Im Gonna Write My Heart Out Here.

im gonna write my heart out here.

It feels like im talking to someone.

So girls, i like a man. Awful news, i know.

But his heart and mind and soul still belongs to someone else. And even tho we are close, i just… i know it’s not the time

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athenaschosenhuman
1 year ago

perpetually torn between:

taking classic literature seriously and over analysing every detail so that I can deeply understand themes, motifs and references and absorb every poetic quote into my being OR treating classics as if they were just silly little stories about silly little gay people doing the most weird, unhinged and out of context shit ever (which they are)

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athenaschosenhuman
1 year ago

Heyy, I love ur content and can I request a Web weaving of being alone or loneliness? Thankyou <3

" 'So who's the strange one?' I grinned. / 'I don't know,' he said, and then shrugged. 'Sometimes I think if nobody spoke to me, I'd never speak again.' / 'That sounds sad.' / He blinked. 'Oh, yeah.' "
Screengrab from "The Perks of Being a Wallflower." A teenage boy wearing a suit sits in front of his bed. He has his hands clasped together and leans his head down against them as he cries.
"I do exist, don't I? It often feels as if I'm not here, that I'm a figment of my own imagination. There are days when I feel so lightly connected to the earth that the threads that tether me to the planet are gossamer thin, spun sugar. A strong gust of wind could dislodge me completely, and I'd lift off and blow away, like one of those seeds in a dandelion clock."
"I don't feel guilt at being unsociable, though I may sometimes regret it because my loneliness is painful. But when I move into the world, it feels like a moral fall-like seeking love in a whorehouse. Even more, I somewhere take my unsociability as evidence of my 'seriousness,' a quality which I take as necessary to my existence as a moral being. What a strange set of assumptions, as I now [...]"
Screengrabs from "The Double." A young man sits across a set of seats on a train. In the first picture, a light from above illuminates the train. The caption reads: "Because I know what it feels like..." In the second picture, the light has been turned off. Heavy shadows fall from the left side that cover most of the man and the chair. The caption reads: "...to be lost and lonely / and invisible."
"You're addicted to loneliness and desperation. It's the strongest emotion you've ever known, so your subconscious tells you that it's your destiny."
"as if i didn't birth loneliness / my damn self from all my damn wanting // - Taylor Steele, from ‘Shocker,’ published in Crab Fat Magazine"
"I will never forget the loneliness I knew as a child. / For a period of my life I hid behind a mask. Did not want to acknowledge any longing. / Now it is a part of me-something I can share. / Both the loneliness and the longing."

i hope you're doing well <33

Alice Oseman Radio Silence / The Perks of Being a Wallflower (2012) dir. Stephen Chbosky / Gail Honeyman Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine / Susan Sontag As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks, 1964-1980 / The Double (2013) dir. Richard Ayoade / Heather Havrilesky Ask Polly: Help, I'm The Loneliest Person In The World! / Taylor Steele Shocker / Amy Dunne

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athenaschosenhuman
2 years ago
athenaschosenhuman - call me athena
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athenaschosenhuman
1 year ago

Taking these circles of hell and the sins they represent and making them tangible and relatable and more human so that we can come to terms with the fact that the idea of sin is inherently learned and the ideas of things being morally good or morally bad are ingrained in us as people in a society and that we need to come to see everything as neutral for one reason or another is just so important like he knew what he was trying to do and he succeeded

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athenaschosenhuman
3 weeks ago

i wanna kiss him so bad

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athenaschosenhuman
2 years ago

Felt cute might distance myself from everyone idk

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athenaschosenhuman
1 year ago

it hurts so bad when you give everything, and you still aren’t even the second choice

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athenaschosenhuman
1 year ago
athenaschosenhuman - call me athena
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athenaschosenhuman
2 years ago
athenaschosenhuman - call me athena
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athenaschosenhuman
1 year ago

i always convince myself i dont sound that weird and then i go out in the world and get involved in anything longer than transactional small talk and its like ohhh thats right ive only been hanging out with gay people who speak in riddles

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athenaschosenhuman
call me athena

Cheap poetry and an attention-whore

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