Diary Entry #19

HAPPY TRANS DAY OF VISIBILITY EVERYONE!! I am closeted but I tried to celebrate today by drawing and having a good time as best as I could. Here's the drawing I made with my trans oc!!

cw- drawn sh scars, not a vent post just a part of the character

(The text says happy TDOV; don't let the bastards win!)

[ID: a drawing by OP of his zombie oc; he's wearing headphones, a torn shirt, a binder, cargo pants, and is waving a trans pride flag. Nico, the oc, has brown hair and is smiling slightly. /END ID]

Diary entry #12

Cw - negative mental health talk and politics sorta again

I need to move to Illinois I need to move to Illinois I need to mov

I'm trying to tell my grandparents I want to go to college in Illinois but I still don't know if they'll like let me y'know? They seemed kind of lukewarm to it. I'm an adult and should be able to make my own decisions but I'm terrified of them. I don't know why, even. The worst they do is scream.

They still think I'm "on the Trump train" as my grandpa puts it. Of course I'm not a fucking fan of Trump, he's a risk to everything I love!!!

I found a community college in Illinois I want to go to; hopefully they'll let me or else I'm screwed. I don't know if Missouri will ban HRT for adults, but I have a feeling they will.

My mental health hasn't been stable recently. I keep on being nice to my grandparents and I don't know why, they can't even gender me right and they think that I'm basically a joke. Just thinking about how they've denied me care fucking infuriates me but I can't help but to be nice to them!! They're nice to me in every other way, it's just this "boy thing" (their words, not mine) that they despise me for.

I'm lucky, and should be grateful but I'm not. They could've killed me or kicked me out or something for being queer. I'm filled with so much rage but have nothing to take it out on besides myself.

I'm happy to be alive most times, but I don't want to be alive as someone I'm not. I had hope, I still kind of do, but it's going to be a rough 4 years. I don't know how I'm going to explain to them that this lack of T is going to kill me, I don't think I can.

Holy shit,,, i rember 💡

Popee the performer or whatever!!

top 5 strangest crossovers

And this

Welp. Reddit is dead, and I’m not sure if anyone is willing to reanimate its corpse. Reddit was the only place I could be myself, vent about my issues, stuff like that. Tumblr doesn’t fill the same void in my heart, but it’s decent enough. Hope I can make friends here. I’ll miss my moots over there. RIP aspiememes, traa, and many others. I feel like this collapse will have terrible consequences.

TLDR- i am so sad

Basically all of the characters from Pizza Tower are incredibly gender frfr

Hello again

Am 19 now, not on T yet (unfortunately!!)

I GOT FUCKING RICK ROLLING. ????

Edit- i may be a dumbass actually nevermind

Your gender is now the first randomized wikipedia article you get. No rerolls.

The taxidermied goat is my main google acc’s pfp

You. Are. worthy.

Even if you never drive. Even if you need help with basic tasks. Even if you need help with hygiene. Even if you’ll never work. Even if you’ll need help for the rest of your life. You’re. Still. Worthy.

Don’t let anyone tell you that you’re useless, or that you don’t deserve certain things. You’re amazing, and I see you.