Ref sheet for the current design of my take on Kaworu's Angel form
height chart alt / backview - Wings of Light alt
(infodump about his biology and design under the cut)
Disclaimer: all the information in this post applies only to my AU version of Kaworu, don't take this as canon info about his biology as an Angel.
Feel free to take inspiration from the design or any other supplementary info in this post (◍•ᴗ•◍)
Introduction: Kaworu Nagisa is a genetic hybrid of human and the 1st Angel - Adam, born as a result of the Contact Experiment. He has lived and looked like a regular human up until entering the Central Dogma. The proximity of another Angel (Lilith) has resulted in a sudden change in gene expression, activating dormant Angel genes. The result was some kind of a rapid transformation/metamorphosis from an almost fully human body to that of an Angel. It has been referred to as Tabris, the 17th Angel, with this particular form being described as the High Angel Gene Expression form.
Anatomy and physiology: Standing at over 3 meters tall, Tabris is the second smallest Angel after microscopic Ireul. Its limited growth compared to other Angels is a result of constraints put on its body by the human part of the DNA. In general proportions, Tabris resembles Adam and subsequently - the Evas, with the exception of its overtly elongated limbs. Like Adam, it emits light, though not nearly as bright, and sprouts Wings of Light, spanning over 18 meters in width with an additional tail-like structure
During the metamorphosis, its core has resurfaced to the center of the chest, changing its position from the one more akin to that of the human heart. The central core containing S² Engine is very tough and resistant to damage but very sensitive to touch. It can become malleable and flesh-like if the AT Field is lowered enough. Instead of beating, it produces a soft humming sound similar to that of the Sun. Two smaller cores underneath it seem to help redirect generated energy to the lower parts of the body.
Additional core situated inside the neck area works as a transmiter, condensing energy from the S² engine before relaying it to the head. Such adaptation is a result of a much higher and centralised brain function compared to other Angels, which requires more energy to work properly.
Excess energy manifests itself in a form of three halos - two vertical ones with spike-like extrusions above the head and a horizontal one around the neck core.
As a member of asexually reproducing species, post-metamorphosis Tabris lacks any sexual characteristics, both internal and external.
Due to the volatile state of its DNA, there is a possibility of further mutations occurring if not killed or removed from the Central Dogma in time.
With enough damage delt to the central core, the transformation can be reverted, though not completely. The resulting form known as the Low Angel Gene Expression form (sketch of this form) is almost identical to pre-metamorphosis Kaworu, with the exception of visible main core and red markings adorning his body (basically looking exactly like the draft sketch) It is a result of the damaged core not being able to provide enough energy to sustain its fully changed form.
Thanks to the extremely powerful AT Field, Tabris' main core can be completely destroyed only by either him voluntary lowering the AT Field or being pierced by the Spear of Longinus. Destruction of the S² Engine results in Angel’s death.
Design notes: It is by no means a wholly new design, just a mere evolution of the ones that came before it. Two main inspirations for the design (like always) have been draft sketches and Adam. With Kaworu’s body being that of a human and Adam being a humanoid entity, I've decided to stick with a clearly humanoid design for Tabris. As much as I love more abstract Angels, I feel like this Angel/human duality is essential to Kaworu's character.
The most drastic change in this instance of the design is its shoulder area. I think these pylon-like structures work much better than spikes as it likens Tabris more to Adam (from what I gathered, these serve as restraints for Adam and Evas but I don't really care :v). Same goes for the change in proportions. Lengthy limbs add to the uncanniness and distance the silhouette from that of a regular human.
Here you can check out my design inspo board I went for with this iteration of Tabris
Bonus info:
Here are some design explorations for Tabris that haven't been posted before + bonus Kawoshin :3
A few years back I've made sort of a rough storyboard for a short transformation animation, check it out here
At one point I had plans for a comic for this AU, which plot has been - I kid you not - revealed to me in a dream xD It has never come to a fruition because I suck at writing compelling stories
When it comes to its identity, Tabris would identify as agender and use it/its and he/him pronouns
That's it for this long-ass post, if you're still here thanks for reading :D If you have any questions and/or suggestions, feel free to shoot me a DM or an ask (I'll probably come up with some shit on the spot because there's no rhyme or reason to any of this lore, it's just a bunch of random ideas rattling around in my head xD)
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Vickie had been invited to Steve’s house by Robin, and she was completely nervous. It was a pool party which meant swimsuits. Should she go sexy or conservative? Fuck it, she's wearing a bikini. Over the bikini, she wore a pair of jeans shorts and a floral tank top. Vickie stared at her reflection in the mirror. She ruffled up her hair and pouted, and then she scowled.
