Conflicted Chapter 22🎀:

Conflicted: Chapter 18🎀

Maddy P.O.V:

“I don’t think I can. I’ll be leaving for Seattle soon.”

“Wait what? You didn’t tell me.” he wondered, holding the phone tight to his ear.

“Yeah. I kind of decided last minute.”

“But why?”

“Because of Izzy but mainly the fact that I miss home.”

“Are you sure I didn’t have something to do with it. I can’t help but feel like I did.”

“I’m just overwhelmed between this whole situation with you and Izzy.” I sighed, leaning my back against the wall.

“I didn’t mean to upset you but I felt like you should know about my feelings too.” he insisted.

“Axl, what about Izzy?”

“What about him? Isn’t he the same guy who cheated on you.” he snickered, rolling his eyes at the mention of the guy whom he felt used to be his best friend at one point.

“I’m not going to hurt him for you.”

“You already did.” he mentioned, thinking about the time we had slept together.

“I’m never doing that again.” I spat, slamming the phone down.

I sighed running my hands through my hair and went back to my room to find some clothes to wear.

It felt as if my suitcase grew a pair of eyes and burned its gaze right through me, upon entering my closet.

The bag was already open and a few clothes had been placed inside just incase, on an impulse decision I decided that I wanted to start packing.

My closet was a mess ever since I got here since I never had time to clean it because I was also busy with the guys and Duff.

I grabbed the jacket Izzy had left behind, the day he slept over and smelled his cologne, as I folded it up to put in a bag for him.

I still missed him despite the fact that we had a huge argument.

I did not feel the same way after speaking with Axl. It never gave me the butterflies in my tummy that Izzy would give me when he looked at me with those eyes of his.

… … …

“MADDY GET UP. WE’RE GONNA BE LATE.” I heard Duff scream, as I bolted upright in my bed, wondering what the hell was going on.

“You didn’t remember?!?”

“Remember what?” I croaked, rubbing my eyes from the light pouring in from the kitchen, as he held my bedroom door wide open.

“There’s a party at Slash’s. Everyone is invited. So hurry up and change.” he insisted, leaving my door open to grab some last minute items to stuff in his jean pocket.

Like condoms, cigarettes and the keys to his mustang.

I groaned getting up groggily and rushed to the bathroom to quickly freshen up, putting on a natural look with pink lipgloss before heading to my closet to pick out a dress.

Usually in Seattle I would just wear a sundress and call it a day but over here that wouldn’t go right.

Everyone here dressed like they were in Hollywood and so I settled on a slim fitting, silky baby pink dress with spaghetti straps.

And paired it with a silver necklace and matching diamond earrings that Duff had bought for me and my mom.

I grabbed Izzy’s jacket and wore it over my dress and grabbed the white strappy heels to complete my outfit.

“I’m not even gonna argue because you actually look pretty in that.” Duff said giving me a kiss on the forehead, and pushing me out the door.

“Is everyone going to be there.” I asked, indirectly wondering if Izzy was showing up, since he didn’t really enjoy parties as much as I thought.

“Yes Maddy. Izzy will be there too.” he grinned, raising his eyebrows at me.

I rolled my eyes laughing as we hopped into his car and headed to Slash’s new home in Laurel Canyon.

Izzy P.O.V

I sat smoking my cigarette endlessly, with a bottle of Jack as I put a hand through my hair wondering when the fuck this party was going to be over.

The only reason I came here was to congratulate Slash on his new house and the first thing I was met with was a bitchy Axl.

He was giving me strange remarks and looking at me weird even though he was fine a couple of days again.

I didn’t have any energy to entertain his behavior so I placed myself in a quiet area away from all the loud noise, girls and hard drugs.

Even the girls here were getting on my nerves.

They were so sleazy that it was a turn off but I guess that’s how Slash liked his women.

Everyone started cheering as I saw someone’s figure walk-in and bright blonde hair belonging to none other than Duff.

“Finally someone normal.” I huffed looking over where Steven was passed out with a bottle of tequila in his hand.

“Duff. Over here!” I shouted, ushering him over to me with my hand.

“Hey man. Sorry I took so long, Maddy was taking forever to get ready.” he complained rolling his eyes as he grabbed the Jack to take a big swig.

“She came?”

“Yeah. She’s right there.” he pointed, to a shy Maddy who was quietly standing by the counter where they were serving drinks, looking around to find someone familiar.

She looked so beautiful.

She had on this little pink, tight fitting dress, which was covered by my jacket and her pouty lips were covered in sparkly lipgloss, making me want to go over there and kiss her until it smeared all over her face.

“I can see you getting hard over my sister.” he repulsed, looking over to where I was staring at Maddy.

I laughed.

“Just go talk to her please. You guys are dying to make out with each other I can tell.” he remarked grabbing some shots from a passing tray and heading over to the herd of models that were perched on Slash’s lap.

“Hey Maddy.”

“Hi.” she spoke, her voice barely above a whisper.

