Tsukasa Tenma

tsukasa tenma

Tsukasa Tenma

aw what a funny silly goofy guy :)

:)

...😐 um. i need to talk about this kid?

he's so bright and passionate and lively and he cares so, so, SO much about the people around him. literally his biggest dream in life is to become a world famous "star" solely to make people everywhere smile. but there's all these little things about him that are easy enough to brush off due to the chaotic nature of the wxs stories - there's always something else to catch your attention. but i'm deeply concerned.

he's so... forgetful? it's played off as a quirky character trait and i think it's pretty clever that it's being approached that way - because if you sit and think about it, the things he forgets are odd. at the beginning of the wxs story, he can't remember why he decided to pursue acting. he can't remember the play he saw when he and saki were small. he can't remember her smile as she watched the actors on stage - the smile that spurred him forward into the person he's become today.

he doesn't recognize the plushies in SEKAI as being the very same plushies he used to put on mini-plays for saki while she was in the hospital. childhood memories get blurry with time, sure, but these sorts of... foundational, deeply important memories are not forgotten that way. they don't get erased, even if you are a silly forgetter-forgetful-forgetterson like tsukasa is treated as. unless your brain is repressing something.

the wonderland SEKAI is tsukasa's alone. and the only other person we've seen who's had emotions strong enough to create their own SEKAI is. mafuyu. the fact that tsukasa manages to parallel her of all the characters is so... disturbing. and hear me out:

on a certain level, i think wonderland and the empty SEKAI are similar places.

like, empty is... empty. yeah. it's easy to lose yourself there. to let go of your concerns and "disappear." all of the n25 members have commented that it's calming and that they enjoy spending time there.

wonderland is full of things to do. insane magical rollercoasters, singing flowers, talking stuffed animals - it's impossible to worry about anything there. only fun, fun, fun, fun! smiles and happy faces everywhere you look! to be blunt: it's the epitome of a distraction.

mafuyu loses herself in calm and quiet (her SEKAI, her empty aquarium) - so she can forget she exists and be nothing and rest for a while. tsukasa loses himself in constant upbeat, flashy distractions - so he can forget he exists and just play his role as the Star who makes everyone in the world smile. both of their SEKAIs are an escape in every sense of the word.

the mafuyu-tsukasa parallels go further, too. they both have emotionally neglectful parents that have pushed them into thinking they have to be perfect and successful to, like... justify their existence.

i don't remember which of the gazillion card stories it gets shown in and i don't want to dig through them to figure it out, but we See that when saki's illness started getting worse, the tenma parents stopped coming home on a regular basis. tsukasa was left alone FAR too much for how old he was. in the doll festival event, we see him running to the hospital all by himself to bring saki her dolls, pretty late in the evening, and... not a word from their parents? were they not home again, or did they just not notice?

or did they decide that tsukasa is a strong big brother who can take care of himself And saki? despite being, like... 10 at the oldest? (that's how old he seems there to me anyway)

and i want to talk about the world hasn't even started yet. because as kaito said, it's JUST tsukasa's song. this is his SEKAI. like. a brief compilation of all the lyrics that stand out to me, for bad reasons:

With a cast who can use magic and monsters who are burdened with trauma,

Even I know that everyone's destined to disappear someday...

With a ticket that's long past expired and a heartbeat fading over time,

"Let's come again next year," is said without any promises being made

...

There's too much noise, so much noise and it keeps getting worse

I want to be inspired straightforwardly, just as I always have

In a deteriorating, abandoned room I simply dream on

...

Hey! In the depths of Hell, a happy ending plays out

Hey! This world hasn't even started yet

With a thick-skinned king and an alchemist full of desires,

We'll all someday return to the earth, leaving our attachments behind

...

There's too much conflict, too much conflict and it keeps growing

It's like when our arms are all tangled together, I couldn't help but worry

So I'll brush off the dust and reboot it all

...