"Why I am so pale?!" Vickie exclaimed.
"Once again, dear, I apologize for passing on my genes to you," her father said as he leaned against her doorway. "I like you, so should Robin. Although not in the same way."
"Dad! You have to like me," Vickie rolled her eyes.
"Everything's going to work out," Matthew said and grabbed his daughter by the shoulders shaking her. "You just have to believe in yourself the way that I do."
"I'm starting to regret telling you," Vickie rolled her eyes.
"You know that I'm proud of you, right?" He asked. "And if your mother were still here with us, she'd proud of you too."
"Thanks, Daddy," Vickie said softly. "I just wish I got to tell her."
"Oh, pumpkin, I think she always knew," Matthew told her.
"How do you know that?" She asked.
"She's your mother. Nothing ever got past her," he said. "Now, do we need to do something breathing exercises?"
"Yeah."
"Okay, now what do we tell our anxiety first?"
"To go to hell!"
"Damn straight or in your case not so straight!"
"Daddy!"
Vickie stood in front of the large house and was immediately intimated by its size.
"It's weirdly huge, right?" A voice, and she looked to find Eddie Munson standing next to her. "I always feel like it's going to eat me. You must be Vickie."
"And you must be Eddie Munson," Vickie said in amusement.
"Nah. I'm the guy that ate him," Eddie said sarcastically, and Vickie laughed.
"You're weird," she said. "My dad would like you."
"You should know now, Vickie, that my heart is pining away for someone else. . .just so you don't get your hopes up," Eddie said.
"So is mine," she replied.
"Good, now that that's settled," Eddie told her. "What's got you so nervous?"
"The idea of taking off my clothes," Vickie scoffed.
"Yeah, same here. I've got some nasty scars recently, and they're not quite done healing. Almost. They're ugly as hell," Eddie sighed.
"I've got a scar on my stomach from a car accident when I was little, but I decided to say "fuck it" and wear a bikini anyway," Vickie said.
"That's my kind of spirit. Fuck it," Eddie grinned. "Ready to head inside, my lady?"
"I am now," Vickie said.
The party was in full swing. All of Steve and Robin's friends were here. They were Eddie's friends now, too. Jonathan Byers, some guy named Argyle who Vickie immediately liked, and Nancy Wheeler. Vickie wasn't at all curious that Steve was friends with his ex, as she was still very much friends with hers. Robin seemed to be friends with her, too. There was this bond there that connected all of them, and she wasn't sure what it was, but she was glad they had it. There was this warm feeling of family amongst all of them. The one thing she hated, though, was the fear behind their eyes and the way they all jumped sometimes. Something told her that the bond they formed didn't start from a very good place. It wasn't her story to tell, though, so she wasn't going to pry.
"Whatcha thinking about, Lady Fisher?" Eddie asked as he plopped down in the lawn chair next to hers.
Vickie had gotten tired out from swimming and had decided to sprawl out into one of the lawn chairs. She had started thinking about the way Robin's eyes landed on hers when she started taking off her clothes, and the way remained steadfast on her face as though they were trying not to look anywhere else. It had made Vickie blush and somehow her thoughts had drifted.
"Life," Vickie told Eddie.
"Ah, yes, that bitch," Eddie said and Vickie giggled.
Her eyes landed on Robin and Steve talking animatedly with one another as they stuck their feet in the pool. She could have sworn she saw Robin say her name, and it made Vickie blush. She didn't realize that Eddie was talking to her until Eddie was snapping his fingers in front of her face.
"Hmm?" She asked.
"Is the person you like Steve?" Eddie scowled.
"What?!" Vickie exclaimed. "No."
Eddie turned his head at the same time hers did. His eyes landed on Argyle nearby.
"Argyle?" He asked.