“You look really pretty…I see you wore my jacket.” I smirked, placing my hand on her waist to pull her into me.

Her lips pursed and sparkling eyes glowed as she turned to face me, making me speechless as I stared at her beautiful face.

“You wanna go up to Slash’s room?” I asked, caressing her cheek with my hand.

"O-Okay," she said, allowing me to take her hand in mine as I led us both up the stairs, the noisy talk of everyone in the party becoming quieter and quieter until we found ourselves alone in Slash's room.

I removed my jacket from her, locking the door behind us and pressed her against it as I assaulted her neck with wet kisses, groping all parts of her body, enjoying how she reacted to each touch.

“M’sorry that I was mean to you even after you apologized.” She whispered to me, her eyes huge and brows raised, as she pouted her lips.

"I promise to never hurt you again." I whispered, kissing her all over her face and chubby cheeks as she giggled.

“You look so sexy in this dress but I would love to see how you look without it.”

“I want that too.” she coyly smirked.

I took her and laid her on the bed, sliding her dress straps down to display her breasts, alternating between sucking them sloppily and tenderly massaging them with my thumb flicking up and down her nipples.

“I love it when you kiss my breasts.” she whimpered running her hand through my hair, softly tugging at the ends.

I moved down her body, dragging the rest of her dress along and dumping it on the ground, grabbing one of her legs to perch on my shoulder as I spit on her pussy, pressing it in to make her wetter, inserting my finger in and instantly feeling her clench around it.

“Mmphh.” she moaned pushing herself forward to sink my finger in her pretty pink pussy to the hilt.

“Your so dirty y’know that. Letting your brother’s best friend touch you like this.” I grunted grinding into the bed, feeling turned on by her little whimpers and moans.

“I like being your dirty girl Izzy.” she moaned grabbing her breasts with her hands to push them together for me.

“Fuck.” I groaned taking off my shirt and pants throwing them somewhere across the room and getting completely naked along with her.

“I’m gonna fuck you so hard and you’re gonna sit there like a good girl and take it. M’kay?” I cooed, gripping the back of her hair and tilting her head back, asking her to open up so I could spit in her mouth.

She stared up at me through her lashes, extending her tongue out as I dropped a glob of spit directly onto her tongue, watching her swirl it in her mouth before swallowing it and sticking her tongue back out to show me.

"Holy Fuck. You're so fucking sexy, baby. Where did you learn that from?" I asked, slapping my dick on her pussy a few times, hearing the slick sound of her juices coating my dick.

“Some girls in school.” she whispered looking at me with those innocent eyes.

"No one else can see you like this. You’re all fucking mine." I spat, gripping her waist and forcing her down onto my hardened cock.

“Y-Yes yes. M’ all yours daddy.” she whined, as her body bounced each time I slammed her up and down my cock.

I groaned hearing her call me daddy and fucked her harder, as my grip on her waist tightened definitely bound to leave marks, hearing the sound of skin slapping each time I bottomed out into her.

“I-Iz-zy c-cum in me p-please.” She pleaded with me, making grabby hands, to kiss my lips as I felt her orgasm approaching.

“F-fuuckk. Oh fuck look at that fucking pussy milking my cock.” I grunted watching her pussy suck every last drop of my cum into her.

I stroked her stomach thinking about what it would be like to have a mini Izzy but quickly forgot after I came down from my orgasm and rolled over catching my breath as I lied next to her with her flushed out face and fluttery eyes.

“I love you so much Izzy. Please never hurt me.” she mumbled as she fell asleep.

I promise I won’t.

18+ mdni

that reality check hitting after reading smut

Conflicted Chapter 24🎀:

Maddy P.O.V

Slash left my room shortly after our conversation complaining that he needed a drink, and got up to stroll over to my window, where I found Axl resting on the pool recliner, deep in contemplation.

I sighed as my thoughts turned back to Izzy, wondering where he was and what he was doing. I walked downstairs to check for him while the boys were watching a hellish movie, which Axl later joined, totally overlooking me.

I didn't take offense and gave him some space, assuming I was giving him misleading signals.I feel like I gave Slash the wrong answer earlier when he asked who I expected to spend the rest of my life with, and I responded Axl mostly because I was angry with Izzy for becoming mad at Axl and me.

He was constantly angry at me when I spoke with Axl, which made me angry for the most part, especially because I was only having conversations with him.

But it appears he was right after all; I felt like an awful person for kissing Axl on the boat, but I wasn't going to tell him since I was certain he would never forgive me because he loathed Axl.

“Maddy, are you gonna stand there and stare or go back upstairs?” Duff groaned, throwing some popcorn at me, while Steven giggled throughout the scene that was playing, that involved a girl being fucked by a dude sporting a ghostface mask.

“What movie is this?” I asked, grimacing at the girl whose mascara was streaked over her cheeks and hair disheveled.

“It’s called Scream XXX.” Slash smirked, before returning his lustful gaze back to the female being aggressively penetrated with her hair yanked back.

