Jirai Danshi - Blog Posts

If you think it's best, I can go.

I won't be mad.

i apologize for even the smallest things like i always do. it's just part of how i am i guess

even though she was supporting me i got rid of her. no way in hell am i abandoning anybody because someone like her told me to ever again.

I'm fixing myself and I don't need someone to try and derail me again.

See? I'm learning!

I don't think that's pathetic.

Art and dance are a wonderful way to cope.

I cried there three times today. I’m glad you walked in on me actually being productive this time.

Ch almost died today but he made it through the surgery. I’m so glad he’s still alive.

He’s a great person

SHE NEEDS TO UNDERSTAND IM NOT INTERESTED

SHE MESSAGED ME ON FUCKING AIRBUDS IM GONNA CRASH OUT WHY WONT SHE LEAVE ME ALONE PLEASE

Jarvis, search "how to avoid an obsessive yandere who wants to hurt me and my friends"

I went off on D perhaps a bit too hard but honestly I need to make choices for myself

And honestly, I don't need someone trying to make me promise not to talk to my friends ever again just because I made a mistake.

ngl idk why she even came back to me in the first place.

I guess she wanted to try messing someone else up.

Honestly, if i had kept her around things would probably have gotten worse.

you should just block her if you hate her that much?

Wish you luck

I'm planning on it. I just don't know how far she'll go to keep me around because shes obsessive.

Thank you, as usual :)

tell her to fuck off and block her.

if she goes to your school try your best to ignore her.

stay safe

thanks. I'll do that. I'll make sure she knows im not interested and then block her.

Thank you, as usual.

Please someone give me advice on how to tell this attention seeking obsessive headache inducing person to FUCK OFF FOREVER.

this is about D btw

maybe if D paid attention to ANYTHING i've said, she would know that im not interested in her

You've done enough damage, D. Leave my life once again

Nope nope nope nope nope nope

Yes, we used to be friends

NO, I am not getting with you no matter what you threaten, D

What makes you think I'd let myself make a mistake like that again?

You can go dig yourself that hole, I'm done listening.

I know what I want, and it's NOT a fake angel who wants me to abandon my friends for her.

You can go fuck off now, D

you're gonna be okay.

stay safe.

I know, I know I'll be okay. I know everything will be alright. I'll hold on with every last slice of energy I have to my name.

I've been beaten down before.

I just have to remember how to get back up.

Thank you anon.

Sometimes I feel like crying and curling up and crying more but I know if I let it out it’ll worry people and I still have energy to keep going.

I’m fine everyone I’ll be alright!

I just need to find a period of time to be alone while I break down!

I can’t afford to break down in front of you right now, and if I break down at home my mom will bother me about it.

All I can do is listen to opal! “You’re strong, I know you are!”

I’ll stay strong for all of you! I have time to rest when I’m alone!

"...You're strong. I know you are..."

What an oddly familiar phrase. What an odd thing to tell me.

Thank you, Opal. I'm glad I stopped you back then.

I hope Ch lives.

One of my best online friends is dying in the hospital right now.

He has a brain tumor and he's going in for surgery. He might die and he might go braindead depending on how the surgery goes.

His parent's don't care enough to be there with him so the only person with him is his therapist.

Please don't let one of the good ones die, God. I know he'll go to heaven, but he can't leave yet. He has so much ahead of him.

Ch if you die I don't know if I could handle it.

It wasn't me I swear it wasn't me I would never say anything like that I'm so sorry.

Whoever it was should be ashamed

It wasn't me I can promise you.

I thought I knew who I was, but it was all a mistake.

I know who I am now.

I had an awakening today and I'm finally on the right path.

I won't stop here. I'll keep doing everything I can to get better.

And I promise I'll stop letting myself get hurt.

...the marks on my arms look suspicious but I promise they're just scrapes.

I made progress and growth today.

If you'd like to hear.

I made up with someone I've been upset with. I finally apologized to him and his friends.

They were happy that I was back.

I fixed that. I repaired my relationship there.

I really did.

I didn't do it to make them feel better this time.

I made a choice for myself finally, and it didn't end up hurting anyone.

I won't even be hurt by letting him back into my life. He's a good person.

Bleeding into unbroken shoes feels like a crime. Scraping arms against ledges I shouldn't climb. These are things I should have hidden too. Because all they did was get to you.

...I'm sorry.

Lost my breakfast to take my medication.

At least I’ll be able to regulate and hide better

I can hide. I can avoid you. These are things I know I can do.

I’ll do it if you want.

I can do better to stay out of sight. Would that be good?

Even they told me “You are just naturally good at disappearing”

I can do that again. I can disappear.

I want to give you space.

What do I do if I see you in that stairwell?

I don’t know what to do.

I will fix myself this time. This is the last chance I'll give myself. I promise you won't be disappointed. The last thing I'd want would be to let you down now.

I can promise you that I'll do literally anything to prove I've made improvement.