@bucky-bucky-bucky-bucky I Had To Try👀

Images work a powerful effect on the mind. If we question in our hearts who we are, our minds throw up to our vision an image of ourselves. We seek a picture, a word, a name. We feel we do not know our own feelings unless they are named. And we inherit through culture the very names we give to feelings.

This power of culture over our lives is a power we study and recognize. Kenneth Boulding, a philosopher in the sociology of knowledge, writes: "persons themselves are to a considerable extent what their images make them." And he follows this with another insight, which should be terrifying when we consider the images of men and women in pornography and in the pornographic sensibility. He writes: "people tend to remake themselves in the image which other people have of them."

The philosopher of language Wittgenstein gives us a similar insight. He writes: "The child learns to believe a host of things, i.e., it learns to act according to these beliefs. Bit by bit there forms a system of what is believed, and in that system some things stand unshakably fast and some are more or less liable to shift. What stands fast does so, not because it is intrinsically obvious or convincing; it is rather held fast by what lies around."

This relationship between culture and event has tragic consequences in our lives. In 1972, for example, the surgeon general's report on images of violence on television suggested that a causal relationship exists between an exposure to television violence and a child's participation in more aggressive behavior. For culture and event become one another. In the early twentieth century, a magazine publishes a photograph of a real event, a photograph of a woman political activist being tortured by the czarist police. Now this event, through its publication as a photograph, has become culture. And a young man buys this photograph. He stares at it. He becomes obsessed with it. Later he imagines that he is torturing a woman who has rejected him in the same fashion as this photograph depicts. Finally he actuates these fantasies in ritual tortures as a sadomasochist. (We read of his life after he becomes a patient of Wilhelm Stekel.) He makes culture actual.

By this transformation from image to act and act to image, we become imprisoned in a world of mirrors. For we cease to be able to tell illusion from actuality or to distinguish our own natures from the nature we are imagined to have. Thus if we are unhappy, we can find no way out of our dilemma, no door leading us into another world than this world of mirrors. In one mirror we see a photograph of a woman who is tortured. This may be a fictional pose. Or it may be a newspaper reporting an actual event. Or we may witness this event in our own lives. So, gradually, we cease to be able to imagine ourselves as otherwise. Every reflection we see tells us that only cruelty is possi-ble. That violence is inevitable. We are trapped by our own minds.

In this way culture becomes like a web that is invisible to our eyes, made up strand by strand of image and word, each strand becoming more powerful through the existence of the other strands. But we do not see any of the strands. We do not examine our assumptions, our choices, our decisions: Rather, they fade into the background for us. And we confuse them with ourselves and with nature.

So if an image turns into an act, we do not perceive this transformation as having taken place. Rather, we say to ourselves that the image has accurately predicted the future. And if a pornographic fantasy becomes an event, we say that pornography has truthfully portrayed sexuality. And finally, when we read that a man is convicted of kidnapping and "brutally" murdering an adolescent girl "to fulfill a bizarre sexual fantasy," we do not come to understand that the pornographic imagination can lead to actual murder. We do not suspect, as we ought to suspect, that pornography endangers our lives.

-Susan Griffin, Pornography and Silence: Culture’s Revenge Against Nature

Someone I knew- an acquaintance, died today. I was indifferent to his existence, we all are to most people we casually encounter but it's hard to be entirely indifferent to their death too. You feel for the the possibility of life they could've had, you feel for the sorrow of those who knew them, you feel anxieties and hopelessness of those who were left behind with a hole in their daily lives because of that death. You feel the utter despair even if just for a second. I am not surprised that I did too, even if just for a few minutes as the realness of the moment hit me at once and overwhelmed my mind. I cried, a little but I did and I had no control over it. It's the origin of that burst of grief from within- the heartbreak for the family of that cold dead body being mourned now, the heartbreak of the good and bad that person was being everyday of their life but will be no more, the heartbreak for the cries and heartache that isn't even mine.

Here's to the relief of death still being merely an acquaintance to me.

THE INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE ; AMC productions.

The look on lestat's face! Like he is angry that he's doing this when he wants to give louis attitude for being a mean bitch to him hours ago, but then he hears her and is a little, if not a lot, intrigued about her.

Now that they're playing daddies to little Claudia, they're are absolutely going to discuss the clothes, ah yes, the joy of parents.

This was probably the funniest part of the episode😂😂, lestat being his usual sarcastic self.

He really has been away from children for too long😂

No comment, teen problems😂

This fight! They act so much like a family now, parents fighting over their teenage vampire daughter. Despite the fact that lestat is overly annoyed most of the times about Claudia's antics he doesn't entirely hate the concept.

This scene is almost a depiction of the possible consequences, –although the argument here subsides–, of Claudia's curiousity.

Louis told Claudia to be careful when digging around and troubling lestat with questions because as knew all to well, that past troubles some people.

This was a beautiful scene. Louis introducing Claudia to the idea that love works the same for all –objective in basics and free for subjective interpretations of the nuances. He answered her questions with just a few words but did so gently, not rebuking her, not confusing her more, just telling what it really is. This scene says so much about Louis and his acceptance of his sexuality throughout his years with lestat.

He's embraces that part of his identity.

This show!!! I mean the way they've portrayed Anne Rice's vampires on-screen, as eternal beings with having subtle shades of humanity. Of being murderers, almost like apex predators in their own habitat but still having the similar concerns of failure as a parent, of hurting their loved ones. And sometimes, of hunting the wrong prey, which is clearly the humane side of them bothering.

EPISODE 4, S1

Steven: Why do we have bruises all over our face? We weren't on any mission, were we?

Marc: No?

Jake: *trying his best to appear nonchalant

¿I went to the beach, hermanos?

Steven and Marc: *surprised but pleased at this turn in conversation

Jake: *speaking with a gentle smile.

A little blonde kid tried to push me in the sand. He thought it was funny.

*the smile turns manical

I threw him into the sea.

Steven and Marc: *sighing heavily but not surprised.

Marc: but what has that to do with the brusies.

Jake: *scowling now

That poco blonde shit had a big family.

*After a little pause

Jake: can we go to the beach again?

Steven and Marc: FOR FUCK'S SAKE!

Has it ever happened to you in a confrontation that the person you're confronting tells you ,"You could've just done that, why didn't you? Now you're blaming me?"

You don't have a logical counter to that because yes logically you could've done that. But how would you explain someone your internal working mechanism, your fear of consequences if you didn't do it the way you did it, of the actual consequences you would have to face if you didn't do it the way you did? You see, the person you just confronted is blind to your perspective so it's understandable why they see another logical solution to your problem when it's not really a harmless and helpful solution for you, but as a fucking adult, they are supposed to take responsibility for the part where they made the mistake, where they evaded responsibility instead of blaming you for not doing the other way. This is called being logical.

obsessed with the art of studying

@iguanamouth this is a masterpiece 😭🤍✨

my uni dorm <3

day 32/100 of productivity

things accomplished today:

• chem equations

• physics chapter reading+ theory

22.10.22