“Go away Maddy.” Duff complained.

“Yeah.” Axl proceeded, reverting to his unpleasant attitude, laughing as he muttered something underneath his breath.

I ignored it and exhaled, deciding to head back upstairs, however just as I planned on calling it a night, I noticed the front door open and Izzy enter.

“Izzy!” I squealed and ran to hug him.

“He kissed you.” he spat as if he had been holding it in the entire time he was gone from me, followed with a catastrophic glare.

"It didn't mean anything to me I promise. I was thinking about you the whole time." I stated frantically, standing on my tiptoes and grasping his cheeks in my hands to ensure he understood.

“Just tell me one thing…do you love him?” he sighed, peering into my eyes as he waited for an answer.

“No I don’t.” I lied.

I heard Axl scoff as he whispered something under his breath behind us, and I turned around to meet his stare, sending him a softhearted look, but I couldn't do anything else since Izzy would have suspected that I loved him, so I dismissed Axl no matter how much it hurt.

"Let’s go upstairs, m'tired." he yawned, removing his long black coat to toss over the stair railing, wrapping his arm around my shoulder, pushing me close, as we headed up the steps.

We entered my room, and I turned off the lights, allowing my lamp to shine brightly, and switched on the television to watch something since I wasn't tired.

Izzy took off his shirt and boxers before slipping into bed and I also changed into my nightgown, a purple babydoll with white lace trim around the cleavage and the bottom hem.

“You look pretty.” he whispered reaching up one hand to stroke my hair that was combed straight allowing my soft blond hair to shine in the dim light, and my skin glow from exfoliating earlier in the shower and putting sweet smelling moisturizer all over my body for Izzy to later touch, allowing his hand to slide down my neck, caressing my collarbone down to my breast, massaging softly like a sensual massage.

“C’mere.” he demanded, grabbing my cheeks with his hand, squishing them together into a pout.

I tried to murmur a reply through his grip on my cheeks, gazing up at him with glossy eyes, while he teased me about repeating myself and speaking louder.

“You have to kiss me first.” he smirked.

I pushed myself forward slamming my lips onto his, while he kept his hold on my lips, in a pout, remaining his dominance, hungrily abusing my lips, until they were swollen and red.

He released his grip on my cheeks, leaving a faint red imprint on each side from how deeply his fingers dug into me while making out.

“I want you to touch me all over my body and make love to me." I whispered, allowing my babydoll nightgown to fall past my hardened nipples before catching his hand in mine and guiding him to my breast, stroking it while keeping my hand over his.

He dragged down the rest of my dress, allowing it to fall past my ankles so he could massage and touch every inch of my skin that appeared to be gleaming with tiny diamonds from the strawberry lotion I had applied earlier.

I squirmed under his touch feeling his cold hands touching everywhere before gently spreading my thighs leaning forward to suction over the soft plushy skin as his chain dangled forward ticking the top of clit.

“I love this pussy. So fucking beautiful like my baby.” he cooed, as he closed his eyes placing a big wet kiss on my outer lips making me squeal.

I played with my breasts, circling my nipples with my eyes closed, releasing soft whimpers and quiet open mouthed moans as I felt him make out with my lower region, licking, sucking, and spitting on it while taking his time to play with my clit, occasionally rubbing it with his pointer and ring fingers.

“Izzy keep g-going. Uhnn- gonna cum.” I whined, huffing and grabbing onto his long black locks of hair as I desperately rutted my needy hips against his tongue, panting out for more.

He slapped my ass before pulling away with a trail of my juices connecting himself to my pussy, not wanting me to orgasm just yet.

“You’re gonna cum on my cock.” he groaned, collecting strings of my wetness on his dick by sandwiching his cock in between my sticky lips, mixing his precum with my arousal, before slipping inside me very slowly so I could feel it going inside.

“Fuuck, you’re so tight.”

“Hmph, for you I-Iz, only for you.” I cried, feeling his cock deep inside me, creating an outline on my stomach, as he carefully thrust in and out of me like I was very delicate and could break at any time, kissing my neck leaving vivid purple spit covered bruises.

I kissed him eagerly, enjoying being covered in his spit while he passionately kissed me, slowly drawing away each time, making sure that there was a loud pop every time we separated.

“You like being drenched in my spit baby?” Izzy whispered adjusting himself before slamming back into my wet heat keeping the same steady pace, as I squeezed onto him tightly feeling my orgasm approaching.

“Y-Yes l-love it.” I blabbered, moaning small “uh”s.

“Gotta go slow, in this fucking tight ass pussy.” he groaned unable to concentrate, as he was about to blow his load.

“I love you.” I whined, grabbing his face, loving the feeling of his lips brushing against mine.

He quickened his thrust as he felt me clench around him and my eyes rolled back, my mouth dropping wide in a faint moan as he massaged my clit, making me spasm and my legs shake.

“I love you I love you I love you.” he chanted filling my pussy with warm spurts of his cum, letting it dribble down my thigh.