"Well, no, I mean, a little, but I think everyone likes Argyle just a bit. I mean. . .," Vickie trailed off.
"Except for Robin," they said at the same time.
They gasped and slapped their hands on their mouths at the same time. Vickie did not mean to say that, although it didn't necessarily imply that Robin is a lesbian. Still. Wait. . .Vickie removed her hand at the same time that he did.
"You know?!" They hissed.
"How do you know?!"
"She told me!"
"Stop that!"
They stayed quiet for a while. Eddie looked at her thoughtfully.
"If it's not Argyle, then . . . "
Vickie sighed and grabbed his head. She pointed him at Robin. He gasped and then looked at her in annoyance.
"I was getting there," he said defensively.
"Sure, you were," Vickie laughed and released his head.
"Just so you know, I call dibs on Steve," Eddie said.
"You can't call dibs on a person," she said.
"Sure you can. I just did," he said with a grin and rubbed his stomach, wincing.
"Your scars hurting you?" Vickie asked.
"The pain comes and goes," Eddie shrugged. "You're not curious about how I got them?"
"I am, but I'm not going to question it if you don't want me to know," Vickie said. "Besides, I just met you."
"Yes, but I have this feeling that we're like Steve and Robin. Platonic soulmates and what not," Eddie said. "I mean, how do you think they got there?"
"Well, they were in Starcourt together," Vickie said.
"Ooh, so, you think shared trauma? See, I knew about Starcourt," Eddie frowned. "I don't think we have any shared trauma. I mean, I was once in a car accident, too."
"Really?" Vickie asked gently.
"Yeah, my mom died in that accident. I was in the car with her. She threw her body on top of mine," Eddie said, his voice catching. "We were coming back from Indie when this drunk driver came out of nowhere. It caused a pretty bad pileup."
"Was it on the road with the really creepy scarecrow that no one ever does anything about?" Vickie asked.
"Yeah. I guess you heard about it like everyone else?" Eddie asked.
"Eddie. . .I think we have shared trauma," Vickie said, tears in her eyes. "Me and my mom were in that accident. My mom also died that day."
"Shit," Eddie said and moved quickly to hug her.
They were interrupted by Robin and Steve coming over to check on them.
"Is everything okay?" Robin asked.
"Yeah," Vickie said, her face wet with tears. "We were talking about our moms."
"Oh," Robin and Steve said in unison, a look of understanding in their eyes.
"Vickie, do you want to talk more inside?" Eddie asked softly and she nodded.
Eddie put his arm around her as they walked inside. They ended up on the floor of the nearest bathroom, unknowingly recreating Steve and Robin's own special moment. They talked for a while until their bathing suits were very nearly dry. They talked about how wonderful their moms were. Vickie told him how her mom used to read to her at bedtime and how she used to make her dance on her feet when they were dancing in the kitchen. Eddie told her all about how he got his love of his music from his mother even though she never could carry a tune, but she could tell a story like no one else. They talked about how they wished they were still here, how they could tell their moms about themselves.
"My mom would love Robin," Vickie said.
"My mom would love Steve, and she would love the fact that Steve would probably be the one to teach her how to cook. She always hated that she didn't know how to do that," Eddie grinned.
They went on to talk about how they hated the fact that they had to share this trauma, but there was also some relief in knowing that they didn't have to go through it alone. Eddie stood up and clapped his hands.
"Alright, enough of this sad shit," Eddie said and jumped up. "I think we're officially soulmates now."
He put his hand and helped her up, hugging her tightly.
"Definitely platonic," Vickie giggled. "You remind me too much of my dad."
They left the bathroom and found that everyone had gone home.
"How long were we in there for?" Eddie asked.
They headed to the kitchen where Robin and Steve were cleaning up.
"Party's over?" Vickie asked.
"Yeah, everyone got tired really quickly. It was weird how quickly they got so tired," Robin said, and Steve nudged her in the side.
Vickie grinned and pulled Eddie off to the side.
"I just got a great idea," Vickie said.
"And what, pray tell, is cooking in that head of yours, Fisher?" Eddie asked.
"We should ask them out together right now!" Vickie said excitedly.
"Are you crazy?" Eddie asked.
