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Verstohlene Blicke

Augen so unergründlich

und tief wie das Meer

die Iriden gräulich

faszinieren mich sehr.

Verstohlene Blicke

lassen nicht mehr ab

Erwiderung suchend

blicke ich hinab.

Ergriffen von Angst

sehe ins Leere

das Herz gefüllt

mit unträglicher Schwere.

Verspürend dem Wandel

der gräulichen Augen

ihr leuchtend Gemüt

wird Ängste mir rauben.

Befreit mich so dieser

wie auch farbloser Sicht

die Augen sind dunkel

die Welt ist es nicht.

by Weltenasche.

@wildbabysblog

It's a quote from Samuel Johnson, which I found through 'Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas' written by Hunter S. Thompson.

In the context of the book, the quote came up when the blind woman, Mrs. Williams, told Dr. Johnson about an experience she had. She perceived a group of men as animalistic because they were getting drunk and wondered what pleasure they found in making themselves beasts.

The Dr. replied to her that he found it suprising that she did not see the strong inducement for this debauchery; for he who makes a beast of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man.

For me, the pain of being human consist of many things. Many people see themselves haunted by the discrepancy between the self and the desired self, fueled by a society which has long been trimmed to function and makes one's value dependent on its performance.

Being in constant confrontation with one's own perception, one's feelings, others' expectations of one and the interplay of all of the above.

The way of breaking out of this may seem bestial for some; but necessary for others.

(Sorry I had to answer it this way since my answer got to long for a normal text reply in the image comment section)

Bett

Die Tage früher düster

die Nächte wiegen schwer

ein Traum von sanft zu wüster

dein Platz noch immer leer.

by Weltenasche.

Was du für mich bist

Die wundersame Melodie,

die in den Winden lebt.

Der flüsternde Regen, 

der auf meiner Haut vergeht.

Die wärmende Sonne, 

die morgendlich in meinem Gesicht erwacht

und jeder zauberhafte Stern

in dunkelster Nacht.

by Weltenasche.

I MISS YOU or I LOVE YOU, if you have to tell someone to make an impact, between this two what will you choose to say?

Hard to say, but I would lean towards "I love you" because the word "love" holds a high value for me. If I had more options, I would say "Pass auf dich auf" (which translates to "Take care of yourself"), because here the emphasis on the I is removed and the complete attention is on the other person.

As a kid, was there something you absolutely wanted to do as an adult? If so did you do it?

I was quite an introverted child and preferred to spend time with myself, which resulted in certain preferences for activities. For example, I liked to spend my free time reading, doing card tricks, but as there were also "quantum leaps" in terms of technology in my childhood, I also liked to spend time gaming.

I don't remember too many details about my childhood, but I do remember that it was always a bit of a dream for me to develop a game myself and understand how they were built. And now it's been a few years since my childhood and I've developed not just one game, but several with different game engines and programming languages and now understand the build and development process, which has probably only added to my fascination.

In short: Yes, I did.

Healing Rain

And I yearned to gather each tear's soft remain,

as if pouring them back;

was to spawn a healing rain, to ease the pain;

in eyes that saw through all the things I've done,

forever closed, when two souls began to feel like one.

by Weltenasche.

Mauern

Die Zeit sie ist vergangen

und Wünsche wurden wahr

das Herz, es mag verlangen

wenn der Kopf auch nicht ganz klar.

Die Begierde stets konstant

mit starren Blick grad aus

fremd was einst bekannt

füllt nun mein Herz voll aus.

Ich war es leid zu trauern

und dem Neide nach zu geben

so errichtete ich Mauern

doch falsch war mein Bestreben.

Sie trennten nur noch weiter

was längst schon seiden hing

die Angst vermehrte heiter

bevor sie zu Boden ging.

Mit lauten Knall verlor sie

die zu lang bestrittene Schlacht

und neben meiner Furcht

fielen auch die Mauern jener Nacht. 

- by Weltenasche.

Walls

The walls that I forged, standing through years,

crumbling away, dismissing past fears.

Each one demolished — by my own hand,

at Love's command, none could withstand.

by Weltenasche.

Veganism is simply far too radical to be taken seriously. It is simply in our nature to eat meat and to try to prevent that is just stupid. You can't argue against nature.

1287 chickens, 101 pigs and 6 cows are slaughtered on average every minute, and I'm only referring to Germany's numbers. To put that in perspective, that's 1.8 million chickens, 145,000 pigs and about 9000 cows that lose their lives needlessly every day. For me, this is one of the greatest atrocities in human history and God knows we have not covered ourselves with glory in the past.

But of course, exterminating animals in the millions every day and keeping them in undignified conditions and in a life of captivity until death is kind of a release that one can truly only wish for, is of course in our unchangeable nature as humans. And certainly, not wanting to participate in or supporting this activity is way too "radical to be taken seriously".