“Mmph, m’tired now too.” I whimpered, cuddling into him as I nodded off.

“Goodnight baby.” he whispered covering us with the sheets.

… … …

“Maddy.” someone kept whispering, waking me up and making me glance on drowsily.

Izzy was fast asleep next to me, and my gaze shifted to the cracked door, through which Axl's head could be seen.

“Come here.” he said again, moving his hand in an inviting motion for me to approach him.

I groaned, getting out of bed.

“What is it?”

“Since you don't love me and all, I think it would be best to come clean about what you said to me that night on the boat." he casually stated, catching me off guard.

“Wait what? I- I didn’t -

“Save it.” he spit, clenching his jaw while he rolled his eyes.

“I won’t tell him anything.” I firmly replied.

“Oh really?” he rhetorically asked, raising a brow.

“Izzy doesn’t need to know anything because it doesn’t matter.”

“You can’t tell me that the way I feel about you doesn’t matter to you.”

“I- No of course, it does. But, I’m with Izzy and I have to put him above anybody.”

“I didn’t take you for a bitch, but I guess I was wrong about that too.” he muttered as he quickly walked away.

I sighed, letting my head fall against the wall, annoyed with the entire situation that I appeared to have created.

“Is everything okay? I thought I heard someone arguing?” Izzy inquired, peeking out my door.

“Everything is just fine.” I sighed, slipping between him and my door.

Meanwhile, Axl was downstairs rambling on about Maddy, unknowing to everyone but Slash, who had spoken with the young girl the night the two men argued.

She was unhappy with Izzy that day and erratically mentioned Axl. But the curly haired guitarist knew better because of the way Maddy acted with Izzy, she was blindly in love with the man, but Axl was a ticking time bomb, and he couldn't stand being tossed aside by anyone, let alone the girl he loved.

It was just a matter of time before he flipped out on Izzy again, and Maddy would be dragged into it indefinitely this time.

Conflicted Pt: 14 🎀

Izzy P.O.V

Our band received the best selling album label by the time our tour had ended, but our manager scheduled us to perform a gig at the Troubadour for old times sake.

We agreed to it, of course, it was nostalgic for us too, to see how far we had come since the last time we were at the Troubadour.

I was also excited for Maddy to come and see us perform since she’d never seen me play live.

“Izzy do you think your groupies will show up tonight.” she scoffed looking through her pile of clothes, scattered everywhere in the closet.

“Can’t say they won’t but I don’t care about them when I have you.” I cooed pulling her in from behind, so her body was pressed against mine.

She looked into the standing mirror that was in her closet and sighed.

“I wish you would hug me like this in front of them to show them your mine.”

“Baby-

“I know I know, it would ruin your playboy imagine.” she muttered pulling away to bend down at the black dress that was peeking out of the pile.

“You are not wearing that.” I laughed grabbing the flimsy material and throwing it at the top of her shelf.

“I am! If you don’t want us to be seen together then I don’t have to dress like I’m in a relationship.” Maddy retorted fisting her hands at her sides and stomping her foot down.

“I’m not letting you around the guys with this dress.” I told her imagining what would happen if she wore the tiny fabric.

I know Axl would love it.

“You’re not the boss of me.” she said attempting to grab at the shelf with her 5’6 frame.

“If you can grab it. You can wear it…I guess.” I replied rolling my eyes at her persistence to wear the tiny piece of clothing.

Did she have any idea what Axl would do if he saw her in the dress?

All of his self control would go out the door and into Maddy’s panties.

… … …

We all arrived an hour late to the gig since Duff got into an argument with Maddy over the tiny black dress and threatened her to change but Maddy didn’t budge so they went at it for another 20 minutes.

I intervened and told Maddy to just wear my jean jacket over it to which Duff agreed and said was a great solution.

“Maddy I better not see you without that jacket at the venue. I’m just trying to protect you from the guys y’know.” Duff sighed, looking at his younger sister who was currently ignoring him at the moment.

“It’s okay man. I’ll look at her.” I said giving Duff a reassuring nod before we all hopped into his car and made our way to the venue.

Slash,Axl and Steven all came together since they lived closer than Duff.

And obviously I didn’t have a place at the moment so I technically lived with Duff.

“I’m so excited to play this gig!” Steven exclaimed twisting his drumsticks in between his fingers and kicking his feet at the table which was provided in the backstage room.

“Same.” Slash replied chugging down the bottle of Jack Daniel while taking a few drags of his cigarette.

I couldn’t tell where he was looking since his shades were completely covering his eyes and his hat hid most of his upper forehead, hiding any expressions.

But I could see him smiling and giggling to Axl about something, and Axl was looking directly towards Maddy.

“Is something the matter guys?” I asked, my tone visibly bitter as I give Axl a stern look.

Axl then turned towards me with the opposite expression of which he displayed just a few seconds ago and raised his eyebrows a bit.

“Why?” he rudely asked smoking his cigarette and blowing the smoke in my face.