"Come on, we both know that life is short, and we could kick it at any time. They're worth risking it all, yeah," Vickie said. "Besides, they can't reject us if we're coming at them from both sides."
"Hmm, I am not seeing a single flaw in your logic," Eddie said thoughtfully and grinned. "Let's do it!"
They moved back over to Robin and Steve.
"What the hell was that all about?" Steve asked.
"That was our first official platonic soulmate huddle," Eddie said.
"Oh, so, you guys are platonic soulmates now?" Steve asked.
"That's cute," Robin said, smiling. "I mean, you know as in, you know . . . You know what I mean."
"Wait, how are we going to do this?" Eddie asked.
"Well, I figured you would look at Steve, and then I would look at Robin," Vickie said. "Then we ask them."
Eddie shot her finger guns and then leaned against the island across from them. Vickie leaned against the island, looking at Robin.
"We want to know - " Eddie nudged Vickie as he continued to gaze into Steve’s eyes.
"If you guys would like to - " Vickie said, nudging him back.
"Go out with us!" They finished together.
"Well, that was fucking cute," Steve said.
"But I think we're going to have to have a huddle of our own," Robin said, winking at Vickie.
They couldn't move very far away, but they talked quietly for a moment before squealing and then jumping up and down. They calmed down and straightened up while wiping imaginary lint off of their clothes. They walked back over, looking serious.
"We accept!" Steve and Robin exclaimed.
"But you should know that you guys didn't have to become platonic soulmates just to ask us out," Steve said.
"I know. It kind of just happened," Vickie shrugged and grinned at Eddie.
Eddie took her by the shoulders and moved Vickie directly in front of Robin.
"I am handing you my platonic soulmate. Be careful with her," Eddie said.
"And the same to you," Robin said as she pushed Steve towards Eddie.
"Why does this feel like a drug deal?" Steve asked.
"Maybe it's because you're the best kind of drug, baby," Eddie said, kissing his cheek.
"That was a good one," Vickie said.
Steve blushed and squeezed Eddie's shoulder, causing him to wince. That's when he noticed that Eddie was slightly pink.
"Eddie! You're sunburned! I told you to use sunscreen," Steve said.
"I'm a rebel, baby," Eddie winked at him.
"Oh, so you want to get skin cancer?!" Steve exclaimed.
"I smoke too! Do you want to tell me about getting lung cancer?" Eddie scoffed.
"Yes! I only ever had the occasional smoke, and I quit," Steve rolled his eyes.
"Is this how it's going to be? You worrying about me?" Eddie asked with a grin.
"Yes!" Steve said, and Eddie wrapped his arms around him, kissing his cheek. "Plus, I'd rather you not have to use an oxygen tank in between makeout sessions."
"Fair point," Eddie laughed.
Vickie and Robin giggled before sharing a look.
"Dinguses!" They exclaimed.
"Our platonic dinguses," Vickie said, and Robin kissed her cheek, causing her to blush.
where is the fake dating au where like Steve is like well Eddie couldn't have killed Chrissy because he was with me that night. we were together :) until he had to go home and find the body :) and everyone is like uh and he's like having sex btw :) and the cops are like yeah man. I fucking guess he was? bc who is going to fucking lie about being gay in hawkins indiana 1986
like just imagine fake dating to establish an alibi and also eddie was not consulted on this beforehand suddenly steve is in the interrogation room like its going to be okay baby I love you so much and eddie is like YEAH. COOL. what is happening rn
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•D e a t h o f t h e s e l f• (2019-2020)
The original inspiration for my username on most of my accounts is what Kaworu said in the show Neon Genesis Evangelion. A set of 6 kawoshin paintings to celebrate these 2, all the possible au’s, the good music of the show and more! Kaworu Nagisa as a character made quite an impact on me when he showed up in the show. He was wholesome, genuine and pure.I always think of a lot of things to say in my description as I draw but then by the time I get to post I lose track.I think my works speak for themselves.
“Death of the self is the only absolute freedom there is.I want you to make me feel human.No matter how frightening it is, I won’t look away.If there is love at the end of everything .”
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See also, "We're in a drought; conserve water!" Meanwhile, bottled water companies and golf courses for rich folk empty the aquifers.