I Was Honestly Kinda Upset With Daisy Being Added To Smash At First, But Now I’m Kinda Happy About

Hello! My name is Ashe and I’m a creator of photography, and drawing. :) I wanted to have a platform to post my content, and thus created this blog. I hope that at least some of them will bring you joy and happiness as my favorite works are the silly ones. I’m really into marine biology, and hope to pursue marine photography in the future! How cool would that be? Anyway, I wanted to also say that I am part of the LGBT community, being a nonbinary trans-masculine person. I prefer him/they, but I try not to hold myself to any clear-cut rules. Some days, this boy likes to wear flowers and paint their nails, and other days they like to look a little too hipster. #Clotheshavenogender ! So know that I support you wherever you are and however you identify. Additionally, I’m part of the furry community, and like to draw my characters from time to time doing cute things-- so you may know me as KawaiiFira on the Furry Amino and the LGBT Amino. ^///^ Anyways, nice to meet you. :) Please enjoy my blog and all of its randomocity. <3

Ashe~

Drew this for my friend LinkTheYoshi :3

yay!

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happy pride fish belong to the gays

The Great White is here to tell you he thinks you’re pretty amazing too!

I call this piece Faulty Thoughts, Faulty Blame

Have you ever had someone say something to you that echoes in your mind years later? Maybe you’ve heard it a thousand times, in so many forms that you wonder its authenticity.

For me, it’s the feeling that I don’t belong on this earth. In this piece, I wrote down everything that has become my own thought, after hearing them over the years from my mom, my family, bullies, and friends. They’ve become my own dialogue however, picked up by the demons Anxiety and Depression. It’s a shame. 

Lately, I’ve felt like talking is pointless, as people have come to accept that being broken, and hopeless, is just who I am. If I get sexually abused through my whole life, it’s just expected that it’s my fault. If I get bullied constantly, it’s just because my personality is weak. If my family hates me, it’s because I did something to deserve their hatred. I don’t feel like I can rely on people, as everything in my life is shocking-- and it’s lost its effect. It’s not surprising anymore, and people just don’t have the energy to be sympathetic. Everyone is desensitized. Tragedy is just an expectation for me and nothing more. That’s why I can so bluntly proclaim tragic information because I just don’t deem it as otherwise significant anymore. This is my normal. My father once told me, “It’s no one’s job to care about you.” It’s made me feel selfish to rely on people. I should just bear it on my own.

I hate myself because I shouldn’t be here. As everyone says, it should have been the triplets here, not me. I wish I didn’t have to bear this agony, either. All the suffering that my family and friends have had to bear, has been because of me. I am this... inhuman force of nature that brings tragedy to everyone around me just by breathing.

I never understand what I’m supposed to do. People tell me to rely on them, but once I do, they tell me I’m annoying and destroying their lives, exiling me with a tongue of pure hatred. Maybe the sentiment was skin deep. But if I block people out of my problems, I gain resentment as well, as if I’m betraying them. They eventually leave me anyway. I’m constantly unsure of how to be around people.

I apologize for venting to people. But I just feel lost. I feel hopeless. Should I just live my life alone? Should I be lonely?

I’m pretty proud of this piece. It’s about a year old now. :)

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I drew this yesterday owo (6.19.2018)

It’s yet another self portrait as I experiment with my own self expression. People often ask what my gender is, or my preferred pronouns. Well, with that, I’m still not sure. Maybe one day I’ll figure that out.

But for now, I’m just rolling with it. 

-Ashe. <3

Cutefish are adorable. Like, seriously. Look them up. Be amazed.

Marine life is a wonderful thing!

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:)

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“Blues Kitty”

oh, I’ve got the blues~ But it’s not so bad :3 

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