“Fuck off with that shit.” I told him, mostly annoyed by the smoke in my face but also wanting him to back off from Maddy who was completely clueless in what was going on.

“You’re not her daddy Izzy. She can do as she pleases.” Axl smirked getting up from the couch to give some stray groupies autographs.

Maddy sat at the floor since we all took up the couch, I had insisted for her to sit on my lap but she said she was more comfortable on the floor at my knees, I didn’t mind since I got to play with her hair while we did interviews.

Which was a big stress reliever.

I loved having her around during press interviews since I hated fucking speaking to them because all they wanted to know was bullshit personal questions instead of the real discussion, which was music.

“Iz. I have to pee.” Maddy whispered getting up slowly so her dress didn’t ride up.

I was still kind of mad at her for wearing the dress but when she stood up the dress straightened out enough for the jean jacket to cover her ass.

“Will you be okay alone baby?” I asked, since she hadn’t been to the Troubadour before, I wanted to make sure she was comfortable because there were always creeps at some of our shows who preyed on the girls that would come.

She softly declined and gave me a peck on the cheek as I snuck in a quick ass grab when she was bended over to which Duff gave me a sour look.

“Sorry man. Your sis is hot.” I shrugged lighting up a cigarette.

“Gross dude! Just do that shit when I’m not around.” Duff frowned.

“BOYS! WE ARE ON IN 10 MINUTES!” our manager yelled repeatedly slapping his wrist with his pointer finger.

“Can you yell any louder.” Slash mumbled slumping down into the couch with his bottle of Jack Daniel’s which was now empty.

“You didn’t save any for me. Fuck you man!” I whined grabbing the empty bottle and throwing it at the floor.

Slash and Steven burst out laughing while our manager came to calm their drunk asses down.

… … …

Maddy P.O.V

I swerved through the crowd of people who were starting to gather in clusters backstage.

And weaved my way out, desperately trying to locate the women’s room when I ran into Axl with his arm around some random girl.

“Maddy?” he called out,looking at me rather confused.

“I- I’m looking for the bathroom. Have you seen it?” I asked looking both at him and the girl.

“Yeah. I’ll show you.” he replied shrugging off the girl and walking me towards the restrooms.

“Who was that?” I asked looking at him with curious eyes.

I always heard stories about the groupies and how they played with different bands but it was pretty surreal to see it happen in real life.

“Just some girl who likes our music.” he smirked stopping right besides the door to the women’s room.

He walked me into the back of the wall and put his arm up to lean in front of my body.

“I’d like this dress much better without Izzy’s jacket.” he whispered tugging the jean jacket off one shoulder, leaving my right collarbone exposed.

I was wearing an off the shoulder black dress that stopped right below my ass.

It wasn’t something I would ever wear but I found it when I was cleaning and I figured it was left behind by some groupie so I washed it and wore it to look grown up since all the dresses I brought from home were frilly and floral.

And the girls here dressed so different so when I saw the dress it immediately screamed L.A.

“What if I took it off.” he said, not giving me a chance to think, swiftly pulling the jacket off and onto the floor exposing my figure.

“You look so good. Better than all of the girls here.” he gently murmured placing his pointer finger under my chin to direct my gaze on his eyes instead of his feet.

“Stop it Axl. I’m with Izzy.” I mumbled breathing with how close he was to me.

It was almost uncomfortable knowing he could see all of me, since my jacket wasn’t covering me anymore.

He reached for my thigh and started tracing small circles on it, inching closer towards the end of my dress, tugging it up lightly until he exposed half of my panties which were black to match my dress.

“W-wait stop. I can’t I love-

“Izzy. Yeah I get it.” he huffed letting go of me.

“Maddy?”

“Izzy?” I squinted wondering if it was really him or if I was hallucinating.

“I go to look for you to make sure you’re safe and I find you with him.And my jacket is around your feet?” he hissed grabbing his jacket with such force I almost stumbled on my heels.

“It’s not what it looks like I swear. H-he was just helping me found the restroom Iz!” I cried pushing Axl out of the way and following Izzy like a lost puppy.

“I can’t do this right now. Not when I’m about to preform with him.” he spat walking away from me briskly.

I looked back at Axl who was quiet, almost like he was still processing the situation.

“We can’t be together-

“Why. Why not?” he asked walking up to me with wide eyes.

“I-I can’t answer that.”

His voice is so pretty 💋🖤

guys i found an interview of axl saying girl’s boyfriends would come up to him saying their gf went up to the hotel room w izzy & asking when is she coming bck & axl would say idk but not right now

like hello?? we been knew he was a man whore🤣🤣🤣🤣(i still want him)

Conflicted Chapter 31:

Maddy P.O.V

“I love you so much baby.” Izzy groaned as he rammed into me continuously, rocking the bed by his speed.

“I love you t-too.” I whimpered feeling my orgasm about to take over.

“Your never gonna leave me again right?”

Not even for him?” he whined almost pleading me to answer.

l was too euphoric to mutter a response as I felt Izzy sucking the sensitive parts of my neck.

