So, I Did Another Drawing! Can You Believe It!? This Time It's Of A Bat Lady!!

Perhaps some dreams are best left forgotten...

BAM, FULL FURSONA DESIGN

In honor of spooky month I am making 3d models/renders of horror creators that I like or inspire me in some way. Today we have @pastraspec and their sona Clyde!! I absolutely love their videos and I myself hope to one day make videos at a level such as theirs

I have rigged her for animation, the chloe crab is real

Another smaller doodle that I might digitize for art fight

Just a cute bikini for the cutest bat

Wip of a model of my favorite splatoon character

CONNECTION MADE

THE GODDESS OF DREAMS IS HERE

VENT POST: READ AT YOUR OWN RISK

Sorry to suddenly drop a serious post, but I have nowhere else to talk about this. I just took the statistics survey for The Trevor Project (Linked here: https://trevorredcap.trvr.org/surveys/?s=ARPMDR8AYPPW9XXC&nsli=V1ETx3Ef)

and it's just reminded me of how much i suffered due to my parents being awful people.

I'm a shell of the person I used to be, and I hate every bit of myself in ways that don't even make sense anymore. I've given up on basically all of my dreams because of the nagging voice of my parents in my head telling me how stupid it all is, how my happiness is a detriment to them because it's not making them happy. How my basic identity is a mistake, and how I'm wrong for existing.

I can't create anymore because I hate it all, I hate myself and I can't ever feel comfortable. I have no space that I belong in, I don't fit any defined label and no matter what I do I'll always be mediocre at best with it.

There is no moral, but I wish everyone a happy pride month and I'm hoping I can enjoy artfight next month.