile looked a little dizzy. his face looked as pink as yours felt, and he leaned into his elbows toward you.

if charles had returned to the bar, you hadn't noticed. the world beyond the space between you didn't seem to exist anymore. like it had always been with kaeya.

        “sure,” kara quipped, a beat late from being lost in the feeling of your reunion. “i can make you a ‘quite happy’.”

        a few pours and shakes later, your new bestselling drink was born. it tasted snappy, and the aftertaste was sweet. indigo glitter danced around in the stillest of glasses.

        when kaeya brought the cup to his mouth for the first time, you felt the warmth in your chest again—like you'd taken a shot from the vial. the drink matched his eyes just right.

BRIG FELL FIRST HANA FELL HARDER

sailor song cause hello??? Hello????

brig fell first hana fell harder

i dont remember where i read this but this note i took from a book is a good mini think piece for writing, for character relationship studies & emotional arcs: "beauty being mostly a matter of attention, the river is only beautiful because you are looking at it"

— 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑑𝑜. the meka squad.

masterlist · main characters · meka squad · faq/reference

A team of five young mech pilots, including Hana Song (D.va), who were recruited for the Korean military to defend the nation from threats (Gwishin and Null Sector being among them).

— d.va, hana song

color: pink mech name: tokki age (in this fic): 21 former profession: e-sports

[+] more on the characterization of hana in the main cast post.

— d.mon, yuna lee

color: red mech name: beast age (in this fic): 22 former profession: e-sports (d.va's teammate)

[+] in canon, yuna has a "tough" personality. in this fic, she'll be portrayed as a sister figure to hana: mature, collected, honest, and nurturing. she shows hana more of her sensitive side, still maintaining her pragmatic ways. hana often jokes that yuna likes to mother her. despite being away on leave, continuing her studies in the time being, she comes to check in on hana at the meka base and keeps in touch. despite their careers having taken a drastic turn together, the two still play mecha guardian v together.

— casino, jae-eun kwon

color: green mech name: la princesa sereine age (in this fic): 24 former profession: f1 racecar driver

[+] in this fic, casino will be portrayed as a slightly older and unattainable member of the group. hana and some of the other characters will call him "cas". besides hana, he will be the most publicly adored member of the team--with a fair number of adoring female fans. he will be personable, knowledgeable, and down to earth. an easy charm about him. he seems to have a special affection for yuna.

— king, kyung-soo han

color: yellow mech name: singigeon age (in this fic): 23 former profession: gamer (d.va's former rival)

[+] in canon, kyung-soo was hana's biggest rival during her esports career. she ended up surpassing both him and yuna, her teammate, to be the number one player in the world. in this fic, kyung-soo is outspoken and sometimes brash. he can be headstrong, but his heart is in the right place. he has a competitive spirit that has always been matched by hana. since being on the mech squad together, they have gone from rivals to friends--despite their banter. most of the time, they push each other to be the best they can.

— overlord, seung-hwa shi

color: blue mech name: mastermind age (in this fic): 18 former profession: e-sports

[+] in canon, dva states that seung-hwa is the best pilot she knows. he is also notably younger than the rest of the group. he also is noted to take on a "suport" role amongst the team, repairing the others mechs. in this fic, seung-hwa is straightforward and smart. he was a child prodigy in robotics and had the opportunity to nurture his gift, being a college graduate at a young age. gentle and kind, sometimes a bit out of the loop socially. he seems to adore the rest of the meka squad, making small talk with them despite usually being shy; he sees them as a second family. he knows a lot about mechanics and often helps dae-hyun tackle problems with the mechs.

— captain kyung

[+] captain of the meka squad, hyung is direct and practical. she sees a bit of her younger self in the likes of hana and kyung-soo.