Leaving them all bruised and purple.

“Say something Maddy please.” he urged not letting himself release until he heard exactly what he wanted from me.

“Yes. It’s you Izzy. It’s always been you.” I croaked looking up at him, pouting and seeing his hazel eyes that I missed so much.

He leaned in and gave me the sloppiest kiss, leaving strings of wetness as he pulled away and came inside of me making sure I took every last drop.

“Such a good girl f’me huh.” he said giving my ass a slap and plopping down beside me.

I quickly covered myself feeling sudden shame from being naked like this inside of a trailer with Izzy knowing my brother still wasn’t talking to me and here I was slutting it up with one of his best friends.

“What’s wrong?” Izzy asked as he sat up, grabbing his pants and slipping them on, letting them hang loosely around his waist as he let up a fresh cigarette.

“I feel guilty for doing this while Duff is still ignoring me.” I sighed feeling my lips pout and tears silently rolling down my cheek.

“Your grown enough to make your own decisions Maddy.”

“If Duff doesn’t approve he needs to get over it.” he replied gruffly.

“I know but he’s my brother Izzy. If he’s upset then it affects me too.” I replied angrily.

“Why are you being such a little girl over it. I didn’t get with you to handle your tantrums.”

“Why are you being so mean.” I huffed wiping my tear stained cheeks and climbing off the bed to confront him face to face.

“I’m not. I just think you’re overly sensitive and I don’t want to deal with a cry baby post fuck.” he casually responded letting out a cloud of smoke as he ran a hand through his black locks.

“You’re such a jerk.” I cried pushing him out of my way to exit the trailer.

I didn’t even know where to go since all the boys including my brother were rehearsing backstage so I just waited outside feeling helplessly guiltier by the second.

I was just another idiot who decided to sneak away with Izzy back into his bed. I didn’t even wanna leave my brother while he was practicing his drums because I planned on talking to him once and for all to figure things out.

But instead he caught a glimpse of Izzy kissing all over my neck while gripping my ass as we both snuck away to go to his trailer which I doubt my brother didn’t know of.

I heard the trailer door open and close.

Izzy came out to let me know he was going back to rehearse with the boys and asked if I wanted to join.

“I don’t feel comfortable being near you while you’re mad at me.” I retorted rolling my eyes at him like the dumb little girl I was.

I wasn’t even that much younger than him.

It was only a 6 year gap which he made seem like it was ages apart.

Twenty five and Nineteen weren’t that far apart.

Right?

“Come on. You know Duff will kill me for leaving you all alone out here.” he groaned.

“You don’t even care about me.” I said feeling utterly rejected at that point.

He came over towards me in long strides and pulled me up harshly by my arms placing of his arms on my lower back squishing me all the way into him while having the other hand on my cheek.

“What don’t you understand Maddy. I don’t act this way with any girl.”

“I don’t even have any emotions towards the girls I fuck or that try and talk to me.”

“You make me feel so many different emotions at once I don’t know how to act sometimes. I know I shout at you but I really feel something for you that I’ve never felt with any girl which drives me crazy especially when Duff says I can’t be around you.”

“I’m so in love with you. I want to fuck you and make love to you at the same time all the damn time. I want to kiss you everywhere when I see you. You’re always so fucking beautiful and sexy. And you have the sweetest personality which is the total opposite of me. You’re so fucking nice it kills me sometimes because I could never be that nice to you but that’s why I want to be around you all the time because you pull me in with your sweetness. You make me feel so good about myself, like someone genuinely cares for me.”

“God I wish I could fuck you right here against this trailer so everyone can see how much I want to make you mine.” he grunted swiping his tongue on my lips until I parted them feeling his tongue against mine.

“Izzz. Someone will see us.” I giggled against his kisses.

“That’s what makes it so fun baby.” he groaned grabbing my legs to wrap around his waist as he grinded his erection against me.

The parking lot where all the bands had parked their trailers was silent expect for small “uh, uh, uh.” whimpers that left my mouth like a chorus.

Izzy had me pinned against GNR’s trailer with my tiny skirt hiked up, rubbing my pussy up and down his clothed erection keeping my legs tightly gripped.

“Give it to me baby. Cream all over my fucking pants.” he grunted pinning me against the trailer further to help grip me as I bounced up and down feeling my pussy get slicker with the friction of his jeans.

“Izzy?”

“Is that you man?” Duff barked as he saw me looking disheveled and seeing my ass out as I bounced up and down Izzy.

“S-stop stop. Put me down Iz .” I gasped slightly out of breath due to the nature of our activities.

“I’m gonna fucking murder you.” my brother muttered watching as I fixed my clothes into place while Izzy readjusted himself in his pants rolling his eyes.

“It’s not like she didn’t want it Duff.” he said shaking him off.

“Fuck you motherfucker.” was the last thing Izzy heard as he fell to the ground.

authors note

wht did we think :)) i’m back! i’ve been rlly busy w school so apologies!

