I Just Finished Writing An Article About My Raccoon Eyes For A “Reverse Negativity” Challenge. I

“Noise On The Tele” by me.

I’m feeling particularly anxious today. I’ve been through a lot, and maybe it’s just the PTSD, but I honestly feel afraid now that everything is over. There’s static in my head and I just can’t seem to get past the what ifs. 

Part of me even feels like I don’t deserve it-- as though I’ve done something to condemn myself to a lifetime of misery. I feel lost. Maybe I hate myself, like I’ve been conditioned to do all of my life.

So I guess this is me, in reference to the song Echo by Gumi (Crusher-P). I’ve struggled most of my life with extreme anxiety-- so maybe I’m just... feeling a valid thought. I’m used to being disappointed as soon as I relax, so I tend to not allow myself to feel happiness. It’s like.... the most damning thing I can do is to feel happy because if I do, I swear it’ll never work out. 

But I’ve always been colorblind-- so maybe I just can’t see the vibrancy around me? c:

Ashe.~

Shaaaark!

I love sharks. <3

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Why do you like sharks?

I did a collage type of dealio today. It’s a self portrait-- at least, how I wish I could portray myself. Unfortunately I was a boy born with overly sized pecks. But hopefully one day I’ll have the courage to get top surgery-- the real only thing holding me back is the fact that I’m afraid I’ll spend my whole life lonely. I’ve transitioned twice, and detransitioned twice, and my main reasoning for that has always been that people liked me more when I was a girl. I was prettier, and people were more drawn to me. I don’t know, though. I was also stressed out because whenever I am “Vincent” I always act how people would expect me to, rather than how I’d like to be. So maybe I’m more nonbinary than anything? I just want to be my own thing-- an experience. A dialogue.  One that says, hey, I like to embrace myself without labels or expectations. Still though, I wish I didn’t have my chest.

Art by me, Ashe

Hello! My name is Ashe and I’m a creator of photography, and drawing. :) I wanted to have a platform to post my content, and thus created this blog. I hope that at least some of them will bring you joy and happiness as my favorite works are the silly ones. I’m really into marine biology, and hope to pursue marine photography in the future! How cool would that be? Anyway, I wanted to also say that I am part of the LGBT community, being a nonbinary trans-masculine person. I prefer him/they, but I try not to hold myself to any clear-cut rules. Some days, this boy likes to wear flowers and paint their nails, and other days they like to look a little too hipster. #Clotheshavenogender ! So know that I support you wherever you are and however you identify. Additionally, I’m part of the furry community, and like to draw my characters from time to time doing cute things-- so you may know me as KawaiiFira on the Furry Amino and the LGBT Amino. ^///^ Anyways, nice to meet you. :) Please enjoy my blog and all of its randomocity. <3

Ashe~

:)

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Drew this for my friend LinkTheYoshi :3

yay!

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“Sick Shooter”

I drew my sona Fira fighting during a zombie apocalypse. I’m really into this sort of thing, one of my favorite movies being World War Z. But this piece in particular was inspired by the resident evil video game series. :)

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I was honestly kinda upset with Daisy being added to smash at first, but now I’m kinda happy about it. yay c:

Fighting princesses!

Meet Aslan, my nonbinary oc :3 They’re a lion! 

I thought it would be interesting to make a nonbinary lion character, as lions are traditionally very... gendered. The maned lions (male) are typically seen as very masculine-- the kings, while the maneless lions (female) are typically seen as very feminine--the queens. 

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