Aries: They doubt themselves. They need reassurance and validation from people they love, and if you give them this, they’ll be your loudest, strongest, most enthusiastic cheerleaders. They’ll always stand up and fight for you (even if they know you’re in the wrong)… if you do the same for them. Don’t take this for granted.
Taurus: They will put themselves first. Always. It’s because they feel like no one else does, though; they always get taken for granted and ignored and they get so sick of it. They will break your heart with their selfishness, but they do love you. Believe them when they say it.
Gemini: They’re lonely. Even surrounded by people, a Gemini can be so, so, lonely, because they long for emotional closeness and a deep mental connection. They lose interest in people so quickly because this connection isn’t there with most people.
Cancer: They’re mean and selfish. They guilt trip and play the blame game, because they don’t want to face the truth about themselves. They act tough, talk shit, hang out with people they don’t really care about, and they try to pretend that this is who they are. It’s not. They’re trying to protect themselves from the harsh, judgmental world by acting like they hate the best parts of it.
Leo: They blame themselves for everything. A Leo may act like a diva, throw a temper tantrum and accuse you of ruining their life, but inside, their heart is breaking because they failed themselves. Not only that, but they failed you, too. And they hate themselves for that. They have trouble forgiving others, but they have even more trouble forgiving themselves.
Virgo: They are not cold. They are actually sensitive and easily hurt, and they protect themselves by building a robotic, analytical exterior. They have such high standards for the people in their life because they’re scared of getting hurt. Deep down, a Virgo just wants to throw away all their worries and inhibitions and be free.
Libra: They’re incredibly loyal. Once a Libra decides they like you, they may stray, lose contact, hang out with other people, but they will never completely forget you. At some point, they will always come back to you. They value friendship and love more than anything; this is both their best quality and their biggest weakness. They give people so many chances, and as a result they are used and hurt so many times, because they never lose faith or become bitter.
Scorpio: They need someone to tell their thoughts to. Scorpios are secretive and mysterious creatures, but they can’t stand having no one who really knows them. A Scorpio is selective about who they trust, but if they do trust you, you will be surprised about how open they are.
Sagittarius: They don’t bounce back so easily. Sagittarians are not always happy-go-lucky and content. A Sagittarius is prone to feelings of inadequacy and anxiety, but they do their best to hide this from people. They are incredibly strong, but they still fight their personal battles like everyone else and can be very sensitive. They don’t need to be coddled or helped through difficult times, they just need you to stand by them while they fight their demons.
Capricorn: They care the most, but have the worst time trying to show it. Their natural tendency is to hide their feelings and retreat from those they care for. They confuse people with their hot-and-cold behavior. They frustrate themselves, because they want to throw themselves into everything they do, but they can’t work up the energy or the courage to do so.
Aquarius: They like people as a whole more than they like people individually. They have tremendous respect and faith in humanity, but can’t bring themselves to have the same love for even those closest to them. They are detached, often putting more of themselves into clubs and projects than into their friends and family. They are concerned with “the greater good”, and they don’t let individuals get in their way.
Pisces: They will not let you treat them badly. They won’t confront you or try to talk to you about your behavior. They won’t try to convince you that they are right and you are wrong. They’ll just slowly slip out of your life, leaving you wondering if you ever meant anything to them at all. Don’t underestimate the power of a Pisces to break your heart without saying a word.
I am in harmony with my annihilation.
Georges Bataille (via funeraryfaerie)
When I was 13 years old and curious about sex and love, I asked my mom if she had had sex before marrying my father (of whom she is still married to, and has been since before I was born). She said that that wasn’t really a ‘yes’ or ‘no’ question. I said ‘sure it is, you’ve either had sex before him, or you haven’t’. She brought me onto the couch and sat me down and told me about the boy she liked when she was young and how one night she snuck into his house while his parents were gone and they were kissing and he said they should have sex and she said that she wanted to save sex for marriage and he laughed and basically took all her clothes off and he raped her and as my mom was telling the story she cried and this was the second time I had ever seen my mom cry. She was 12 when it happened.
In grade 8 I got a call from my friend in the middle of the night and she was drunk in the park crying and told me that she went out that night with some other friends and they drank a little and her guy “friend” starting flirting and yes she laughed at first but then he tried to pull her shirt over her head and she pulled away and he ripped her shirt and it was her favourite shirt and then he pushed her to her knees and HIS BEST FRIEND HELD HER JAW OPEN WHILE HE FACE FUCKED HER. And so I went to the park and picked her up and took her home and slept in her bed with her except we didn’t sleep because she just cried and her mouth bled and this was four years ago but I still have to be the one to bring her items to the till it the cashier is a man, and she still has anxiety attacks and she’ll get a rash all over her body and I just want to kill those boys but instead they are still walking around. And I’m in the bathroom with her, dabbing at her skin with a warm cloth until it returns to its regular colour.
