idk thinking about how sometimes you have to show up for people you aren't that close to, because sometimes you're just the person who's there. sometimes you invite a new friend to a party and end up having to sit with them through a panic attack. sometimes you run into an acquaintance on their worst day and they need to talk about what happened. sometimes someone is crying in a stairwell and you're the only one around to ask if they're okay. and none of this is "trauma dumping" or whatever the fuck it's just being there for people because you're the one in the room with them.
i think there’s actually nothing better than being randomly told “I love you” after doing something characteristically stupid. Like what do you mean I’m a lovable person and I just did something silly and you thought “of course you would do that. I love you.”. No better feeling
It's 9/11. Never forget.
Never forget the active genocide happening in palestine.
Never forget the thousands of innocent children being killed.
Never forget the soldiers who lost their lives trying to protect their home.
Never forget the palestinian mothers.
Never forget the palestinian children.
Never forget the palestinian fathers.
Never forget palestine.
🍉🇵🇸
From the river to the sea, palestine will be free.
Here's some paintings I've done of people looking at screens. These are all available as prints on Inprnt: Art Prints by Ollie Jones - INPRNT I'm also selling a limited edition print of my piece 'Producer' at Black Dragon Press: Producer – Black Dragon Press
so, so deeply stuck on Andrew and Jean outside during the interview.
Andrew immediately understanding what the "history" between Jean and Grayson was
Jean promising that Grayson didn't hurt Neil because that wouldn't have been appropriate for him, and Andrew countering by asking why he implied it'd be appropriate for someone else
Andrew's "Enlighten me" to Jean's "You of all people shouldn't have to ask"
Andrew understanding the neck bandage immediately, just as Jean understood the armbands
Andrew asking if Neil killed Grayson and being completely unsurprised when Jean gave him the answer, because he already knows where Neil stands on that matter
It hurt so bad. But it was probably one of my favorite scenes in all of TGR.
That silent mutual understanding, where neither of them wanted to talk about what happened but they knew the other understood, even if they didn't like each other
Catharsis in the most brutal way. Burns on the way down but feels good anyway
I want more Andrew & Jean scenes NOW
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Eyebrows: Thin eyebrows, Average eyebrows, Thick eyebrows, Plucked eyebrows, Bushy eyebrows, Arched eyebrows, Straight eyebrows
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Color: Pale, Pink, Red, Crimson, Brown, Purple, Nude
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Condition: Clean, Dirty, Manicured, Scarred, Wrinkled
Nails: Short, Long, Polished, Chipped, Clean, Dirty, Painted, Natural
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Volume: Loud, Soft, Whispery, Booming, Muted
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Oh train blog. What are we to do now.
Live, like we always have, and always will
Reblog to hug prev poster (they need a hug)
LOOK AT HER EYES LOOK HOW HAPPY SHE LOOKS L O O K
I think some of the things in AFTG don't make sense to a lot of people who aren't also abuse victims, and it means that a lot of fandom posts are just... wrong?
Like, I really don’t think Jeremy going to the press about his family's abuse would help him. He's financially dependent on them; his ability to go to USC and not be in prison hinge on his family's support. They're classic abusers in that they've tied him down.
Just like Andrew couldn't just tell his foster parents about the abuse; the ones who knew didn't care anyway.
There's a perfect example of this in Kevin leaving the Nest and making things worse on Jean. Riko's rage towards Kevin was just turned onto Jean. The abuse didn't end; it was just redirected. And Kevin was still traumatized and constantly in danger. He couldn't go anywhere near the Nest safely. He couldn't talk about what happened publicly without facing retaliation.
All of this is true for Jeremy, too. Financial and emotional abuse is still dangerous; he can't just suddenly leave. He can't just stay at Laila's place and try to hide; that kind of reset is both horrifying and extremely dangerous for most victims.
I feel like people who aren't victims just miss half the context of AFTG. I wouldn't wish that depth of understanding on anyone because this series hurts me intensely. But I do wish I could explain it to people better.
he/him | 18+ (another) autistic compsci major artist / writer sometimes. ttrpg enjoyer. musician who can't write songs.
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