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10 months ago

The missing Journal 3 pages in TBOB are so interesting to me in further contextualizing Ford's mindset of shame regarding Bill. We'd gotten a snippet of it in the original J3 release:

Journal 3 excerpt: "Our family is in danger, and I have to do something about it. I have been hesitant, however, to talk to the rest of the Pines about Bill (even Dipper, who I've grown to trust). I'd like to believe that this is out of a desire to protect them, but if I'm honest with myself, it's because I'm ashamed..."
Journal 3 excerpt: "What would they think of me if they knew that it was my folly, my hubris, that conjured Bill in the first place? That he tricked me into creating the portal, and that the rift is a direct, physical reminder of the terrible deal I made so many years ago? Would Dipper still look up to me or would he just consider me a fool?"

But Bill shows us the less pragmatic motivations behind his actions, the mushy feely stuff he was too embarrassed to properly journal, putting certain series events into new context. Particularly this scene where after a whole episode of dancing around it, he finally opens up to Dipper about the nature of their relationship:

The Missing Journal 3 Pages In TBOB Are So Interesting To Me In Further Contextualizing Ford's Mindset

"Bill wasn't always my enemy, Dipper. I used to think he was my friend, long long ago..."

But does he really tell the full truth here? The cat's out of the bag, Dipper knows they had a deal, there's no reason not to tell everything. But Ford proceeds to explain his reasoning for summoning Bill as a purely practical, scientifically-driven one.

The Missing Journal 3 Pages In TBOB Are So Interesting To Me In Further Contextualizing Ford's Mindset
The Missing Journal 3 Pages In TBOB Are So Interesting To Me In Further Contextualizing Ford's Mindset

"I had hit a roadblock on my investigation of Gravity Falls. Until I found some mysterious writing in a cave. Ancient incantations about a being with answers. It warned me not to read them, but I was desperate."

Desperate...for what? Ford would have us believe it was for the sake of knowledge. Yet TBOB shows us that this is the entry immediately preceding his and Bill's first meeting.

The Book of Bill Excerpt, lost Journal 3 pages. Page title header "Lost in the Woods". 

"July 3rd-Another day, another failed social interaction. When my waitress told me the apple pie was made "from scratch," I replied, "Incredible! I must meet the chef who created the atoms!" She made a face like she had tasted bleach and ended her shift carly. As enamored as I am with this town's marvels, I must confess I have never felt lonelier. The lumberjacks crack jokes at my expense when I try to photograph the Hide Behind, the trick-or-treaters avoid my door on Summerween. (I have so many exciting high-fiber supplements to give out!) A trucker literally shot my chessboard with a shotgun because he said that "tiny horses are the devil's work." Even the local bird watchers banned me after I accidentally set a hawk on fire. (I mistook it for a phoenix! Honest mistake!) Is my strange way of seeing the universe a gift or a curse? Is loneliness just the cost of greatness? And if it is.. how long am I fated to endure?"

Ford isn't some unfeeling robot powered solely by knowledge, he has human needs. He was lonely, lonely enough to summon a demon for companionship. A companionship so intimate, he describes his meeting Bill as the best day of his life, and laments the periods of absence from him.

The Book of Bill Excerpt, lost Journal 3 pages. Page header title "CIPHER SPEAKS".

"Today was THE GREATEST. DAY. OF MY LIFE. I keep pacing back and forth trying to make sense of it. I know it sounds crazy, but I've made first contact with an extradimensional deity of knowledge...in a top hat. I must consider my actions carefully. I have accidentally stumbled into history. An excerpt of our conversation..."
The Book of Bill excerpt, lost Journal 3 pages. 
"But then he'll disappear for weeks, months at a time, and I am left to wonder. Has it all been in my head? And if it has...would that be enough?"

That desire for intimacy is ultimately what drove him, and even with all his dirty laundry laid out he can't admit that part to Dipper. Maybe he doesn't even realize it himself, at least not until the post-Weirdmaggedon sections of TBOB:

Excerpt from The Book of Bill. 
"Chances are, you're at some desperate low point in life. Perhaps you've lost something dear to you, or you're in the threes of some all-consuming monomaniacal ambition. Or perhaps you just are attracted to things that hurt you."
Excerpt from The Book of Bill.

"I emerged from my lab after days of agonied contemplation to find to my my shock that Mabel was reading the book, out loud, to Stanley, Dipper, Soos, and Wendy! I tried to explain the terrible danger that they were in, when I realized: None of them were possessed. None of them were harmed. And they had tears in their eyes... from laughing at his attempts to deceive them!

