I Have So Many Thoughts - Blog Posts

People: Your so quiet what’s on your mind?

Me: this scene from the Since I Don’t Have You music video

SERIOUS QUESTION:

should i start writing/publishing fanfics in my free time?

i have a few that i’ve kept to myself and i wanna know if anyones interested.

i think i would take requests too for different games / fandoms such as (but not limited to):

- detroit become human

- the walking dead

- the wolf among us

- the quarry

- until dawn

- the dark pictures anthology

let me know if yall are interested and what other stuff i should play!

Omg wait you’re accepting friend requests now, can I be your friend, Ev?

Yes I am very multifaceted, omg of course you can be my friend! :D

#6 I HATE

To "the lie..." Is the human need to lie really that great? Yes, totally, I am not a saint. I repeat, I hate lying anyway, it's the worst thing someone can do to another person.

Shit why does everyone have to lie? What is difficult in telling the stupid truth, even in the smallest life they lie, I hear lies every day, at least 7 times in a simple conversation of more than three minutes, it is so easy to lie, very easy to do it.

For some people like me it is not, lying tortures me, I can't lie without feeling guilty and crying, when it has been my turn to lie, I could never keep a lie for more than 3 hours.

I feel like my mouth is on fire, but for some people it's not. It is so easy to lie for them, they have no trace of regret or empathy for the person they are lying to. No, you don't lie out of fucking stupid neediness, while out of stupid liking, you lie because you like it, no one ever lies because they need to, no one needs to lie.

Everybody lies, but in my case. All my life women have lied to me. My mother, the girls in my class, all the women I've come across have lied to me. If you don't want to go out with me just tell me, don't make up stupid shit, damn it.

Mom, just tell me that you hate me, don't lie to me, boys lie to me too, don't take it the wrong way...

Is lying a primitive sense of the human being? Or is it just a vague excuse for people to hurt others?

What else do I hate?

Ah yes!