But I Feeeeeel So Teensy Weensyyyyyyyyy I Jus Wanba Be Tiny

i think that's v understandable i'm almost 19 nd i still get upset nd apologize when my plushies fall on the floor, bc i know it made them sad darn right baby didn't wanna be touched, u advocate for them, homie !!! /aff /sil /pos /gen i hope u n baby r doing ok <3 /gen /p /aff

I hate feeling so stupid talking about Baby

I think if we talk about her with our friends they'll laugh at us

He just means so much to me

I see Baby as if she was a "real cat"

She feels pain

She has emotions

She has opinions

But if I told anyone that they'd laugh at me and say something mean

I just love her a lot

I got really upset because someone touched baby without our permission

I wasn't just upset because someone touched our things but also because Baby didn't want to be touched

Baby can't communicate thoughh

mmmmm .>_<.

Baby is my favorite plush

My favorite cat

I love him a lot

um ,,, ok pinterest ,,,

Do you have any analysis or thoughts about the scene chapter 40 (Sophie sees the drawing green journal and that awkward conversation) sorry I just haven’t seen anyone discuss it yet

at first i didn't think this needed an analysis because it was a given what was going on - but i knew better than to let it slide and decided to give the scene a reread.

and oh boy.

if you yourself need a refresher, sophie has just come home from foxfire. keefe is under the panakes drawing after a training session with grady. sophie and keefe exchange their thoughts about their classes, the current stellarlune situation, and what keefe is drawing. keefe shows sophie that he drew ethan and eleanor's graves. during the discussion, keefe becomes frustrated and pushes the journals off his lap - flipping the green one open to the page where he had drawn sophie and fitz performing a cognate exercise.

sophie sees it as she is going to clean up the mess for him. she mentions that her and fitz's gazes are intense, but that's not what she's interested in: she's interested in how keefe drew her.

"Her hair was slightly messy, and her tunic was a little crooked, and she was slouching the way her human mom used to tell her would turn her spine into a twisty pretzel if she didn't work on better posture. But mostly, she looked like her. A little awkward. A whole lot nervous. Definitely not perfect. And... she kinda loved that about it."

this is all we get to hear from her before keefe snatches the journal away, feeling awkward that she discovered it. but this set of inner monologue holds a lot more weight than you think.

a) i want to focus really quick on the 'definitely not perfect' line. this is a direct tie-in to fitz.

only a handful of pages later, fitz and sophie complete their "cognate inquisition". during this, sophie enters fitz's 'core of verity' which is supposed to hold no defense mechanisms or barriers. it is a true reflection of one's self. sophie, on her journey to this place, sees herself in the center of fitz's mind. but unlike the drawing keefe created, this sophie is polished. she's posing, flashing a smile, looking undefeated... and perfect, as she mentions. but while fitz means well with the image, this pedestal and the woman on top of it is not her. it's not accurate to who she is in real life.

so, for sophie to witness the difference between how the two boys view her is huge. they both do have deep affection for her, but the lens they view her from is different. keefe has a camera; fitz has a microscope.

b) most people would cringe to be drawn in such an accurate, "flawed" light. sophie isn't gazing into the sunset looking blissfully aloof. she's not posing for the camera. she's caught in what most would considering an unflattering position. she's hunched, she looks 'awkward' and 'nervous'. her hair is messy, her clothes are crooked...

i can tell you little to no one who would want to be caught like that by their crush. but sophie doesn't shy from having keefe not only seen her that way, but record it - no, she enjoys it. she feels happy to share that side of herself with him. she's glad he gets to see the imperfect person she is. 

that right there just proves multiple things to me: how long this love has run without her really knowing it, how ready she is to be open in a relationship, and how real this connection is to her.

sophie doesn't desire something movie-worthy with him. she wants something real.

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@pm-writer that's so cute omf >x3

i love payjay how does oj even get his arms around paper idk i love them

came across an acct made within the past 2 days based solely on hating on the osc the creator is a former member of the osc, but says bc of the trauma he experienced by being cyberbullied by members of the community, he left i'm not going to tag him, because that's going to give him a lot more clout than he deserves but i jsut wanna say: i understand trauma, and it's definitely a big thing if it means you can't enjoy something anymore, then it's sad, but it is what it is but hurting other people isn't going to heal you do you rlly think that hating on the osc and all of its members is going to bring some kind of better being about ? it's not going to fix anything object shows, ESPECIALLY ii, have tended to be a safe haven and comfort space for many people, esp those in the queer and neurodivergent communities hating someone you don't even know for having a special interest or hyperfixation on something that people who who hurt you also had an interest in is just continuing the cycle of abuse let people have their enjoyments and be nice everyone just be nice

they're both super good !!! i need to read ltsf again, i only read it through once-

i'm curious, kotlc/ltsf fans,

my dears, i identify with some transid // transbody terms but ,,,

there is a HUGE difference between wanting // feeling like my guts should be made out of candy and my eyes should be pink, etc. etc. and wanting // feeling like one should be a different race, or differently abled . i do not condone the spread of hate and violence, but i also do not condone transability and transraciality . there's probably other not good ones i'm forgetting (if there is, pls feel free to let me know) ,,,, but i digress . the idea that one can "transition" to another race, another ethnicity, another culture the idea that one can "transition" to being disabled is FOUL . because no, if you were born a certain race, that is your culture- that is your heritage- you can choose to be disconnected from it, and be really interested in other cultures, but you cannot claim to be another race entirely . i am like- so white- like really white- (i haven't dna tested, but my mum has, nd most of her heritage is from like- germany-) and as a white person, i am saying LEAVE THE OTHER CULTURES ALONE !!! you are NOT transafrican, or whatever you want to call it, you need help from a therapist . and being transabled ?? is virtually a mockery of disabled people . disabilities are not cool, they are not something that you can just decide to be . as a partner of someone with disabilities, i've seen how much they can affect your ability to basically function, and to just decide to say "hey, so actually, i'm somethimthisehitimeithin-about-limbs-and-i-don't-remember-any-of-the-disability-words-but-yk" like- no . you're not . you have a well-oiled perfectly functioning body . put the mobility aids and your sticker collection away . actually, yk what ?? DONATE those mobility aids to someone who NEEDS them .

all that being said, there's the mental aspect of it let's start with systems once again--there's a HUGE difference between having or being a headmate who is of a different ethnicity // race than the body xx having or being a headmate with abilities than that of the body and everything i've said above because that's actually a different person, not just someone whose thought process is wonked . then there's like- mentally ill mental illness- like i'm talking a little lady strolling around thinking that she's a mexican deadlifter--she is going to physically harm herself trying to do things, because whatever's in her brain has gotten so twisted that she is convinced of something physically impossible in the end, i hope everybody can jsut- open their eyes and we can all be happy together and wish we all had star pupils and not that we were born a different culture ,,, if you got this far, thanks for reading <3 it's almost 1:20am, i should probably get to bed-

🌹 a flower for everyone not feeling their best today

this one's a little self-indulgent

i just got into obama's hidden info objects the other day, nd the community is so tiny, but i found this gif nd decided i wanted to make a web graphic of one of my favorite sillies: paper baggy <333