You Know I Hate Myself Sometimes.....

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charming YCH's for @denim-lich ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ commissions and YCHs are still open btw!!!

aggressor, rescuer and victim

an art about codependency

it's very important for me to get your feedback on this picture (╥ᆺ╥；)

Sergio my original character :D on the first art he is with his lovely wife!

i got a new OC. i haven't bought new characters in my settings for a very long time, and so i became very picky about the designs i'm going to develop. but this adoptable won me over, it was love at first sight.

the author of the design: ↟ homunculus factory ↟

has is no name yet, but there is a supposed place in the setting: the watchman of the endless house*.

*the endless house is a normal-sized concrete structure on the outside and a huge space without a ceiling, with a lot of stairs and doors inside. one of the known and partially explored anomalous spaces.

finished stand with Heather!! i REALLY like the result

just scratched something cute.

♪ Mitski – Washing Machine Heart (slow & reverb)

TW: child abuse.

it was hard after an unsuccessful attempt to sit down to write this again, but i need this. sad things is on topic today.

Tolya's childhood can be called quite happy and even carefree. his parents loved him and protected him, but, of course, they could not protect him from everything. Tosha's socialization during elementary school was particularly difficult, he was very different from other (especially human) children. and yet, he hardly felt any attention from them, which could not be said about the teachers, whom he always offended with his psychopathic self-willed behavior. nevertheless, he studied well and had no hard problems until a certain point: the class teacher was replaced by a new one and then the situation changed dramatically. the new teacher's attention to Tolya and the other children was different – it was sick, poisonous. she called the students "her children" and the school "their second home". everyone liked her except Tosha and some other students. she often scolded and punished him and the others. she seemed to "love" him especially. she allowed herself a lot in relation to him.

Tosha's academic performance declined significantly during that period, he often began to refuse to go to school and this could not go unnoticed. eventually, his father found out about everything and immediately went to investigate in person. after a while, the teacher was fired and a couple of articles on the web were even devoted to this case. and Tolya has been home-schooled ever since.

it's been years since then. Anatoly already become an adult conscious person, coped with a lot of problems, but there is one, difficult and complex, that haunts him to this day.

intimacy is hard for him, especially sexual ones, although he himself is not yet able to realize it. and yet he still allows others to break his boundaries, to do whatever they want with his body. grab, push, "love"... after all, he's a psychopath, this means nothing to him. no one feel sorry for someone like him. who can even hurt someone like him.

my piece for Touhou Project Zine!