Bpd Feels Like You’re Constantly Begging For Affection Because Normal Amounts Of Affection Doesn’t

omg maybe life is worth living [i had a decent day] —> i cannot be saved [the slightest inconvenience occurs] —> i am a fucking god and everyone loves me [someone laughed at my joke] —> i am going to kill myself [i feel a little bit unwanted because of someone’s reaction]

and this shit just goes on and on and NEVER stops

that feeling when you see everyone around you get treated with love and attention, and all that’s left for you is to watch from afar and wish that it was you.

It finally clicked in my brain, that the reason you don't treat me like you treat others in your life, is because you love the others in your life. You love having them in your life. I've simply become the obligation you can't untangle yourself from.

Doesn't matter how much effort I put in, right? It's hard to love me.

I am so tired and burnt out, I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore

Where do i go if nowhere and no-one feels like home anymore