โ ๐๐ก๐๐ค๐ฉ ยซ๐๐ก๐ ๐๐ซ๐๐งยป ๐๐๐ง๐๐๐ก๐ย & ๐ซ๐๐๐ฉ๐ค๐ง ๐ซ๐๐ก๐.
ยซ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ, ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ข๐ฅ๐ญ๐บ, ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐จ๐ข๐ฑ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ต๐ธ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ญ๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ, ๐ข ๐ด๐ฑ๐ข๐ค๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต.ยป
ยซ๐ช๐ง ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ช ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ข ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฐ, ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ท๐ช๐ค๐ต๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ต๐ฐ๐ฑ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ, ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ ๐ข ๐ท๐ช๐ญ๐ญ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ?ยป
ยซ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ค๐ข๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ช'๐ฎ ๐ข ๐ฃ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฏ,ยป ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ข๐ช๐ฅ. ยซ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ช ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐จ.ยปย
waking up and being genuinely thrilled to go to class because today is THAT CLASS you love so much youโd like it to never end
coffee breaks with friends, chatting and joking about this particularly hard essay and the profโs mannerism
coffee breaks on your own, as you absent-mindedly watch the people around you, while thinking about what youโre working on
finding this book youโve been dying to read for so long, and borrowing it from the library
the feeling of excitement that goes through you whenever you remember The Book is in your backpack
understanding everything during demanding classes and being genuinely interested in the subject
buying a New Special Pen and taking colorful notes that look super pretty
not being able to shut up about your school projects (no your friends dont really care about the intricate details of what youโre working on, they donโt even have the same major as you, but theyโre happy to hear you rant with such a burning passion)
actually doing the extra reading and having your curiosity so piqued by what youโre reading that you go on and on and suddenly its 1am and what happened
printing the project youโve spent so much time and energy on and feeling the paperโs warmth
actually submitting that project without feeling awful about it because you know you did your best and arenโt responsible for what happens next
when you finally finish this Super Hard And Important Essay at like 3am, open the window and feel the cold night air on your burning cheeks and everything is dark and quiet and you can see the moon and youโre at peace with everything for a few minutes
when this professor you admire says you did a great job and/or that youโre talented!!!!
realizing two concepts that seemed so far away from each other and that you discovered in wildly different contexts are actually interlinked, then Realizingโข things and linking concepts/works/articles to each other at the speed of light & being super excited about it
being so deeply immersed in your work that you didnโt realize two hours have passed
finding the Perfect Spot at the library
that Pure Joy moment when you FINALLY understand that super obscure sentence/text
when you feel anxious because youโre not done with your homework & the deadline is super tight & your friend tells you they arenโt done yet either
same but with an even more intense relief feeling when you realize you both havenโt even started yet
when the professor starts a new reasoning and you can predict what the next idea/the final conclusion will be
when the professor mention your favorite novel/author/fictional character in class and you feel like your internal screech of joy could shatter glass
the Academic Saltโข that has you like ๐๐
when the professor tears apart an author or scholar you hate and youโre like YES I WANT BLOOD GIVE ME BLOOD
when you learn that Cool New Fact that makes you reconsider your whole life
leaving the library after a long productive day and feeling like nothing is real but experiencing everything more intensely
leaving the library at night after a long study session and everybody has left already and its just you and the long neon-lit corridors then stepping outside and smelling the crisp night wind
so my mom finally finished reading the secret history and the first thing she said was ยซthey're all such idiotsยป
couldn't agree more, mom
noah's face when charlotte says that he is not her father?? i'm gonna fucking die
every morning i wake up & get my coffee & i recite in my head this excerpt fromย โinvitation,โ by mary oliver:ย โit is a serious thing just to be alive on this fresh morning in the broken world.โ & i just say it over & over again until it sticks to my mind for the rest of the day. it is a serious thing. i am alive. i am so lucky. this fresh morning i get the chance to live again & again & again
what if... regina have never met and helped aleksander so he died in the woods because of his wound and blood loss...... ok i'm crying
i am fucking sobbing. after quentinโs whole arc overcoming his suicidal tendencies. after finally acknowledging quentinโs queerness and showing his relationship with eliot. after q falls back into his depression and self-sacrificial bullshit. after that speech about howย โpeople like me could mean something.โ he was just gonna fucking die??? i am completely devestated and confused and angry. what a fucking gut punch to everyone who ever loved this show and saw themselves in quentinย
old vent art inspired by my favorite songs
[oh how fast the evening passes
cleaning up the champagne glasses]
asleep by the smiths // fireworks by mitski // last words of a shooting star by mitski // carry me out by mitski // guilt tripping by frnkiero andthe cellabration // funeral by phoebe bridgers // unfucktheworld by angel olsen // cigar by tamino // fourth of july by sufjan stevens