Fui Jantar Fora Com Meus Pais, Foi Realmente Muito Legal

Vou perder aula de Ruy, minha endoscopia tá marcada pra terça, muito triste, amo ele.

Vou ir pro contraturno só de zoeira, deve ser uma experiência única assistir as aulas de Juliana anestesiada.

morrissey: we didn’t like each other that much

the lesbians, reading from their marrissey dossier: “Johnny is obviously very special.” “I was so impressed and infatuated, that even if he couldn’t play, it really didn’t matter.” “He was my only friend really, my only close friend.” “I was just there, dying, and he rescued me.“ “He’s incredibly loveable.” “I loved and love Johnny Marr.” “We Loved Each Other.”

morrissey:

Eu não morri, mas tenho prova amanhã e sinto que aí sim vou morrer.

Caralho eu to na escola acho que vou morrer kk

Lars: I’m sick of being such a big loser.

James: Aww, Lars, you’re not big.

Quando eu ver ele de novo eu vejo

(Ele, na verdade, acabou sendo uma mulher, me chocando completamente- bia)

Eu já disse que queria ser a zandaya? Eu queria muito ser ela

Maria Letícia, voltando da escola, 03/02/2022

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i’m going to use tumblr as a diary now :)

who knows if, somehow, i’m famouse  in the future and my fans need prived information about my past. or maybe im murdered, this might be usefull for the detective, right?, or both, 

and if you found this youll probably see that i do not speak inglish correctly, im brazilian and my first lenguage is portuguese so im gonna use this fact as an excuse  :)

Mick: Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don’t mind, it doesn’t matter.

feelings

dear tumblr, i`ve never really understood feelings 

when i was a little girl i used to cry everytime, in fact, my uncle used to call me fountain

everything starts to get really bad when my mom had cancer and i stay with someone that devil should be afraid of, one of my mom`s aunt, lets call her bat, is her nickname  well, neither my mom or my dad was here with me, but she was, and i do not know why, but she made my life worst than hell, and i was just a little 10 years old little girl she made me afraid, she told me several times that i was the reasn why my mom was sick i was sad all the time, i lost contact with my friends at the time, i just wanted to die and born with a happy life 

but than a weird quiet girl called me, she was from my class but  i didn`t even talked to her until that day. and we talked for hours  she asked if i wanted to go to her house, i hesitated a little bit but i said yes, and... she literally saved my life and we became best friends almost instantly i`ve never loved a friend like i lover her, we can stop talking for years, but ill never forgot what she did to me without even knowing 

but than one thing happend, i felt other type of love, for other type of friend, and in my mind it was wrong because this person was a girl, i`m a girl as well, and for a 10 years old girl that’s complicated i always knew that i like girls, but is so hard admit that it was hard until this years actualy

and for a short time, when i was 11 i was truely happy. i started to study in the morning, made some new friends, it all seemed perfect until the next year, when the things start to get sad and confusing again. i`ve lost some of that friends that i made, i just comeback to the “i wanna die” phase. and again, that little human being saved my life

we created fictional universes, we talked for hours every single day and i had a happy life until march of last year. well, corona started, quarentine too. i talked to maria and thayná (other person hat saved my life, we are a group called MTB) 24/7. but somehow we start to lose touch, and the only way to get happy that i found was videos on tiktok and making virtual friends, witch helped me a lot i’m on a group of people who also saved my life for almost 5 mounths now

i just do not understend feelings. they are soooo confusing and weird. sometimes i just wanna kill myself but on the next day i’m so happy. its like a rollercoaster, sometimes i’m on the top, othertimes i’m on the bottom, but most of the times i’m on the middle, felling absolutely nothing

i call the felling of “nothingness” existing, is when you dont fell anything, dont wan t do anything, you just exist, you’re in the middle of the rollercoaster  and what i’m feeling right now/ who knows, not me :)

xx

-b

14, feb, 2021. 1:12AM

Fui no médico e fiquei uma hora esperando. Descobri que existe câncer de esôfago e que vou ter que fazer um monte de exame, mas pelo menos eu tô tratando minha esofagite.

Meu crumble

Eu quero comer meu crumble e não comi ontem. Só queria um sorvetinho com meu crumble de morango 😭😭😭😭😭