So so so soaked

would u all be interested if i made an ig group for everyone 2 communicate & send mssgs in,,, like a little 80’s rock group? <33🎀🫶🏼💗

Conflicted: Pt 6 🎀

A/N: i couldn’t sleep so I wrote this & now i’m sleepy asf so it helped , also i hope u all enjoy !!!<333 also this one is a bit longer than other chapters i’ve written!!!

Maddy P.O.V

I spent the whole night tossing and turning unable to sleep thinking about what happened between Izzy and I at the diner.

I knew I had to tell Duff one way or another but I wasn’t so sure if that was a conversation I was ready to have.

Duff convinced our mom to let me stay here in L.A under his care and I knew indefinitely I would be shipped back home the same day if he found out about Iz and I.

My pillow wasn’t doing any justice to helping me sleep either.

I huffed and got up from my bed opening the door to grab a pillow from the couch where Izzy was sleeping.

“Iz? Are you asleep?” I whispered looking at Izzy’s lifeless body in front of me or so it seemed.

I guess that’s how he slept at night.

Like a corpse.

“No. I’m wide awake Maddy.” he mocked turning on his other side away from the peering light through my cracked room door.

“Do you have a pillow I could borrow. I can’t sleep with the one I have.” I pestered placing both hands on his shoulder that was upright at his current sleeping position.

He turned back around to face me with his squinted expression and grabbed a pillow from behind to extend it out towards me.

“Thanks.” I squealed eagerly grabbing out to it.

“Not so fast.”

“You’re gonna have to take it. If you want it so badly.”

“Izzy come on. I’m sleepy.” I whined lightly stomping my foot.

“Hey I was too! You woke me up so you have to do what I say. It’s the rule.” he remarked.

“Fine.”

I went forward and tried to grab the pillow when he grabbed my waist and pulled me onto him.

“Stop. Duff will wake up.” I squealed scrambling to get out of his strong grip.

“I’ll let you go if you give me a kiss.” he smirked.

“Just one kiss Iz.” I strictly replied.

“Fine by me. As long as I get a kiss.”

I carefully leaned in, angling my lips to his, when he slammed into mine. I was about to pull away when Izzy placed his blanket over both of us, and the warmth was too appealing to leave.

I decided to get comfortable and straddled him while he inserted his hot tongue into my mouth.

He let go of my lips but moved on to my neck, leaving little hickeys against it.

When he discovered my sweet spot, I began whimpering, and he sighed into my neck sucking harder.

I couldn't help but let out a tiny sigh and involuntarily began grinding myself against him, causing him to breathe out and hungrily return to my lips.

He briefly stopped kissing me for a second before continuing and stopping again.

"Maddy, do you know how to tongue kiss or do you just not enjoy my tongue?" he questioned, gazing at me strangely.

How can I tell him that I have absolutely no experience with boys? I don't even know how to kiss correctly.

The only reason I got away with kissing him before was because it never got too serious.

“Uhm I-I’ve never really kissed a boy before.” I mumbled hoping he didn’t really understand what I said.

“I’m also a virgin.” I cringed wondering what his reaction would be.

“That’s pretty obvious now.” he said, looking at me with a puzzled expression.

"What's wrong?" I asked, immediately convinced that he would not want me anymore given his extensive experience.

"If you're a virgin then I can't be with you."

"What do you mean?" I asked, suddenly becoming defensive.

“I don't want you to loose something as special as that to someone like me which will eventually happen if you keep this up with me." he groaned, pushing my body off of him.

"Izzy, why are you acting like I can’t think for myself?”

"You can’t make that decision for me." I spat strongly.

“I’m not good for you, Maddy. You deserve someone like yourself.”

“Not a junkie," he conceded.

“Can’t say I’m surprised.” I retorted immediately regretting coming out here for a pillow in the first place.

“You’re right. I don’t deserve a junkie like you.”

I ran straight into my room leaving the pillow behind and vowing to never talk to Izzy again.

Why did I even think that he was different. Maybe because of his nonchalant demeanor it just never seemed like he was using.

But now I knew I couldn’t even trust Izzy. I never had a great relationship with drugs. Not that I did any but I saw the way they affected Duff.

That was all the reason I needed to hate them.

The next morning I woke up ready to ignore Izzy and see his reaction but to my surprise he was doing the same.

He acted as if I wanted even there.

“Sis. Do you wanna come with Iz and I to the beach?”

I was desperately wanting a day all to myself to go to the beach but I couldn’t be left alone in such a big city.

And the company wasn’t exactly the ideal people I thought of spending a relaxing day with since Duff and Izzy were the most chaotic duo I knew but I sucked it in and agreed to come along.

“Oh and Axl is coming too.” Duff added before disappearing into his room to grab some things.

Perfect.

Axl coming was the best thing to happen ever since my mom let me travel to L.A.

I could use Axl to make Izzy jealous and realize that he wanted to be with me as badly as I wanted him.

My closet was awaiting and so were the cute bikini’s I decided to pick for the beach.