And in grade 9 one of my closest friends was kinda seeing this boy and so they hung out one night and then she said that she really had to be getting back home and he said that she wasn’t going anywhere until she gave him what he wanted and he parked the car and took off her clothes and she said no and he ignored her and so she laid in the backseat totally limp and just cried and it wasn’t even sex, he just masterbated by using her body instead of his hand and she came to school the next day with vodka in her water bottle and she drank all day and I had to fight her to get the alcohol away from her and she just cried and threw up and I skipped class while I held her hair back and that same boy texted me a month later, asking if I ever wanted to hangout sometime.
And in that same year my very best friend who has never even kissed a boy, confessed to me that when she was 9 years old, her 12 year old cousin made her give him a hand job and he told her that was what cousins do and he gave her a chocolate bar afterwards and she told me that he probably doesn’t even remember it but that it’s something that she’ll never have the luxury of forgetting.
And in grade 10 I knew a girl who invited her best friend over to watch Disney movies and then he started to put his hands down her pants and she said no but she is 130lbs and he is 220lbs and he called her a tease while she tried to fight him but he used one hand to hold her down, and the other to put inside of her and i was the one to push her inside of a classroom and stand in front of her while calling the police when he showed up at our school looking for her and she was so damn scared.
And a few months later I skipped class and was in the car with a guy who i had had unprotected sex with in the past while under the influence of cocaine but this time I was sober and I insisted we use a condom but he told me he couldn’t feel anything while the condom was on so he ripped it off and I said I refused to have unprotected sex again and so he just grabbed me and forced himself into my mouth and I was crying and he pulled me onto him and I just came saying “stop” over and over like a broken record but he must’ve heard something different because he went until he came and I just sat naked in the backseat while he drove me back to the school and said “we should do this again sometime”. And I had five showers that night and I scratched at my skin so hard to try and rip his fingerprints off of me, I still have the scars.
And I found out soon afterwards that that same guy had raped a classmate of mine, 5 months earlier and she told me about how he brought her McDonald’s first, and how he said they could take things slow and she told me about how he didn’t listen to her either. And he goes to our school and so after she told me about her incident and I told her about mine, we decided to report it to the police and the trial is currently still going on and he told people about it, except in his version we are just “asking for attention” and all his friends talk about how bad they feel for him. As if HE is the one that still wakes up screaming. As if HE felt like his skin no longer was beautiful, no longer belonged to him. And I held her in my arms as she bawled after giving the police her statement. And she did the same for me.
And I met a woman a year ago in a paint store and she had a service dog and I asked what the dog was for and it turns out that she had been so brutally raped and abused in her life, that the dog is literally trained to keep men away from her.
And I’m so FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THIS WORLD WE ARE LIVING IN. How many rape victims eyes have I already looked into? How many more will I? And how many more friends will I hold while they shake? Because I don’t know how many more I can take. And who the fuck still has the nerve to make rape jokes? And… Something just has to change. Please, someone just start being that change.
-16 year old girl
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2015 summed up in one picture.
When people say that poetry is a luxury, or an option, or for the educated middle classes, or that it shouldn’t be read at school because it is irrelevant, or any of the strange and stupid things that are said about poetry and its place in our lives, I suspect that the people doing the saying have had things pretty easy. A tough life needs a tough language—and that is what poetry is. That is what literature offers—a language powerful enough to say it how it is. It isn’t a hiding place. It is a finding place.
-Jeanette Winterson, Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal? Get This Book (via awesomebookquotes)
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shitty horoscopes book xi: illuminate
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it’s not normal for your boyfriend to ignore you when you want to talk to him.
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to shove you when he’s angry.
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to call you a dumbass or a bitch when you’re in an argument.
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to threaten to leave the relationship every time you defend yourself.
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to invalidate your feelings.
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to not tell you who he’s with or where he’s going.
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to keep making the same detrimental mistake over and over.
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to use your insecurities against you.
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to make you feel guilty for having desires and needs.
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to tell you that you’re stupid when you cry.
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to cheat on you because he’s “just a stupid guy.”
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to rely on you when he doesn’t do a thing for himself.
it’s not normal for your boyfriend to hurt you intentionally.
please stop normalizing toxic romantic relationships. it’s not healthy for your partner to upset you and behave recklessly as long as he apologizes later. apologies mean nothing after he has repeatedly disrespected you. kisses and hugs mean nothing after he has repeatedly disrespected you. public displays of affection mean nothing after he has repeatedly disrespected you. promises mean nothing after he has repeatedly disrespected you. it is not okay for him to hurt you physically or emotionally because he said he’ll change. he hasn’t. he won’t. get out now because THIS! IS! NOT! NORMAL! other couples do not go through this. other couples did NOT have to go through this to be in a happy, wholesome place.
he is manipulative and selfish and he is making you weak every time you agree to stay. even when you feel like “maybe this time, things will be okay,” they won’t – that’s what he wants you to think so you never slip from his grasp. you know as well as i do you’re 50 times overdue for “this is his last chance.” this is not normal.
just a guy born in the 70's who enjoys the female form, intelligence, and a little kink
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