ps st. i th in k yo u sh ou ld go ta lk to he r .
Aw, she doesn't want to hear from me. We took her lil' slice of heaven right out from under her!
t his is n't heaven. an d this is the first time i' ve h eard her ad mit th at since.... you k no w.
Hm. Fair point!
is it so hard to find somewhere where i can be l o v e d? 🖤
someone to take my hand and actually mean it when they smile at me. like someone who wouldn’t rather be anywhere else in that moment and something about the way their eyes crease as they smile makes me so sure of that like it’s some kind of truth buried in the dirt stuck in the soles of my converse.
i promise i’ll care about you that same way in return. or i’ll try my best.
maybe what i need is r e b i r t h. maybe i’m not the life destined for a blissful eternity. like maybe if i hadn’t come in here i’d be giving another version of myself a better shot at heaven.
it’s not like i’ve done anything to deserve it HERE. 💒
i guess i just thought with all the bad happening to me something g o o d had to be at the end of the tunnel, you know?
but i don’t think so.
baby birds fall out of their nests and get eaten and run over and stuff all the time. and i don’t think they deserve that, if they’ve only been alive for a few days or something. sometimes the world is just s h i t 💔
or maybe there’s just something about me something wrong like, i’m not stupid. i know i wasn’t, like, popular in school. but it was fine. i wasn’t bullied either. just kinda ignored, i guess.
but i had friends online. even if they were, like, a bit inconsistent. they got tired of me too, after a while. but by the time they did, i would’ve already found the next one.
you don’t really run out of people when you’re online. and you control what they see, from the moment you meet them. 🖤
like i don’t really know what my classmates in real life saw like maybe i had really bad b.o. or never closed my mouth when i chewed or talked way too loud in class or something
but i don’t know. i’ll never know.
i guess i do know i was annoying in other ways to my online friends annoying in ways that were harder to hide like when you fill up something glass with something too hot too fast and it just shatters
but online you can always try to change, right? you can always try to improve yourself for the next person. you can always mold your reality. and if you heard that kind of h e a v e n could be your f o r e v e r, wouldn’t you come in too?
spoilers: it’s not all that. and you can’t change yourself from the trash you are.
l m a o.
sorry.
Hey Will!! I assume you'll be leaving to see Henry sometime soon so here’s a drawing I made for you. Best of luck finding him!! <33
Wow! That’s terrific, kid! A genuine masterpiece. Ya got my hair and eyes and everything! I’ll definitely frame it before I head out. Thanks, pal!
you’re all musicians? what kind of music does Tati make?
She fiddles on her computer, kinda in the way Henry would plunk things out on his various doohickeys back in the day. And sings! Figure most of her tunes are gone now.
Ten more minutes, and we're neck-in-neck! Be sure to do your civic duty and drop a vote, folks! If you'd like to keep seein' our mugs about here!
i'm swea tin g haha. but they wouldn't let u s d own.
Out of curiosity, what's the last thing you remember before the abime?
Feel like I've always had one foot in here in those early days, but it's hard to tell. It was a kinda mix of both. Sometimes I'd feel like one of those insects with the eyes that are a buncha tiny eyes all together, you know -- Henry showed me a photograph of one once -- watching eighty different things in eighty different places. Sometimes it's all just quiet. Nowadays, it's mostly quiet, so I feel like I can be in here in one piece real solid.
S'pose the only memory I can concretely say was before all of this was being seventeen or eighteen, tickling the Ivories in that recording room. Singing.
Sad wet cat no more!!! He now is full of love and happiness with his chow chow boyfriend!!
+ a bonus of ya'll :)
p.s Henry I hope you feel better soon!! :D I've heard people are gonna send you some stuff to try to help!! Meanwhile enjoy some art of ya'll. Hope you guys have a very nice day :)
Aces! These are ab-so-lute-ly perfect! Makes me beam from ear to ear to see my likeness with my honeypie! Wahoo! Thanks a ton, pal!
woah! that cat is outrage ous. looks just like you! and that sketch is stellar. love that little flower - a su nflower, maybe? i'm no g re at shak es with ident ific atio ns haha. tha nks bunc hes!
Well, I think rollin' up your sleeves and divin' into some good honest work is better than askin' for someone else's cheat sheet afterwards, wise guy! Let's stop bumpin' gums and let the damn thing play out. A day left -- it's anyone's game!
handing this to william Instantly
WOW! Henry, take a gander! It looks just like you!
h e y... may b e.
"Angels in America:" Final denouement.
Wait do you guys know what her plan is????
Assumin' she's simply upset about the deal she made with me and wants to take it back now, but I ain't got a clue! Maybe she just wants a hello all friendly-like!
you ma de a dea l with her?
Yup! Just a mutually beneficial sorta arrangement. She showed me the ropes around this place and let me hang around here! Seemed all right to share the joint, y'know?
i'm sure we could renegotiate the deal if sh e's up set. i'm not su pp o s e d to be here either. sort of a surprise subleas e situation haha i'd understand if she wants me gone
Well, I ain't lettin' that happen! But I s'pose you're right. We oughtta talk it out with her if she ever comes by.
she doesn't like m e but i'll do my best isn't there en ough room for all of us?
I s'pose, if she's amenable to it! At least, she was amenable to it once.
do you have any particular plans i could help with?
Thanks for the offer, pal! If you're talkin' 'bout my experiments, I'm at a bit of a scientific standstill right now, I suppose, since I'm packin' for a big trip in a few hours! Though ya can always help by pokin' around -- gettin' to know more about me so I can get to know more about you, if ya get what I'm sayin'!
Just two fellas who spend their time en abime. We'll see ya there!
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