-kurea:)
digital diary: @kureachiyekoblog
(non sh)
The Death of Orpheus (Henri-Léopold Lévy, c. 1870)
First time ever I've got a main part!!
I got Pilar who, if you don't know, is one of Elle's best friends in Legally blonde
I get to sing and have my own little very girly moment on stage
(I wanted Margot but another girl got her and she's really good so I'm very proud lol)
I wish I was religious
I love the idea of truly believing in something or someone higher than me, having someone to dedicate part of my life to and look to for guidance.
Unfortunately at like age 5 i woke up one day and decided I don't believe in anything except science
but religion can be such a beautiful thing and I wish i could push myself to actually believe in anything
I am grieving the living more than I am grieving the dead
I cry over people who don't even think about me anymore
And it hurts knowing they will never want me back
2000's Bill core
Distancing yourself from your friends so it will hurt less when they inevitably leave you <<<<
"you've been really quiet recently, what happened? Why don't you talk as much anymore"
maybe because everytime i get excited and start talking to you, you say I'm being too loud, shut up omg, to calm down and "wow you're really talkative aren't you?"
like what do you want from me at this point???
I don't like being a girl, i don't hate it but i'd rather be perceived as nothing yk?
A lot of people don't really see me as a girl and I like that
I'd rather have been born a boy but I don't want to change now I guess
I hate my chest and I don't really want it
My mum is okay with me being trans but she doesn't really get it
i've discovered i have a new hidden talent ✨
I can sing and cry at the same time! super cool right?
how do i know this?
well every fucking time i have choir on a bad day i break down mid song and just silently cry my eyes out whilst singing "Video killed the radio star"