Asmo: I Don't Dress To Impress, I Dress To Depress

2019 2022

God, I can't tell you how much the "there's not enough enrichment in my enclosure" joke has helped my mental health. Because, for some reason I can't comprehend, pretending that I'm a zoo keeper caring for an animal (which is also me) just makes everything easier to comprehend. Like "Your head gets screwey when you're apartment is messy" just doesn't carry as much resonance as "The tiger becomes agitated when its enclosure is cluttered" because then I'll be like, no shit? The tiger? I've gotta keep things nice and clean for the tiger.

tw // gr00ming, hypersexualization, long-ish vent

i fucking hate the thought of being intimate with someone. being groomed literally ruined that for me but at the same time im so hypersexual i feel so disgusting. im so gross. yes i know what happened to me wasnt my fault (even tho i still think it was). some days im so udderly sex replused then some days im so hypersexual its all i can think about. the thought of someone seeing me in a sexual way makes me feel so fucking disgusting and uncomfortable but then again it feels like thats the only way i can get attention. because im not attractive like other girls i need to sell myself to men to get any form of attention and its fucking disgusting i hate myself and cant stand the feeling for being looked at. i wish i could talk about this in therapy but my mom cant know about it, she would say its my fault and that im disgusting. even after i told my friends about it and they said they dont see me any differently i cant help but think theyre lying. im gross arent i. sending gross pics to a man on reddit because its the only way i felt pretty and loved. a grown man at that who probably has those pictures saved and they're probably on some fucking p0rn site. god thinking about it makes me wanna throw up

things to normalize:

• having no friends

• spending most of your time/weekends at home

• not wanting to do drugs or drink alcohol

• being single

• struggling with your mental health

• not knowing how to drive or not wanting to drive

• living at home with family

• not wanting children

• not wanting to get married

• going to therapy

• never being in a relationship

• being a virgin

• not being okay/happy all the time

• men being in touch with their emotions/being able to openly express their emotions

• body hair on women

• ethnic features

• introverts/naturally quiet people

• doing things alone/by yourself

• not going to college or a prestigious school

• not wearing any makeup

“I was asked why me and a certain person don't speak anymore. After giving a brief explanation they responded why don't you be the bigger person and reach out and discuss the issue.

People tend to think being the bigger person means speaking on a issue, but don't realize sometimes being the bigger person means moving on from the situation and the person. Stop forcing relationships that are toxic. Stop reaching out just to think you both came to a understanding then the same shit repeats itself. It's okay not to have people you love in your life. Love and peace is a combination and I can love you from a distance peacefully.”

The neurodivergent urge to do this

the g in lgbt stands for ghoul

[id: “I like your gay pride shirt” meme and on the shirt is the 6 main monster high ghouls /end id]

i had a dream last night where there was a new version of tbh going around called "tbh all grown up", it could float and looked like this

the farmer was always included

i love tbh i wish he was real