Duff wouldn’t be too pleased but I didn’t care because the whole plan was to make Izzy jealous and I was willing to do anything for that.

“I’m ready.” I told Duff coming out of the room in tiny shorts and my red bikini that I had bought from a sale at the mall here.

“Aren’t you gonna wear a shirt over that Maddy.” Duff groaned rolling his eyes at Izzy’s sudden behavior change.

“No. I think I’m pretty comfy.” I smiled walking past them both and out the door.

When we got in the car Duff had been trudging a huge bag full of soccer balls, volleyballs and other junk he had wanted to do at the beach.

“Duff I’m not sitting in the back with this stuff!” I stomped looking at the backseat which was halfway covered leaving little room for me to sit.

“Okay fine. You’ll have to sit with Maddy then Iz.” he said turning to look at Izzy.

Izzy didn’t say anything but nodded helping Duff push the stuff in the passenger seat before he closed the door and hopped into the backseat where I was sitting.

I hated in the middle since I usually got annoyed from having to deal with people on each side of me but I had no choice because Axl would be joining us soon.

“Are you both comfy?” Duff asked peering at us through the rear view mirror.

“Yeah. Fine.” Izzy muttered spreading his legs out and getting comfy.

Duff started playing some punk music really loud and completely drowned us out.

I felt Izzy’s leg’s touch mine each time the car went over a bump.

I huffed and moved over a little so there could be some room between us but for some strange reason the universe did not want that

And all of a sudden Duff made an abrupt right turn practically throwing me onto Izzy’s lap face first.

Izzy smirked before pulling me up and stroking my hair asking if I was alright.

“Stop.” I spat shoving his hand away from me.

“Come on Maddy. Don’t be like that.” he cooed grabbing onto my thigh tightly.

“Duff’s not even paying attention to us. Can I get a kiss?”

“No! You’re the one who didn’t want me last night because I wasn’t your perfect little fuck buddy.”

“I never said we had to fuck. But we could still mess around.” he said grabbing a piece of loose hair to twirl around in his finger.

I looked towards the front of the car where Duff was driving and noticed when he made the turn that one of the things he had brought was blocking him from seeing the backseat.

“Are you guys good back there. I know I can’t see you guys but I hope you both are comfy.” Duff asked.

“Yeah we’re good.” Izzy replied giving me a grin.

I rolled my eyes and pushed away from him but he was persistent on keeping me close so he grabbed my thigh and pulled me right next to him.

“Why do you keep moving away from me?” he asked pushing my hair out of my face and cupping my cheek.

“Iz you literally told me last night that you didn’t want me because I was a virgin.”

“I only said that because you’re so naive Maddy.”

“I don’t think you’ll be happy if you loose it to me. I think you’ll regret it.” he remarked to me with a sigh.

“I won’t. I promise. I like you a lot Iz. I wouldn’t want to do it with anyone else.” I murmured looking into his eyes with a hopeful gaze.

“Take these off.” he whispered tugging at my tiny shorts.

“Are you crazy. What if Duff sees!” I panicked.

“He won’t Maddy. Just do what I say.” He casually shrugged as if he understood what he was doing.

I slowly peeled off my shorts making sure they pooled around my ankles just incase Duff wanted to look back but Izzy yanked them off my ankles.

He parted my thighs so that one of them was resting in between his thighs and the other was spread wide open.

He dipped his fingers into his mouth to wet them and reached down inside my underwear, running his wet fingers up and down my pussy before coming to my clit and rubbing it quickly and harshly in circles

"Izzy." I gasped involuntarily, bucking my hips against his fingers. I gazed up at him with lust-filled eyes and kissed him messy with my tongue, doing my best to leave a spit trail when I pulled back to look down at where he was touching me.

“You like that?" he muttered, leaning in closer to feel every jerk my body made in response to his finger movements.

“Maddy?” he asked.

“Y-Yes. I love it Izzy.” I moaned

“Maddy!”

“What Izzy. What’s wrong?” I asked looking up at him through my lashes.

“Maddy! Are you okay!” Izzy asked shaking my body to wake me up.

I jerked upwards crashing into Izzy’s forehead.

“Owww.” I hissed.

“Fuck. I was just trying to wake you up. You fell asleep out of nowhere so I got worried.” he groaned rubbing his forehead where I had hit.

“Sorry.” I apologized reaching out to help him but he rejected my hand and scooting back to where he was sitting.

Duff was still listening to his punk music with the radio blasting but there was nothing blocking his view of us?

Did I just hallucinate Izzy finger fucking me in the backseat just now?

I looked at him a little too hard earning a weird look from him which caused me to look away.

He was still ignoring me like he was when I came out to the kitchen in the morning.

I let out a frustrated sigh and scooted away from him and towards the window.

It wasn’t fair how he was treating me even though I was literally giving myself to him.

And it wasn’t even in a sexual way for me. It was more the fact that I finally found a man I felt safe with that I could trust with my body.

I guess he wanted something different.