Ever Want To Kill Yourself Out Of Spite? To Get Back At The People Who Told You Were Fine When Really

sorry I ghosted you I wanted to see if you cared about me and would miss me if I was gone

thinking you're being overdramatic and paranoid over nothing only to be proven completely right is such a sickening feeling.

I relate.

*me, still insane* “I used to be sooooo crazy “

Knowing I’ll never have healthy, sweet, happy, long lasting love with someone is so painful.

I’m not worth it and you’ll figure it out.

You’ll realise it when I split, when I become distant and difficult, when I say I’m done then cry until I can’t breathe because you’ve actually left.

You’ll leave me for someone ‘normal’, someone easier to love and care for. Someone easier to be around. Not someone perfect, such a thing doesn’t exist, but someone that isn’t too far gone.

I’ll be too much and not enough for you in all the worst ways and I hate it. I hate that I can’t be loved. Worst of all I hate you for it and I don’t even know you yet.

Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?

You know you’re fucked when……..you’ve accepted that your life will end by suicide, and you’re okay with it.

That is where I am right now.

I just want to be important, too.