God I’m Pathetic. You Were Right There In Front Of Me And I Cowered Away. Even Now When I Know How

I finally finished cutting off everyone who made me worse. All of them. Including D.

My growth and progress will only be stronger now. I can prove it

I have yet again been encouraged to stay out of the public eye and keep to myself at school.

I might be stupid and angry and cruel and mean and an absolute idiot, but i care, i really do.

I was barely thinking during any of what I did. I’m not sure if I was even actually happy.

Sometimes I wish you were able to stay that night.

And sometimes I wish I had said something sooner.

Someone save me from this false angel, swooping down and preying on me in my darkest hour.

I only know she’s fake because I’ve seen the work of a real one.

Please someone rescue me.

Being an empath sometimes means knowing what people actually think even when they lie.

even though she was supporting me i got rid of her. no way in hell am i abandoning anybody because someone like her told me to ever again.

I'm fixing myself and I don't need someone to try and derail me again.

See? I'm learning!

WHY NOW OF ALL TIMES IT COULD HAVE BEEN EARLIER OR IT COULD HAVE WAITED ANYTIME BUT NOW PLEASE

“if i could i’d take it all away and have you be the happiest person to walk the earth because thats truly what you deserve. i know you’ve only ever wanted the best for everyone and im so so sorry that keeps backfiring on you hun.”

WHY NOW???

I find my body pretty only when I sexualize myself

I'm so gross.

I'm working to make myself better.

But that doesn't mean you need to make a bad decision.

Make the decision you truly want.

Ignoring the false angel's sugarcoated words. She's worse then me and she tries making me worse. I don't need that. Goodbye D