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Cursed Guardians (A JJK Fic)

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Sukuna loses control after regaining his true form. As a result, the entire planet is devoid of all forms of life. The only person left is Itadori Yuuji, his former vessel who he let live as a form of revenge. Even so, his defeat weighs so heavily on his soul that Sukuna finds himself questioning everything.

An old presence resurfaces from his soul, causing Sukuna to feel guilt for the first time. It pushes him to reverse what he had done to the world. Only, Sukuna has no clue how to manipulate time, so the new world he created is...different.

Yuuji's protection would be ensured, but his protectors are far from normal.

His meddling with time causes fundamental shifts in the world. People that should be dead live. Old enemies appear, but so do new ones.

Hopefully, Sukuna did not fuck up too much.

As someone who has dealt with severe childhood trauma. Let me say, the way Steven is acting is valid. He’s angry, lonely, emotional, clingy, and more violent. Having your psyche be completely shattered will do that.

He doesn’t know what to do with himself anymore. All of his support systems are gone. With childhood trauma, you don’t KNOW you’ve been traumatized. You deny it at times when people tell you. And when you FINALLY come to terms with it, shit hits the fan.

Things will get worse before they get better.

That’s a saying my therapist told me. And it’s true. Dealing with trauma is not easy and will take a very long time. Steven is at his lowest right now. He’s acting out.

I really related to that moment Steven confronts Greg. As a teen who now KNOWS he’s been traumatized as a kid, robbed of his childhood, the anger Steven has at Greg is so real it hurts. At times, you wish SOMEONE was there for you. To protect you and prevent the trauma from happening in the first place.

Greg didn’t have the best childhood either. But he had a childhood. He went to SCHOOL, had a HOUSE, and lived with his PARENTS. That’s what Steven probably focused on. The normality of it all. He never chose to be a crystal gem. Steven rarely knows how to be a human. And he wants to be.

He may have been acting uncharacteristically rude (considering Greg built the temple, raised him alone, and was poor) but there’s still a reason. Steven could have lived a normal life free of war.

Sometimes you want to blame others for what happened to you. Other times you blame yourself.

The Gems finally show up again. What do they do? Tell Steven off for his new powers. Wanting him to suppress it. Saying how it’s dangerous.

They haven’t shown much support for Steven for the longest time. The boy had to help Pearl overcome her own trauma and heartbreak. Then he almost DIED trying to do that and Pearl really did nothing. He helped Amethyst with her self-worth. And they have got the best relationship imo. However. She did SHIFT INTO HIS DEAD MOTHER. Garnet was more stable and showed Steven the love he needed. However, she still has her own problems. Ruby and Sapphire ruined the trip Steven wanted so badly during the Keystone Motel episode. I didn’t see much of an apology. Plus there is the part where the Gems ALL made that fake simulation.

When a child grows up in an unstable household it isn’t healthy for them. It’s damaging. They see what’s going on. All of the negativity and pain is sucked up from them like a sponge. A child needs stability. Which Steven doesn’t have.

That’s why Steven now doesn’t want to tell anyone of what’s happening. For so long he’s been dealing with the gems problems that he doesn’t want to deal with his. He doesn’t know how to. When Steven said why he can’t tell Pearl anything, it really hurt. He says he’ll have to pick up the pieces. Even though it really isn’t his job. But kids that live like that for a while probably think they do.

I’ve live in a household like that. I tell my mom my real personal problems and she will get angry, cry, or breakdown.

You’ve been dealing with your families problems for so long that you feel like your feelings matter far less.

I think that’s why Steven wanted to be with Connie so much. She is one of the only people that can be the rock he desperately needs. Someone he can actually talk to and confide in. He doesn’t want to lose her.

Steven has not gotten any form of therapy and it’s is hurting him severely. The latest episodes make sense to me. It’s gotten too much for Steven. He’s in a lot of pain.

Some people who have suffered a lot WANT to cause suffering and pain to other people. Make them feel what they feel. And now Steven is hurting people. He shattered Jasper. KILLED her. And we all saw him smiling and laughing as he attacked her.

The corruption theory is at its strongest. It could be a message of how someone lets their pain be who they are. That their trauma is all that they are. Or maybe about death. Lots of people say “that person is gone” when talking about their old self. In the promo, they were showing clips of Steven as a kid. The kid who took the worlds problems on his shoulders with a smile and didn’t get much back. Sure he saved the universe and got lots of new friends but what else? Was there anyone to help him in the same way he helped Peridot, Lapis, Pearl, and so many other gems. Steven was basically a therapist when he shouldn’t have been.

Trauma manifests in many, many ways. And these episodes have surely been showing it.

(This was just me rambling. I’m not an expert and just speak from personal experience. Much love to everyone out there!)

Cursed Guardian Concept Designs: Infinite

Cursed Soul Gojo! Here are some of the designs I ran through. I cant draw for shit but hopefully this helps visualize our bird better.

The first image (top left) is my first idea of his design. It was in my head before I even finished the first chapter of the story. The concept of his mask, beak, and feathers stayed. He no longer has a humanish body.

Second design (top right) Tried drawing his with the feathers but it looks terrible. I cant draw fur or feathers properly, so please look at it as placement marks. I tried giving him a longer neck and wrapping it in his mask. Didn’t have enough room to draw his tail so it just became a blob. It’s what surrounds you if you dare look at our boy Yuuji the wrong way.

Third design (bottom) Looked up eastern dragon references and birds. Couldn’t draw the talons whatsoever :,) I tried. Finally got around to showing off his segmented body tho! His feathers are still there but i didn’t draw them in his fur. I decided to try added the bandages from JJK 0 instead of making it all his black mask but I’m unsure which I prefer.

Things to help imagine him! (Guide for me to keep his design consistent ^^)

- Infinite is based on an eastern dragon and predatory birds (mostly harpy eagles

- Infinite’s tail is made entirely out of smoke (not feathers anymore)

- Infinite’s mask covers his eyes and he has it wrapped around his neck

- Infinite can appear as a fog of eyes instead of fully manifesting

- Infinite’s beak is hooked and serrated

- Infinite’s body is segmented not connected

- Infinite is as loud as a bird and sounds like one! Aka he is the most annoying

Onii-Chan🥺

Long time no jjk, have some sweet brothers💜

This is deathly accurate

peter in civil war: i can’t go i’ve got homework

peter in homecoming: im dropping out of school

viktor would absolutely know all the fnaf songs by heart

yeah so i had to draw that

CHIMERA FANART by @n0bluev on Tumblr!

Another beautiful piece by @n0bluev! I was astonished that they drew something from my story again. It means so much for a silly little fanfic writer like me to get such amazing fanart.

It's the goopy boi! Chimera looks amazing in this! He looks mysterious and cool and AHH

I could not draw the goop nor his eyelights, and this fanart captures it so well! The green is the only color I wanted on him, and it truly pops. They also included the ability Chimera has to shift his eyelights around. AH! He just looks so awesome in this! This piece really shows the ink I imagined he would be made of. The same ink Megumi's domain has. I could never get it right when I drew him. But look! HE'S SO GOOPY AND INKY! It's just as amazing as the Infinite fanart I received. (I definitely did not praise that work enough! Infinite looks amazing and the bandages were done so well as well as his fur and talons. He's THE bird boi)

Thank you so much again for this @n0bluev :)

Gojo would be an absolute menace on tumblr 😭

Satoru booped Suguru and isnt letting him boop back (insufferable evil brat : [infinity mode])

Bonus: Catoru

noobs i got 26

This could be fun. I scored 11. How about you?