One Of My Health Issues Thats Been Stable For Around 8 Years Is Suddenly Worsening The Past Month And

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hi my name is bee, welcome to my main blog! it’s basically my diary.

here i talk about my experience as a LSN disabled/chronically ill person! i am medically complex and have medical PTSD. i also talk about abuse and childhood trauma. if any of those topics trigger you this is your warning ♡

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barbie ever after high marvel precure strawberry shortcake tangled winx club

Free Palestine.

and what i really want is more deformed characters who are GOOD instead of this awful pattern of the deformed characters being evil.

anyways i am currently working on multiple such characters.

Really wish I saw more art of deformed characters. More diversity in bodies. I feel like people are scared to draw us because they’re worried they’ll do it wrong or something. But 1. wrong and trying is better than nothing, and 2. you can always ask somebody for input. There are always people who are willing to answer your questions, you just have to find them. My asks are always open and I know a to of other people who are like that, too.

the levels of brain fog i am experiencing i might as well be in fucking silent hill

I've been a winx fan since like... forever, I can't believe Rai is using AI to make the reboot.

(Thanks to Maiky Odel, they shared the proof they could find with me)

lately if im not constantly occupying my brain i spiral.

my mind is exhausted from the constant stimulation but i dont know what else to do.

im on day 39 of a migraine, hospital have given up on me, makes it hard to not give up on myself.

Asking someone you barely know what their disability is equatable to just coming up to someone and saying “hey what’s the most traumatic thing that’s ever happened to you?”

Able-bodied people assume most people with mobility aids ESPECIALLY wheelchairs, have been in some sort of traumatic accident, and yet y’all still come up to us asking.

the way that when youre a young adult who is disabled/chronically ill older people often say things like

“just wait until youre my age”

“you young people are so soft now”

“when i was your age i wouldn’t have complained like this”

but when a child is disabled they consider it tragic, what do they think happens to disabled children do they not grow up to be disabled young adults? 😭

theres been 2 times in my life where i lost every friend i had for being sick its ruthless out there

I didn’t get a lot of love growing up. Things got worse the more queer I became.

I love the way our community does found-family. I spent most of my life finding lost queers and helping them. People come and people go but I was always welcoming people into my family. Always giving what I could give. Always sharing what I know. Always sharing connections.

When I got sick everyone left. Everyone left and I am a ghost.

Turns out when you give give give give and give…people are happy to take.

They don’t come back for you when you need it.

They leave when there’s nothing left to take.

its devastating, seeing the life ive longed for happen to others while im stuck in bed in a flare up… again.. its so hard.

i unfollow a lot of people for this honestly, if i havent seen them in the past few years then i dont see the point in seeing a bunch of posts that make me feel bad, its sad.

Being chronically ill in your 20s is stupid you have to see your peers like “started a family🥰” “got married😍” “bought a house😇” “scored a promotion😋” meanwhile you’re fighting for your life to take a shower