Hey! The best of the worst of crappy plays

Hey! A flag that'll paint over a bad ending

Hey! This world hasn't even started yet

Hey! Let's cross the end of all of this, partying forever

Hey! Spinning on a never-ending merry-go-round

Hey! This world hasn't even started yet

Hey! Let's break the plans for a harmonious future

Ring the bell that marks a new life

this is not a happy song?

it's not even like. hopeful in a bittersweet sense. it says right there in the lyrics that tsukasa doesn't... expect much out of his life, in terms of being happy and permanently surrounded by people who love him.

it's a reflection of inner turmoil, self-worth issues, fears of abandonment, fears of not mattering enough and being forgotten - fears of not being the perfect success everyone has always expected him to be. you just don't see it, thanks to the flashy lights and dazzling grins and confetti cannons going off in your face and loud drums.

idk. tsukasa's interesting this way. he seems to have repressed all of his memories of a lonely, frightened childhood. nights he had to sleep all alone in a great big house, confronting the idea of mortality from a Very young age, because no one knew if saki would survive. these are feelings unfitting for a future star - so he must discard them. reboot and start anew, so to speak.

and yknow like... he clearly understands that he does have value. in a way? he knows he matters to saki, and then to toya, and then to the rest of wxs. but judging by the lyrics of this song, he sees these attachments as very temporary (might have something to do with him being forced to confront the mortality of his baby sister without the proper support a young child Needs to work through and understand something so frightening, and his brain just didn't develop its emotional permanence skills very well) and expects to fade into the background of their lives. and i don't think seeing saki thriving now that she's out of the hospital (reconnecting with her childhood friends and starting a band) and then seeing toya thrive as well (finding His People and learning to rebel against his father all on his own) - is helping that mindset. it probably confirms to him that like, he's served his purpose in their lives? maybe they'll always love him, but they don't need him anymore. and i think he's very much expecting the same thing to happen with wxs and he is Terrified

(it's. obviously not true like he'll always mean the world to saki and toya. and even if wxs has to disband so nene can pursue her specific dreams and whatnot, he'll always mean the world to them, too. but it's true To Him. so.)

anyway i don't have a real conclusion here. so tsukasa tenma

Tsukasa Tenma

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opinions on tsukasa tenma

buckle your fucks up.

"EVENTS, DISSOCIATION, SEGA."

contrary to popular belief, i genuinely think that tsukasa hasn't been overlooked by sega. at this point, after the "on the stage of dazzling light" event, it can definitely be assumed the sega knew what they were doing. he's been heavily dissociated through a lot of the events, and though a lot of people took that as sega being comedic, i dont think that's the case. in those scenarios, everyone around him looks uncomfortable. this all kind of came to a hilt with the new event. i think his group has finally fully realised how messed up his thinking is; rui definitely being taken aback by seeing this side of him. he dissociates through a lot of his day, and the constant muttering, quietness and panic in his tone through a lot of the event is almost unlike anything we've ever seen before. tsukasa isn't comic relief to sega, i don't believe. he's a funny character, but in the moments i've mentioned, he's an example of how laughing at an uncomfortable scenario will make you regret it.

tsukasa's memory issues have been played as a joke for the majority of the game's run time, as have his dissociation issues. but seeing rui's expression of pure unsettled concern when tsukasa abruptly stops the rehearsal session is definitely a step in the direction that sega wants to properly persue. when tsukasa stops that rehearsal session, his line delivery wasn't perfect but it was better than last time. however, he calls the stop because of his panic in not getting it perfect. he is, above all things, a perfectionist when it comes to his acting. he's used to playing the roles that he's good at, so he can perfect them better. but with the role of torpe, he's thrown right back into a panicked state of not being able to perfect an aspect something he's good at. in a softer voice than we've practically ever seen, tsukasa practically mumbles to rui "how do i put this..? it's like i can only feel [the role] on a surface level, or... something like that?" - tsukasa tenma, using elipses, and being very unsure of himself. tsukasa tenma, using elipses, and being very unsure of himself.

sega has obviously been wanting to do this for a long while, and i think it's a gross oversimplication to say he's been 'overlooked' or 'played for laughs'. because yes, he does funny (sometimes quite idiotic) things. but emu's event was unsettling. it made me very viscerally uncomfortable to see tsukasa fail at making someone smile and then - for the rest of the event - seem hollower and dissociated. i personally believe it's because the person he couldn't make smile was a young girl crying, just like saki. it must have shaken him up. but thats my speculation. for reference, rui even mentioned it in the white day event. "tsukasa-kun's been seeming off since we got back from america, but he seems alright now". that's a decent amount of time, and then he recovered from it. and then, a few weeks in-game time later, he gets thrown through a bigger loop, and immediately reverts into that hollow, dissociated state, where he's trying to stay grounded, but obviously is lost in his own mind. sega has been setting this up, that's definite.

