Mood

I JUST HAD THE SECOND WATTPAD MOMENT OF MY LIFE TODAY I CAN DIE IN PEACE

my life was literally falling apart and then for no reason it just started getting much better in only a few days wtf

like.. i met a guy that’s being very kind to me and he sent me a meme saying i was cute, also my crush sent me something really useful for my exams and told me to take care, also for the first time in months i managed to work so i might get better grades and i’ve just been told that i’ll be able to study what i really want to study next year

i’m trying not to cry but i’ve been screaming for half an hour because i can’t believe this is truly happening omg

Noooo I'm sorry I accidentally lied

The best day to talk to your crush is whenever you feel ready

It's April 1st y'all

The best day to talk to your crush tbh

Shoot your shot!!

You get a positive answer: congratulations, I'm happy for you :)

You get a negative answer: pretend it was a joke and it's all good, I'm sorry for you but no worries you'll be fine

i spend my time telling my 'friends' that i have a lot of free time and i'd love to spend time with them and hang out and all

and then i spend my time seeing new posts on my feed where they're all together having parties or even just hanging out at one of their houses and they're all happy, saying how cool it is to be all together

and no one told me about it, no one thought about inviting me, no one remembers my very existence, and they won't mind talking about it while i'm here, it's just completely normal for them to cut me off their lives whenever they want to and pretend they don't mean it

When they force me to go see a therapist

Therapist: Do you feel different sometimes? I mean different from the others

Me: *stays silent as if I was thinking about an answer*

Me: Don't you think we're all different?

Therapist: 0.0

Therapist: Wtf

Me: this is great!!! I finally have time to write! I can make some progress!

Me:

Pls

three years ago i was just about to talk to my 'ex' for the very first time

two years ago i was getting yelled at by my 'ex in the middle of the night bc i was working and it apparently was too late for them and it made them mad

one year ago i was slowly healing from this massive destruction i went through

tonight my intrusive thoughts made me go through all of this and i felt the abuse again as if it was still there

i'm just getting used to live on my own, i'm completely alone, facing intrusive thoughts, surrounded by people that know absolutely nothing about this all, it just feels so... it feels like i keep falling apart even more than a year after putting an end to this and it's so hard i want to give up

sirius: please let me put eyeliner on you just this once, we can’t go to a punk show if you’re not wearing eyeliner

remus: alright, fine

sirius: *sees remus with eyeliner on*

sirius, choking: holy fuck, i think i might be gay

me: *comes home from class and waits for the elevator*

random guy: *quietly says hi as i get in the elevator*

my brain: we know him

me: cool, who is he?

brain: no idea

me: but you just said-

brain: hey look, he's going to the same floor as you

me: oh yeah, maybe that's where i saw him

me: *gets out of the elevator and walks to my apartment only to realize the random guy lives in the apartment right in front of mine*

brain: oh funny, he's your neighbor

me: you bitch