Can You Show Us A Typical Draft For One Of Your Poems?

Was gehört deiner Meinung nach zu einem "guten Gedicht"? Gibt es Stile, die dir als Leser besonders gefallen?

Das ist eine wirklich gute Frage, auf die keine eindeutige Antwort weiß. Mir sprechen reimende Gedichte mehr zu, als jene, die keine Reime vorweisen. Ansonsten mag ich es, wenn Gedichte deskriptiv geschrieben sind, aber nicht zu viel verraten; Der Leser selbst soll das Gedicht auf sich und sein Leben beziehen können, ohne sich zu sehr vom Autor einschränken zu lassen.

Vielleicht nenne ich an dieser Stelle einfach ein paar Gedichte, die mir gefallen:

Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening - Robert Frost.

Der Panther - Rainer Maria Rilke.

Nachtfalter - Max Dauthendey.

Lila, Lila! - Alexander Puschkin.

Nur ein Leben - Wilhelm Wackernagel.

Do you ever feel that life is just unfair?

Honestly no, not anymore. But I had a lot of time to think about that and it never ceases to amaze me how many people still endeavor to impose the construct of fairness upon life. Life, by its very nature, defies fairness, for it cannot conform to this man-made ideal. Fairness is an anthropocentric notion, a concept forged within the crucible of social constructs, yet life itself is an composition of chaos and order, largely beyond the dominion of man. How, then, can anyone justly impose the concept of fairness upon such an enigmatic and indifferent domain?

What's your reason for training anyway? Women I assume?

Mainly the fact that it keeps my otherwise very destructive thoughts at bay.

Meh I really liked your blog but then I read that you listen to burzum .. c'mon man you can't be for real supporting a literal murderer .. sorry but unfollowed :/

It's fine if you don't want to follow me anymore; honestly, I don't really understand why you're even sharing this with me. But to your point, I'd like to add that it's always been a rather troublesome point of argument for me. Certainly Varg Vikernes is a monster from a human point of view and I can't relate to his ideological thinking, nor would I try to justify his atrocities in any way, because I don't want to and simply can't; But his songs, which are completely free of his ideology and other thinking, I find beautiful and I appreciate his talent in this area. Attached is a text passage from the song "Dunkelheit" by Burzum:

When night falls she cloaks the world in impenetrable darkness. A chill rises from the soil and contaminates the air suddenly life has new meaning.

Personally, I am able to look at art separately from the artist, but I also understand if this is not possible for some people.

Würdest du sagen, dass du ein positiver Mensch bist?

Nicht wirklich, nein. Ich würde mich als Realist mit gelegentlicher Tendenz zur Weltfremdheit bezeichnen.

Grundlegend habe ich nahezu jegliche Erwartungshaltung abgelegt, welche nicht direkt mit mir zu tun hat. Dies sorgt dafür, dass ich nicht wirklich enttäuscht werden kann.

Honestly If I had a body like yours I would not change a damn thing. Your body looks like it is carved out of stone and I mean it.

Thank you. I think a few years ago I would have thought similarly to you if someone had shown me such pictures of a body. But that's the thing about dissatisfaction, it's as unique as the individual who holds it. I'm afraid I will never be truly satisfied with myself, my mind is just too burdened for that; But out of dissatisfaction arises movement and the motivation to change something, not stagnation. I cannot change my thinking or taste the sweet satisfaction of the self, but I can use my dissatisfaction to grow steadily. And that is exactly what I will do.

Ich vermisse deinen Namen, dessen weicher, warmer Klang sich seit jeher in Verlangen und Sehnsucht kleidet.

Ungeboren

Viele lange Jahre schon

atmen wir die gleiche Luft

und fasse ich an meine Brust

so spüre ich die tiefe Kluft.

Viele lange Nächte schon

verbrachte ich allein für mich

und streift ein einzelner Gedanke mich

so ist er meist bedauerlich.

Viel zu lange schon

war ich nicht was du erhofft

doch nicht genug

das war ich oft.

In deinen fremden Augen stets

war ich nur der spitze Dorn

doch eines Wunsches sind wir gleich:

Wär' ich doch nur nie geborn.

by Weltenasche.

You're good at calligraphy! May I ask what writing instruments do you use? Please and thank you. 🖋️😊

Thank you.

I had already answered most of this in a previous German reply, but I'm happy to answer it again in English since you asked me so politely.

Nib holder

I use different nib holders, depending on the font. Since I write a lot of broken fonts, I usually use a nib holder made of wood with a chrome grip.

The nib holder is called "Federhalter ARTIST" and I purchased it from the German online store of "feder-fuehrend": https://www.feder-fuehrend.de/products/federhalter-artist-mahagoni-inkl-schreibfeder

Nibs

For the nibs themselves, I use bandzug nibs. I recommend nibs with less elasticity in the beginning, as they are easier to handle, and as you become more confident, you can increase the elasticity.

A good starter set is "Brause & Co, No. 180": https://www.feder-fuehrend.de/products/bandzugfeder-no-180-brause

I currently use the following nibs frequently:

William Mitchell, Pedigree, Round-Hand, Bronze

C. Howard Hunt Pen Co, Speedball Pens, C-Series

Heintze & Blanckertz, No. 600

I purchased these from the German online store "Kallipos": https://shop.kallipos.de/de/produkte/bandzugfedern

Paper

When it comes to paper, I use various types of it; Again, depending on the font, type of work, and writing utensils used.

Practice paper For normal practice, I often use lined practice pads or white non-lined paper with a thickness of 100g/m².

Project paper For my projects I use a different sort of paper. It is important to pay attention to the sizing in order to prevent the ink from "bleeding". In addition to sizing, a matte surface is also important, as ideally the nib should not slip off. I vary the thickness of these types of paper depending on the intended use, but it usually amounts to 120g/m² or 200g/m².

Paper for special inks For special inks, such as the golden ink in some of my uploads, I use special black colored paper from Italy (Burano nero - Roman Tower) in the thickness 200g/m².

I don't really have a store for paper, which I use regularly. At this point, I would just google for the appropriate paper and thickness.

Inks

The inks I use also vary quite a bit. But for the most part I use inks from "Rohrer & Klingner": https://www.rohrer-klingner.de/en/writing-ink/

I especially like to use the iron gall ink "Salix" and "Scabiosa".

If you have any questions, please feel free to ask me.

Heey I know it's not the usual subject of your blog but I find it really interesting to hear a bit about game development if you don't mind (▰˘◡˘▰) Like what would someone need to develop a game? Is it hard? Could I do it and how much time would I need?

Since you kept your questions quite general, my answer to most of these would be “it depends”, as game development is a very broad field.

The answers would depend a lot on what kind of game you want to develop, what tools you use, whether you create all your assets yourself or buy them, what previous experience you have, … and so on.

Could you be a bit more specific?