"When I first married you, Goncharov, I was nobody. My father's daughter, my brother's sister. When I walked towards you at the altar, I felt that was the moment I would finally become someone real enough to have flesh and blood to call mine. Katya wouldn't sound so empty on my lips. And with those same lips I called your name, and smiled at you in front of God, and kissed you in the dark of our room. And all I became was your wife. Oh, I was a good wife, wasn't I? A wife when you needed someone to bed, a sister when you needed someone to argue, a mother when Andrei needed to cry... is it all women are in your eyes? Actors, pretty dolls to dress up and spin around according to your needs? The party needed for me to believe in the cause, so I did. My father needed for me to marry young, so I did. You needed for me to love you. And it comes to this, at last. I started being Katya, at being myself, not upon falling in my role, but at the discovery of an unwillingness, of an inability. My inability to be loyal to you, Goncharov, is what saved me. And what now kills you all the same
Katya Goncharova - Goncharov (1973), directed by Martin Scorsese
I am fully aware that only one person follows me on tumblr and that one person stupidly left post notifications on so HA HA BIG JIM have fun waking up to this on your phone
#the swiftie experience is just crying together to mother’s lyrics so i guess this works!!
kiss marry kill: the joker and the queen, never grow up, and we are never ever getting back together.
easy… kill the joker and the queen because who is ed sheeran anyway?
Softly kiss never grow up on the forehead
Marry WANEGBT
I will forever be in favor of artists using childhood audios and photos in their songs.
it’s so stupid that you can’t think your way out of the mental health trenches. like you can know exactly what is wrong, why it’s upsetting you, and you can walk yourself through all of it logically and Understand it but your brain just responds like
Laptops are always so much more Fucked than phones in my experience. A laptop is like a beautiful horse that wants nothing more than to break all of its legs. A decently solid android phone will act normal
piano intro to “loml” is literally “across the stars” from star wars no I won’t elaborate because I’m crying in the corner
Based on this post ! For Stony Bingo prompt "Close-Up". This was such a beautiful gif that when I saw the close-up prompt I just had to do it.
the respect i have for someone who hears about trump getting re-elected and going "LETS SAVE THE FANFIC"... is immense.
but i totally agree... LETS SAVE THE FANFIC
alright so uh... the us is going through some shit right now.
as someone who's currently pursing graduate education with a substantial focus in fan studies, i am especially concerned about preserving the amount of works fans have created over the last however many years we've been fucking around on the internet. in particular, i'm really worried about ao3 and (even though i look at it like a cousin i'm not fond of) wattpad. these sites have immense cultural value and history that is worth preserving, and i'm not gonna lie: i'm a little worried about their standing come january.
so this is where we as a collective come in. i don't know how many followers i have on this silly hellsite, but i'm going to ask folks this: please, please, please— start archiving the fanfics and fanart and fan-everything of the fandoms you're in, you care about, or you have been in. put it on an external harddrive. make back ups. you'll want it if things go south, and scholars like me will want it so we can preserve fan history.
if you're interested in doing this, rb or message me or leave a comment or something and i'd love to work together on making a massive, cloud and external, database of fandoms we all care about. we have time to do this, and other folks have done and are doing this, but we need to do it.
to spread this around some, i've tagged this with fandoms i'm most active with here, but share wild and far. even if you don't want to do this with me, do it with your friends. please <3
tldr: i, and many other fan studies folks/fans writ large, are worried about what happens to fanfiction come january and trump's presidency. if you also care about this, let's work together to start putting together a database of fics we care about.
p.s. and if you do it i'll even give you a little shoutout in the acknowledgements of my master's thesis if you want idk (is this anything????)
more randoms of this angel 💜
Messaging people for the first time is so hard. What am I supposed to say? Like, "You seem really odd and your blog intrigues me. Do you want to have philosophical conversations or perhaps talk about fictional characters?" What! Whatever. I will just follow you back and stare at your blog with my big beautiful brown eyes.
attempting to channel the vibe of jack antonoff pyschoanalying thirst tweets xx
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