This Is My Fifth Day Being Clean And I Could Care Less About It. Is It Really Worth It?

Day 8

Probably since I was 9.

for someone obsessed with losing weight i really suck at it.

Hii, I’m 18 female , still in high school and about to go to college.

Requirements/ preferences:

16+ (adults are fine) , male or female/nb, can live anywhere

I need someone to help motivate me to stay on track and I can do the same with them. Someone to hold me accountable. I binge at least once or twice a week and it completely ruins my progress. We don’t have to have the same ultimate goal, just the same mindset. I used to want to be a tiny as possible and be invisible to others but in the time that I’ve been struggling, my goals have changed a lot. I’m trying not to completely starve but to cut a lot of unhealthy foods out of my life. I’m trying to get as lean as possible which requires me to still eat lots of protein but still eat as little as possible.

Weight isn’t what I’m mainly focused on, more how comfortable I feel in my body and strength.

Height - 5’3 / 63 inches

Cw - 128 Ib / 58 kg

Hw - 132 Ib / 59 kg ( start of freshman year)

Lw - 107 Ib / 48 kg ( four years ago /end of freshman year)

Gw- 118 Ib / 53 kg

Leave a comment or message me privately. We can talk somewhere else!!

May 6th

Sour cream and onion Chips : 140 k, 19 g

Ranch Chips: 140 k, 19 g

Shamrock Shake + diet root beer: 190k , 30 g

Vanilla Premier shake x 2 : 160 k , 30 g each

Third of an ice cream bar: 75 ( estimated)

Caramel Apple candy : 25 k

Dinner: 4 steamed dumplings / 3 pieces of crab Rangoon : 510k , 60 g ( couldn’t find the exact restaurant)

Kcal: 1668/ 1379 ( may be way off)

Protein: 236/125 grams ( hit my goal without dinner)

Steps: 8,000

Sh: 2

Upper body workout : 407 burned

Walked with my nephew

Punishment : only 4 hours of sleep

Day 1

5’3 and 18 years old. Currently 128 (maybe a little less). I expect to put on more muscle and get stronger while losing a bit of weight.

Day 5

Fav piece of thinspo

Day 6

Hated myself when I looked in the mirror and just comments people made. Unhealthy because I didn't know any better or faster way.

Day 9

Buying the food, then throwing it away so I feel like I have a little control

Day 10

Only drank a few times but I won’t stop drinking in the future.

Day 11

Drank weed for fun only but trying not to make it a thing

Day 12

Cookie Dough. The one food I can’t resist!!

Day 13

Protein chips on good days or Cookie dough on bad days

I don’t know what I want or how long I want to do it for. All you can do is follow the rules you’ve made.

Day 7

I was 14, heaviest I've ever been and I finally was free and wasn't being watched all the time.

It was always unhealthy because I saw all food as bad. I wanted to have discipline and not eating made me feel so proud of myself.