So peaceful Souvenir. A brother singing ancient Andalusian song in Al-hambra palace.
"So Now?"
the words have come and gone,
I sit ill.
the phone rings, the cats sleep.
Linda vacuums.
I am waiting to live,
waiting to die.
I wish I could ring in some bravery.
it's a lousy fix
but the tree outside doesn't know:
I watch it moving with the wind
in the late afternoon sun.
there's nothing to declare here,
just a waiting.
each faces it alone.
Oh, I was once young,
Oh, I was once unbelievably young!
~Charles Bukowski
And the forest hugged me, the moss sheltering, the leaves and vines curling and the wild flowers showering me with perfume.
"Welcome back," the forest whispered in my ear," I've missed you."
~Me
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Jacob Wrestling with the Angel (Painting), 1843
by Alexandre Louis Leloir.
I don't feel so good today.
I feel a strange, ancient ache in my soul. An aged feel to my rigid bones that once held the weight of the earth and the sky. Now they wish to rest, to turn to dust. They have endured enough weathering. I feel nostalgic for a life I have never lived, for a life I wish I lived. I suppose I do understand this humane desire. The soul was never meant to stay on the earth. It was meant to rise. And here, now, it is bound to, shackled to this body and inadvertently, to this world,held taut by the unyielding chains of gravity. I yearn for the day I return home. Up there.
I don't feel so good today and that's fine.
~Me
Charles Baudelaire, The Enemy
“Sometimes, a blessing will come your way simply because you wanted it for someone else.”
– Shaykh Muhammad Mutawali al-Sha'rawi