Jaehyun's Natal Chart

Siapa yang melarang lelaki menangis ? Lelaki menangis adalah lelaki yang sangat kuat. Punya arti bahwa lelaki itu menggunakan hatinya. Cengeng ? Lelaki bisa menangis sedih karena sakit yang teramat dalam. Lebih dalam melukai hatinya. Lelaki bisa menangis haru karena rasa yang tak terungkapkan. Bahagia dan bangga yang sangat. Aku tak mengatakan bahwa lelaki menangis itu lebih tinggi daripada perempuan menangis. Namun, aku selalu memberi nilai lebih kepada lelaki yang menangis. (Malam ini aku tak bercerita tentang air yang mengalir dari mata, aku bercerita tentang sakit yang tertanam dan dalam.)

Searegar (via searegar)

1. push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise. 2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable. 3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it. 4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else. 5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything. 6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice. 7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small. 8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full. 9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle. 10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck. 11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog. 12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through. 14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything. 15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends. 16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.

Sixteen Small Steps to Happiness  (via pigmenting)

My current to read list:

Everyone Fails. Here’s How to Pick Yourself Back Up.

The life-changing magic of making do

How millennials replaced religion with astrology and crystals    

Mothers Are Teaching Their Daughters Bad Lessons About Beauty

Are You a ‘Testosterone’ or a ‘Dopamine?’

Self-doubt can actually help you bloom — and it all starts with how you talk to yourself

How these 4 women completely changed their lives in a year

The Art of Being Single

A Landmark Study on the Origins of Alcoholism

To Delay Death, Lift Weights

How to Be Confident (When You Don’t Have Anything to Be Confident About)

miranda july / don delillo / holly warburton / richard siken / aaron diaz / ross gay / robert anton wilson / david foster wallace

hot girl goes to the cinema alone fit for anon

If I hadn’t gone to Gwangju in May of that year, if I hadn’t met you in Gwangju, if I hadn’t let go of your hand in those woods, would you still be alive? But on this 41st May when you’ve finally returned, I realize that I was the one who chose to do all of that. In May of that year, I chose to go to Gwangju and chose to love you with all my heart. I prayed every day that worse pains in life would come to me instead of you. If I had been the one to die in the crossroads of life and death, and you had lived, you would’ve experienced the tides that I had experienced all this time. The life of the one who was left behind. Hence, I’ve finally realized that what I experienced all this time was the Lord’s way of answering my prayer. Those lonely and painful 41 years were merely my love for you.

LEE DO HYUN as Hwang Hee Tae in YOUTH OF MAY (2021)

Megan’s Instagram Update (July 10, 2021)

no, but listen to me. ziall has that type of relationship everyone wishes they had; the low-key, being in love but not sharing your love type of relationship. their touches aren't for the cameras benefits, they're to reassure the other, to support each other. their smiles aren't forged or exaggerated, they appear as soon as the other is within eyesight, along with the looks and glances. they don't need to shout their love from the rooftops. they show their love by the hugs they share, the tight grip they hold on each other when they wrap their arms around the other for comfort. its in the way they listen to each other, truly listen to the words as if it's a beautiful poem to their ears. it's shown in the way niall slowly breaks zayn out of his shell, and how zayn can simmer nialls ever present energy by a touch to the waist or an arm around the shoulder. their love is quiet, overpowered from the rush of the band, but loud in the way they shine for the other. where zayn is usually quiet, the shadow of the band, the light within him bursts out in the form of fond around niall. their love is secretive, barely noticable of you don't pay attention. and I think that's beautiful. ziall is beautiful.

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