Same!

I have this habit...

As soon as a get anywhere near success. I run. I run so fucking fast, noone can catch me. After running I sink into a hole that I don't even try to crawl from. I just lay there and rot. There's a word for this. Self Sabotage? Yeah... that one.

For the record...

I won't be posting any thinspo or proana/mia photos, memes, quotes, or blogs. I'm not here to share any motivation for pursuing the fucked up illness we're working through. I'm not your enabler. I'm just here to tell the truth. And hopefully offer some guidance.

So if you want any of the aforementioned, this is not the tumblr for you.

Uhhhhhhhhhhh...

Me: I’m having such a good time

Brain: sure would suck if you get hit with a low mood, and go nonverbal, and come off as rude and uninterested in your friends

Me:

If you are concerned that something’s wrong, you should see a doctor immediately. Your health is not something you should ignore, and most of these problems can be reversible if treated in time (although many can be permanent). I hope you will consider recovery before you are faced with medical complications or even death. Eating disorders can do a lot of damage to your body. Recovery is always an option. ❤ I love you lil bean.

heart palpitations

slow or irregular heartbeat (brachycardia)

fast heartbeat (tachycardia)

cold/icy hands and feet

fainting

chest pain, burning or tightness (angina)

bruising very easily

pain in your shoulders, back, neck, or jaw

red spots on the insides of your arms and legs

blue tint to nailbeds, lips, and skin

tingling in your limbs

blood clots

swelling of your ankles, feet, or abdomen

sweating

weakness or dizziness

coughing up white sputum

cramps or pain in your legs

fullness/choking feeling

shortness of breath

yellow looking skin (jaundice)

yellow eyes

pale, bloody or tar-like stool

swollen or tender abdomen

dark/foul smelling urine

skin rashes

diarrhea

persistent nausea

loss of appetite

exhaustion

bruising easily

excessive or constant sweating

sudden weight gain and high cholesterol

low blood sugar (hypoglycemia)

metabolism slows down

pale or foamy/bubbly urine

urinating very often or very rarely

swelling of your legs, ankles, and feet

shortness of breath

exteme fatigue or drowsiness

nausea that doesn’t go away

feeling cold (anemia)

swollen, puffy face

food tastes like metal

your breath smells like ammonia/fish

brown, red, or purple urine

pressure when urinating

fever

chronic constipation

cramping

pain or difficulty when going to the bathroom

bloody or black stools

foul smelling stools

persistent gas

anal hemmorhoids

sudden extreme urge to go to the bathroom

seizures

mental fuzziness/lack of concentration

memory problems

nightmares

anxiety, depression and paranoia

insomnia and other sleep issues

development of binge eating

suicidal thoughts or thoughts of self harm

compulsive behaviors/rituals

hysteria

feeling restless

impaired or worsening vision and hearing

speech difficulty

irregular breathing

physical numbness

mood swings

bleeding from your ears

stomach pain or cramps

pain when pressing down on stomach

burning sensation in stomach

acid reflux

coughing or vomiting blood

ulcer(s)

coughing white or pink mucus

headaches

chills or fever

diarrhea or bloody stools

bloating

sensitivity to cold

nausea and vomiting

loss of menstrual cycle (amenorrhea) can point to infertility

tooth decay, gum disease

swollen glands in neck

excess hair growth all over your body and face (linugo)

dry, blotchy skin

bones easily fracture and break (osteopenia/osteoperosis)

hair loss

brittle nails

painful esophagus can be a sign of rupture

loss of sex drive

erectile dysfunction

thyroid disorders

getting sick very often (immune system)

dehydration

weak muscles

These are not all of the symptoms and medical complications that can occur because of an eating disorder. It’s important to recognize that an eating disorder can lead to death if left untreated. Please take care of yourself. Recovery is always an option, and you deserve to be healthy and happy. Check out my help page for info on where to start with your recovery. Text 741-741 to chat with a crisis counselor.

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Nine Psychological Tasks for a Good Marriage

Separate emotionally from the family you grew up in; not to the point of estrangement, but enough so that your identity is separate from that of your parents and siblings.

Build togetherness based on a shared intimacy and identity, while at the same time set boundaries to protect each partner’s autonomy.

Establish a rich and pleasurable sexual relationship and protect it from the intrusions of the workplace and family obligations.

For couples with children, embrace the daunting roles of parenthood and absorb the impact of a baby’s entrance into the marriage. Learn to continue the work of protecting the privacy of you and your spouse as a couple.

Confront and master the inevitable crises of life.

Maintain the strength of the marital bond in the face of adversity. The marriage should be a safe haven in which partners are able to express their differences, anger and conflict.

Use humor and laughter to keep things in perspective and to avoid boredom and isolation.

Nurture and comfort each other, satisfying each partner’s needs for dependency and offering continuing encouragement and support.

Keep alive the early romantic, idealized images of falling in love, while facing the sober realities of the changes wrought by time.

Thanks to Judith S. Wallerstein, PhD, co-author of the book "The Good Marriage: How and Why Love Lasts."

Source: http://www.apa.org/helpcenter/marriage.aspx

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