I Set Off An Explosive Reaction Just Now Didn't I

I'm oddly calm for all the things rushing through my mind.

I guess talking life through with my brother helps.

Not my real brother, of course.

But I consider him family.

How ironic is this... I'm telling her everything. I guess one of my friends will always end up being an angel. Somehow they always find me. I don't know why. She's my guardian angel now. Thank you "D"

Sorry for the blogspam tonight chat life’s a rollercoaster and I’m just figuring out how to steer

the wings and horns hurt so bad someone please distract me from this feeling

make sure to think about them too, not just me

i don't think they'd want any parallels either...

sorry if thats not what you meant im crashing out and dealing with social interaction at the same time rn so idk what you really mean

at least not only to me

i'm sorry to everyone involved i hope you know

I might be stupid and angry and cruel and mean and an absolute idiot, but i care, i really do.

I was barely thinking during any of what I did. I’m not sure if I was even actually happy.

Sometimes I wish you were able to stay that night.

And sometimes I wish I had said something sooner.

I should eat… but I can’t eat anything for another few hours or my mom will know I’m not sleeping again…

i wont be like him anymore

the parallels are done for good.

They should invent a new kind of Being Alive where it's not painful and it doesn't hurt constantly and actually feels worth it and you're happy for more than a few hours at a time