Tired Of Being Brave About Things I Will Now Be Openly Pathetic

tired of being brave about things i will now be openly pathetic

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athenaschosenhuman

2 years ago

Nico saying he and Bob were “melancholy about their mutual ‘friend’ Percy Jackson, who never seemed to remember they existed” HAS BROKEN MY HEART bc I don’t want this sentence to exist but he’s spitting facts ykno

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

Heyy, I love ur content and can I request a Web weaving of being alone or loneliness? Thankyou <3

" 'So who's the strange one?' I grinned. / 'I don't know,' he said, and then shrugged. 'Sometimes I think if nobody spoke to me, I'd never speak again.' / 'That sounds sad.' / He blinked. 'Oh, yeah.' "

Screengrab from "The Perks of Being a Wallflower." A teenage boy wearing a suit sits in front of his bed. He has his hands clasped together and leans his head down against them as he cries.

"I do exist, don't I? It often feels as if I'm not here, that I'm a figment of my own imagination. There are days when I feel so lightly connected to the earth that the threads that tether me to the planet are gossamer thin, spun sugar. A strong gust of wind could dislodge me completely, and I'd lift off and blow away, like one of those seeds in a dandelion clock."

"I don't feel guilt at being unsociable, though I may sometimes regret it because my loneliness is painful. But when I move into the world, it feels like a moral fall-like seeking love in a whorehouse. Even more, I somewhere take my unsociability as evidence of my 'seriousness,' a quality which I take as necessary to my existence as a moral being. What a strange set of assumptions, as I now [...]"

Screengrabs from "The Double." A young man sits across a set of seats on a train.
In the first picture, a light from above illuminates the train. The caption reads: "Because I know what it feels like..."
In the second picture, the light has been turned off. Heavy shadows fall from the left side that cover most of the man and the chair. The caption reads: "...to be lost and lonely / and invisible."

"You're addicted to loneliness and desperation. It's the strongest emotion you've ever known, so your subconscious tells you that it's your destiny."

"as if i didn't birth loneliness / my damn self from all my damn wanting // - Taylor Steele, from ‘Shocker,’ published in Crab Fat Magazine"

"I will never forget the loneliness I knew as a child. / For a period of my life I hid behind a mask. Did not want to acknowledge any longing. / Now it is a part of me-something I can share. / Both the loneliness and the longing."

i hope you're doing well <33

Alice Oseman Radio Silence / The Perks of Being a Wallflower (2012) dir. Stephen Chbosky / Gail Honeyman Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine / Susan Sontag As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks, 1964-1980 / The Double (2013) dir. Richard Ayoade / Heather Havrilesky Ask Polly: Help, I'm The Loneliest Person In The World! / Taylor Steele Shocker / Amy Dunne

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athenaschosenhuman

2 years ago

Nico Di Angelo now is younger than me, i don’t know how to act

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percy jackson annabeth chase nico di angelo nico pjo i made myself cry wish i could be fictional

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

U can grieve and still live life. U can miss loving someone and love others. You can hold onto the good moments and simultaneously the bad moments. You can take the learning from a person you let go off and use it for the better. You can love someone and they may not be the right person. You can wish someone the best and love them from a distance. You can think fondly of someone and never talk to them again.. mysteries of the world…

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

literally though if you feel like your life is slipping through your fingers and every day goes too fast… try doing hard things, not just taking the easy route, like reading and making art and exercising and cooking a meal from scratch and journaling, doing these things without distraction, without being absorbed on a screen… the time will stretch and you’ll be reminded that life is long and beautiful if you make it so.

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

perpetually torn between:

taking classic literature seriously and over analysing every detail so that I can deeply understand themes, motifs and references and absorb every poetic quote into my being OR treating classics as if they were just silly little stories about silly little gay people doing the most weird, unhinged and out of context shit ever (which they are)

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athenaschosenhuman

2 years ago

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

So, my mom hates my dad’s side of the family, and my dad hates my mom’s side of the family. And now my grandma (which is really mean to my mom and my siblings and me) is going to be staying with us for a while and im gonna be living in hell.

Why can’t my dad put a limit and choose my mom? And god i hate this.

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

it hurts so bad when you give everything, and you still aren’t even the second choice

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athenaschosenhuman

2 years ago

I am hungry for touch & ashamed to be looked at

— Safia Elhillo, from "Summer," Girls That Never Die

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