"ASAHINA, SEKAIS, SHOWTIME."

tsukasa, as a character, is heavily... confusing, i think. mostly because his biggest parallel is to mafuyu. which, conscious effort from sega or not, is a big part of why he's being 'overlooked' in some aspects. i mean, honestly, mafuyu is equally as overlooked as tsukasa. both characters can be simplified down to 'annoying' if you don't understand them well enough. but they're two sides of the same coin. mafuyu does everything please her parents, so much so that she's lost any identity she had. tsukasa is desperate to make saki smile because she deserves it, so much so that he never really had time to formulate an identity. sure, tsukasa loves shows. he loves performing. he is passionate about a lot. on the other hand, mafuyu doesn't like or dislike much. she doesn't feel intense emotion like tsukasa obviously does. but what we see from tsukasa are emotions that aren't forced, but are most DEFINITELY not organic. he performs and reacts in ways that are meant to make people, of course including himself, smile. his silly, stupid actions of over the top yelling make emu smile, and make himself smile. he acts outraged at rui, which makes rui talk more about his passions, which makes them both happy. but it's all done with an intention that is at it's core entirely selfless. which is why mafuyu and tsukasa are so easy to compare - they are both so painfully like each other in such different ways that tsukasa would be terrified of becoming like mafuyu to the point where he digs himself further into the hole he's in to prove a point and mafuyu is so confused by tsukasa it would draw her into performative happiness to a more intense extent. but, because of their drastic dissociation, mafuyu and tsukasa aren't getting any development, as that would cause the sekais to change drastically.

so, let's talk about the sekais. the sekais of both mafuyu and tsukasa are... drastic. and i'll save the take about mafuyu for another day. but sekais are created from the emotions never expressed. from intense feelings. tsukasa's sekai. is. fucking. horrific. an infinite world that is EVER-EXPANDING, filled with things that he has suppressed_ or not truly comprehended. saki's plushies are there, idealised versions of himself (kaito) are there, as is never-ending idealistic scenery of a childish happiness he never really got to experience. for a lot of his childhood, it's implied he's been looking after saki. always caring for her, wanting to make her smile. it makes sense, when you think about it, that the origin of his dream to be a star would fade out - he doesn't want to comprehend that everything he does is for someone else. tsukasa tenma, when alone, is quieter, and more spaced out. but when he's in the sekai, even just with the virtual singers or a plushie, his instinct to aid others kicks in and that performative happiness - well, half performative, he's happy - rears its head. the sekai is a culmination of everything he's ever suppressed, and when i realised that 'what he's suppressed' is just his childhood, my outlook on him changed completely.

the odd thing about sekais is that they can be group made or personal. and the wonderland sekai never clears that up. its heavily personal, with vague group flairs. but if you really look at it, its just personal. the virtual singers manifest in tsukasa's perceptions of others. miku as emu, kaito as himself - it's another parallel between mafuyu and tsukasa. in reality, tsukasa's emotions and perceptions are so heavily suppressed and warped, they have created an entire pocket dimension. and regarding that, the other members of wonderlands never seem to comment on it. it could be out of discomfort, or simply out of not truly understanding. the other members of wonderlands each seem to express different opinions of tsukasa. nene seems to like him, and be truly concerned, but never enough to stop him and calm him down. emu definitely likes him, and is concerned, though tends to not brings things up. and rui. he notices the issues, but lets them sit due to his own belief that he is unable to help. that is a problem for another day! but its interesting, because none of wxs ever talk about the issues they see. they express discomfort, all the way up until tsukasa is acting ‘normal’ again. they obviously care for one another deeply, and who can blame them for not acting on what tsukasa is displaying - its hard to help someone who doesn’t want to be helped.

i have a lot more to say on tsukasa but i do not want to go on forever-

all around, i believe he’s a silly funky man with a lot of concerning aspects to his character! <3 much love to tsukasa.

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