I Just Love How All The Disciples Start Excitedly Chirping ‘Hanguang-Jun’ Every Time Lan Wangji

Please help a queer black woman leave an abusive household

TW: Abuse, Rape mention and mention of cancer and homophobia/queerphobia

Hi everyone, I am a queer black woman, my name is Chelsea and I desperately need $3500 to help move out of an abusive household.

Throughout my life I have been living with my narcissistic parents who are frequently abusive (both emotionally, physically and homophobic/queerphobic) and it has taken a toll on my mental well-being as I've been diagnosed with chronic anxiety and undiagnosed adhd. My parents continue to speak negatively to me and they have a tendency of using personal hardships that I have been through to belittle me. In 2018 I was raped by someone I knew in highschool. That incident made me ill and I had to be treated for vulvar intraepithelial neoplasia which is a precancerous skin condition. Both my parents use this incident to gaslight, belittle and manipulate me. They also constantly speak down on the queer community and say hateful things, which suggests that they would be physically violent towards any queer people. They are unaware of my sexual orientation and I've been hiding that from them to keep myself safe.

They do not allow me to leave the house unless I am accompanied by someone. I have been trying to look for work so I can become financially independent, but they physically stop me from going to job interviews. I do not know how many more years I can go on being trapped like this.

I’m raising money so I can move out and afford a one-bedroom apartment and start healing in a safer environment and to gain financial independence. I will need funds for transport to move, and for a couple of months groceries and rent as well as funds to get a new ID and passport, my parents keep them from me. I’m hoping to be able to move to another city because my rapist lives in the same neighbourhood and city as me, so not only am I not safe when I am at home, I'm also constantly paranoid during the few occasions that I'm allowed to go out. Please please help if you can!

I will be extremely grateful to anyone that donates any amount at all. If you can't donate may you please share it and hopefully reach someone that can.

I have a PayPal account which is currently the only place I can accept donations:

My PayPal is: paypal.me/chelseanovasummer

Update:

I've added some proof about my living situation with my parents because someone accused me of being dishonest, and basically scamming people for money.

gay ppl be like yea these are my comfort characters *literal ray of sunshine*, *murderer*, *war criminal*, *six feet under*

*wakes up in the middle of the night* that one time that wei wuxian shot 5 arrows into targets simultaneously while blindfolded he was not in fact doing it to show off (ok maybe a little) but to ensure he did something so outrageous that nobody would be able to top and thus the prisoners set in front of the targets would no longer be at risk of getting hurt. goddammit. absolutely flawless. what an icon

what's your problem?

my problem is me

Yeah no I'm no longer a zhehan stan acc. There's no way the visits to Yasukuni Shrine and Nogi Shrine were purely coincidental.

For the folks who are detached from the intergenerational trauma of Japanese colonialism, here are some history facts from 1937-1945 World War 2 that personally impact my decision:

- The bataan death march. I have family who experienced this.

- The history of comfort women and girls: Grassroots activists from South Korea, China, and the Philippines are still fighting TO THIS DAY in order to get reparations for the enslaved women forced into prostitution. There were children who were kidnapped. Its too traumatizing to share more detail.

- Japanese occupation and bombing of my city from 1941-1945

There are multiple recent sources stating Zhehan's involvement in these insensitive acts and I cannot bring myself to believe he didn't know any better. Yes, people are sensitive to this news because we continue to mourn the events that occured less than 80 years ago. History may be of the past but the past impact our present day realities.

Whether or not you continue to support Zhehan is your choice. What I find disappointing about this discourse is the disrespect regarding Chinese people's anger. The context is heavy.

"A child born from a loveless union is such a disaster! Thrown between parents who don't celebrate togetherness, the child suffers a lack of emotional identity and a sense of belonging. I, as a result of neither passion nor compulsion, was perhaps a bigger castaway."

~Koral Dasgupta, Ahalya

I love you ☆☆☆☆☆

You’re really great. I like you. . . Or in other words, I fancy you, I love you, I want you, I can’t leave you, I whatever you ★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★

#wangxian: tu muskura <3

( it's one of my favourite songs ever and wangxian just fit it perfectly also yes that's my twitter acc in the watermark )

MAKE ME CHOOSE  ─ @baek1nho​ asked:  wenzhou or wangxian

wish i had the opportunity to just exist unknowing of what's happening i just don't want to know anymore but i have to and that takes a toll on my health