One of my favorite things about Neil was when he was questioning his sexuality. He looked at Nicky and Matt to see if his feelings towards them had changed to try and deduce if he was gay tm. Of course, he came to the conclusion that he’s pretty exclusively attracted to Andrew, but did he ever even think to look at the identical twin of the man he had just kissed? No, why would he do that. Like hmm, I enjoyed kissing this person, does someone who looks the same give me the same feelings? Never even crossed his mind. Of course he isn’t attracted to Aaron. That’s disgusting. This petty ass man will always have my heart.
thinking about evervale raising a toast to immortality and being remembered forever, and tristancallum toasting to the fragility of mortality and the inevitable descent into chaos and dust, and the greek class raising their glasses — camilla saying, “to live,” though she never truly got to, and bunny adding, “to live forever,” though in the end, he didn’t, and neil perry talking about acting, "i could live dozens of great lives. to be or not to be. that is the question! for the first time in my life, i feel completely alive," and then committing s*icide after performing in his first ever play...
this is how neil describes people that isn’t andrew in his pov
i can’t believe some of y’all read this line and decided to be normal about it
i love going about my day and acting like I don’t think about it every waking moment
There's a long scene of Gilgamesh just asking enkidu about how different people are doing in the afterlife, I take it as like moral lessons on how people live their lives but god these two together are so fucking funny "they cannot mend his bones"
what is the spear cuts through water about? great question.
your lola said it was a romance but your dad said it is NOT romance. it's about an oppressive regime and the rebellion. the moon is there and so it the water. your lola is telling you the story but you are also watching it in a theater. it's deeply upsetting but also really funny sometimes. it's about redemption and regret. it's about longing. it's also totally gay. it's written in first, second, AND third person. it's absolute chaos but also beautifully structured. 10/10 would recommend.
how did Richard casually mention doing cocaine in a burger king parking lot and then ONE LINE LATER call Judy a 'senseless cokehead'
my dude drop the superiority complex
rip Neil Josten u would've loved reversible jeans and Duolingo
This is such a revealing passage in regards to how Neil views other people and the world in general. He's so compartmentalized he just straight-up won't process information he deems irrelevant to the things he cares about if it takes any extra time or effort.
I think he's probably so hypervigilant that he notices almost everything going on around him at all times but that's way too much information to deal with, especially when reacting and making decisions quickly is a matter of life and death like it often is for him, so he does this. Filters out everything unnecessary so he can focus only on what's most important.
You know when Andrew does the thing where he has someone pick a number, and then he lets the other team score that many times, then shuts them out? I imagine him just standing there in the middle of the goal, leaning on his racquet, motionless, then, after the team shoots around him and scores the number, he stands up straight, gives his racquet a little twirl, and takes a defensive position. It's at this moment that the other team knows they're losing.
I feel like most people forget Adam is almost as much of a nerd as Gansey, he's just more... covert about it.
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