I CANT BREATHE THIS IS TOO FUNNY
sometimes I use photoshop for good, and sometimes I use it for whatever this is. But all of it is art.
Man, this day is going… okayish? I can’t see the new MD episode today because of my time zone, AO3 is STILL down, and it’s not sure if I will get to see my partner tomorrow (maybe mom will say no bc of Easter plans). I mean at least I can watch the new episode tomorrow in an alert and awake state instead of waiting until 11 pm to watch it and be all sleepy and unresponsive when I do watch it (and prolly not being able to sleep after bc of the emotions and thoughts it might bring me, both positively and negatively) so there’s that.
I’M IN CLASS AND I’M TRYING NOT TO LAUGH BWAHAHAHAH
26 new slogans for Coca-Cola
Feeling stressed, not bright and not on my best, but at least my hair’s a 10/10!
“Are you like, gonna leave me?”
~Uzi Doorman, Murder Drones episode 4: “Cabin Fever”
"Stay."
"Just go."
"I hate you."
"Because I love you."
"Don't leave me."
"Leave me alone."
"I need space."
"Don't go."
"Talk to me."
"I want only you."
"You need to move on."
"Please, speak to me."
"This will end now."
"I want to forget you."
"Hate me."
"Why?"
"Lie to me."
"I can't do this."
"Tell me."
"I'm just afraid."
"Please, leave."
"You can't leave me."
"I need you."
"Don't do this."
"Just stop."
"It's over."
"Tell me the truth."
"I can't lose you."
"We're done."
"Please."
Why does your video watermark change overtime-
bcuz I like that lmao
I fucking love these “clank clank clank YOUCHH” posts lmfaoooo
[windows error sound]
YEOWCH!!!!
CONSEEEEEEEENTTTT!!!!!!!!🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 WE MAKING HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS WITH THIS ONE!🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
"Can I hold your hand?"
"Is it okay to kiss you?"
"Can I hug you?"
"Can I call you later?"
"Is it okay if I sleep here tonight?"
"Can I touch your hair?"
"I would love to spoil you, can I do this for you?"
"Can I tell people about us?"
"Would you allow me to walk you home?"
"Is it okay to randomly text you?"
"Can I take a picture of you?"
"Can I use a picture of you as my background?"
"Is it okay if we cuddled while watching the movie?"
"Would you let me take care of this for you?"
"Are you okay with me calling you my girl/boyfriend?"
What on earth have I just created?
I was feeling some complicated emotions regarding grief, emotions around grief, and other stuff. My grandma died on May 17th last year and I was feeling some confusion around all these feelings so yeah. Okay here’s the poem:
Blanket of grief
Grief, it’s complicated It feels so heavy Like a heavy blanket wrapped around your body It cuts so deep Like a knife going right for the heart It stings so bad Like a bunch of needles pricking your very soul It hits so hard Like a freight train going at full speed And hitting your spirit, which is stuck on the tracks At full force, without mercy It hurts, it hurts so much
And yet, as I’m starting to move on As the grief becomes less and less fresh As I’m starting to get used to the new normal A weird part of me, a twisted part of me, even Kind of misses it
A part of me misses the blanket The heavy blanket of grief The heavy blanket of empty sadness The heavy pressure on my soul Part of me finds comfort in the empty hollowness The deep sorrow my soul experienced While having that heavy blanket wrapped around itself
Part of me misses the knife The knife that cut through my heart at every memory I remembered Every memory of her The knife I tried to avoid by distracting myself The knife of truth, a painful truth, I tried to dodge Even though that only made the cuts bigger, the pain worse
Part of me misses the needles The needles that would prick my soul The needles which poked and taunted me from within The needles that came with each guilty thought, each unanswered question The needles of guilt and confusion, which I didn’t know how to deal with back then The guilt and confusion plaguing my very self at random
Sometimes, the freight train hits me again That’s the only thing I can’t really miss Not yet, at least It’s less bad, it hits less hard Less noticeable than when it was still new and fresh But it is there It hits with anything that reminds me of her It hits as I imagine what it would be like if she was still here Only to remember that she isn’t Not anymore The freight train brings the missed feelings back It comes with the blanket of sadness, knife of truth and needles of guilt and confusion Even though they’re all less heavy Less hard to deal with Less hard to swallow pills
I don’t know why I miss the fresh days of grief I didn’t like those times at all And still, an odd part of me Feels drawn to them Like a nostalgic memory I miss the blanket, even though it’s better that I learn to sleep without it I miss the knife, even though it’s good my heart is healing I miss the needles, even though it’s good that I’m hurting less What’s going on with me?
Feel free to comment and give your opinion on it but please don’t be mean, as this is a vent poem.
Sup everyone! Call me Mic (or Youra if you know me irl). I just post silly stuff here. I am into a bunch of things tbh lmao. So yeah if you wanna look around, you're welcome to stop by!
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