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yall ever refuse to consume a piece of media you Know youd like solely bc you think itd make you feel more emotions than you want to

I'm so glad everyone's enjoying Dracula so this seems like the perfect time to bring up Carmilla

Carmilla is an 1872 novel by Sheridan Le Fanu and predates Dracula by 26 years. It inspired Bram Stocker to write Dracula! It's genuinely very well written and engaging (more so than Dracula, at least to me), and one of my favorite books.

But that's not the best part-the best bit is, that Carmilla is very very sapphic. It follows Laura, a teenager as she meets and falls in love with Carmilla, the vampire. Of course, other plot happens and the book has some really good quotes;

" 'I have been in love with no one, and never shall,' she whispered, 'unless it should be with you.'

How beautiful she looked in the moonlight! "

" You will think me cruel, very selfish, but love is always selfish; the more ardent the more selfish. How jealous I am you cannot know. You must come with me, loving me, to death; or else hate me, and still come with me, and hating me through death and after. There is no such word as indifference in my apathetic nature. "

And Carmilla is what invented the whole lesbian vampire trope!

even more things that help me survive being alive part 3! (pt. 1/2)

eat directly out of the cooking pot or after putting food directly into tupperware after cooking so you don’t have to wash more dishes. and if you have leftovers you can just put the tupperware in the fridge

putting several plastic bags at the bottom of your trash can/waste bin so you can just take out a new one when the trash gets full. this helps me a lot in my bedroom and bathroom where the plastic bag hoard™ is too far away

keeping one of those transparent cold drink takeaway cups from a cafe and using that to drink my homemade coffee out of, just to make it feel like I’ve been somewhere

having a daily calendar that allows me to visually block out time for different tasks as my time-estimation is awful, and I think showering will take two hours

keeping a magnetic whiteboard on my fridge door that I write new grocery food items on so I know what I have to eat. no more rotting food bc you forgot it existed

a stock of passable quality readymade frozen meals, or frozen dumplings etc for when you want to eat but there are too many steps for even basic cooking

a personal one that I just kinda like - having a daily diary but not for complete sentences or fancy writing just very drily outlining what I did during the day. this creates smash hits such as “went to the store today. cried. watched encanto. cried again”

having a list of everything I could feasibly do on a day/hour off. includes all my hobbies, exercises or outdoor activities, language learning, friends (yes a list of your friends to remind u they exist), stuff I haven’t had time for, to-read/to-watch lists. otherwise I forget what’s out there!

I finished reading Cemetery Boys by Aiden Thomas and I just had to sketch Julian eating the pan de muerto because if I’d just found out I was dead I too would prioritize food. 😂

never beating the only capable of doing one task a day allegations

Microdosing on executive function by completing tasks in video games

jisoo ⭒ how you like that ⭒ 200705

— s.r.m. @belovedbi

[ID: All daughters turn into blood thirsty hounds— after years of licking their own wounds and biting their tongue. /end ID]

My Latest "Getting housework done" ADHD hack

This isn't anything revolutionary, it's basically just a modified pomodoro technique, but I've never tried it for housework before. I really struggle to motivate myself to do housework tasks - they just feel so unending and tedious and abstracted from immediate gains.

I find I'll often put off jobs until my house is a complete mess, then "waste" my weekend stressing out feeling I need to "catch up" on cleaning, struggling to get started because it's so daunting (executive dysfunction) and then being overwhelmed by pushing myself to clean inefficiently for hours and hours at a time.

My new method:

Begin with a leisure activity I enjoy - play a computer game! Do a craft project! This takes the stress of starting out of the equation.

Set a timer for half an hour. Decide on a single, concrete task which I will go and complete when the time is up. It might be putting on some washing or emptying the dishwasher.

When the timer goes off, do the task. Suddenly it seems less daunting, because it's only one thing, and I'm going to get to go back to the fun activity immediate afterwards. Often I find once I'm up and about, I feel like doing a few more chores - but I don't have to.

Go back to the leisure activity, set the timer again.

And crucially, this isn't a "only do at the weekend when the house is a complete mess" thing, it's a "do every day in little bursts" thing.

And I am FORBIDDEN from feeling guilty about returning to the enjoyable task. That's not allowed!

I’m still not over Cemetery Boys thank you for asking.

So I just had to draw my favorite scene of when Yadriel and Julian steal the car. XD