It hit me all at once. The real reason I had kept the book secret. I thought I was protecting my family, but I was really protecting myself... from humiliation.

Shame is a powerful emotion. But it grows in the dark. The more I've tried to hide my past with Bill, the more hold it's had over me!"

Under the shame of unleashing Bill Cipher's destruction on the world, there's a much deeper shame: that Stanford Pines is not a lone-wolf, unfeeling sci-fi hero, but a fallible human being, capable of illogical sentimentality and longing for approval and (in)human connection. The exact nature of this sentimentality and longing is left to interpretation, but the efforts he goes to to conceal it make me lean towards something beyond platonic. Alex Hirsch seems to agree:

"I think he is deeply, deeply hiding from his real feelings about things, because at some point early on, he decided that he could run from hurt by achievement and by creation, and has dug that hole so deep that he has no relationships. He doesn't have friendships, he doesn't have romantic relationships, he is someone trapped in a tower of his own mind and estranged. Ford shows none of that. He has sublimated himself romantically so, so deeply. (…) I really thought of Ford kind of like Tesla in that realm.”

TL;DR Ford is up in his feelings about Bill and repressing hard. This is also eerily reminiscent of the self-blame abuse survivors engage in, the hesitance to tell others, and shame over persisting feelings for their abuser.

11 months ago

People think it’s all fun and games but then you tell them your favorite song is I bet on loosing dogs


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9 months ago

Before the next comic drop, I just wanted to compile my favorite panels and drawings! For no reason whatsoever! Just because I feel happy about them yaaay teehee

Before The Next Comic Drop, I Just Wanted To Compile My Favorite Panels And Drawings! For No Reason Whatsoever!
Before The Next Comic Drop, I Just Wanted To Compile My Favorite Panels And Drawings! For No Reason Whatsoever!
Before The Next Comic Drop, I Just Wanted To Compile My Favorite Panels And Drawings! For No Reason Whatsoever!
Before The Next Comic Drop, I Just Wanted To Compile My Favorite Panels And Drawings! For No Reason Whatsoever!
Before The Next Comic Drop, I Just Wanted To Compile My Favorite Panels And Drawings! For No Reason Whatsoever!
Before The Next Comic Drop, I Just Wanted To Compile My Favorite Panels And Drawings! For No Reason Whatsoever!
Before The Next Comic Drop, I Just Wanted To Compile My Favorite Panels And Drawings! For No Reason Whatsoever!
Before The Next Comic Drop, I Just Wanted To Compile My Favorite Panels And Drawings! For No Reason Whatsoever!
Before The Next Comic Drop, I Just Wanted To Compile My Favorite Panels And Drawings! For No Reason Whatsoever!

I think they are neat!

9 months ago
A collage of various screenshots of Gravity Falls character Fiddleford McGucket. Top text: "THE FIDDLEFORD MCGUCKET FANDOM IS DYING" Bottom text: "REPOST IF YOU'RE A TRUE FIDDLER"

is this anything

10 months ago
At A Certain Point This Stops Being 'haha It's Canon Bitches' And Starts Becoming 'wait Like In Actual
At A Certain Point This Stops Being 'haha It's Canon Bitches' And Starts Becoming 'wait Like In Actual

At a certain point this stops being 'haha it's canon bitches' and starts becoming 'wait like in actual 100% sincerity this is canon. Like for reals.'

8 months ago

Lin-Manuel Miranda is so funny to me, he decided to write a historical musical and cast himself as the lead. But the only thing he decided to change was making two people in love with him.


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10 months ago

EVERY. DAMN. PASSCODE. FOR THISISNOTAWEBSITEDOTCOM.COM:

Will update when i find more!! (updates VERY frequently)

everything in bold+italics needs to be spammed for the full effect

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9 months ago

I hate the feeling of thinking someone is cool when your a kid and growing up and realizing the actually kind of suck

10 months ago
I’m Sure I’m Not The First One To Translate It, But I Haven’t Seen Any Posts About It Yet And I
I’m Sure I’m Not The First One To Translate It, But I Haven’t Seen Any Posts About It Yet And I

i’m sure i’m not the first one to translate it, but i haven’t seen any posts about it yet and i wanted to find out what this says and, using a guide provided by Quiet_Western3180 on reddit, i decoded it.

BILL WANTED FORD TO GET A TATTOO THAT SAYS

“IF LOST RETURN TO BILL”

OH MY G O D

5 months ago

I have Bluetooth headphones and some times I’ll hide them somewhere in the room and turn the volume up all the way and play never gonna give you up then wait to see if my sister can find them


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