I Think I'm Ready To Crawl Out Of My 6 Month Long, Dark, Lonely Burnout Hole Once Again To Grace The

for those of you who don't know "we should write a paper on this" is equivalent to "we should start a band" in academia

Romantic academia:

Going on study dates to pretty libraries, fighting to find a seat next to each other.

On discord listening to them go through a powerpoint the night before their big presentation.

The Arts/Humanities one proof-reading the STEM one's motivation letters/long emails.

Reading through interesting research in bed together, sharing the one phone screen.

Alternating between who is the one making tea for the study session. (Bonus: matching study mugs)

Study breaks include marveling over some super niche knowledge acquired during the study session.

Emailing an article as a pdf, and titling the email "I thought you'd find this interesting :-)"

Setting a timer for a cuddle break when the assignment work gets too overwhelming. Celebrating together when the assignment gets done.

Sharing the excitement of finding a new productivity app / stationary shop / study hack.

I want to exist in a world without timed schedules. Just desire to wake up, simply get dressed and walk out the door with my readings.

~✧°+* 1/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

27.07.2023

It's been very rainy and quite cold for the season here and the drastic change in weather (it was incredibly hot and humid before temperatures dropped) really affects me. I've been sleeping a lot more than usual which makes being productive difficult.

I try not to beat myself up about not getting things done easiely; or not getting things done at all. Instead, I take breaks when I feel like I need them and try getting back to work once I've had a little rest. And that seems to be working (somewhat).

I got a history exam this coming monday which I've barely done anything for. It's open book, so I hope it'll go alright reagrdless but I'll still try to revise all the slides over the weekend.

Positive things I did today:

did the dishes first thing in the morning

finished work for my professor

started revising history of witch hunts notes

went grocery shopping

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

enjoyed an iced coffee while playing some animal crossing new horizons

Hours slept: ~9hrs 30min

Screentime: 6hrs 10min

Steps taken: ~4.800

Shakespearean Insults:

All eyes and no sight

LUMP OF FOUL DEFORMITY

Thou art a boil, a plague-sore, an embossed carbuncle

Not so much brain as earwax

ANOINTED SOVEREIGN OF SIGNS AND GROANS

A fusty nut with no kernel

SERPENT HEART, HID WITH FLOWERING FACE

Crusty botch of nature

HIGHLY FED AND LOWLY TAUGHT

You scullion! You rampallian! You fustilarian

Idol of idiot-worshippers!

No kernel in this light nut; the soul of this man is his clothes

All the infections that the sun sucks up from bogs

Infinite and endless liar, an hourly promise-breaker

~✧°+* 28 & 29/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

31.08.2023 & 01.09.2023

The essay is done! I handed it in Thursday night and while it for sure wasn't my best work (the first 5 pages were alright, then it went downhill a lot) I am glad to have it off my desk. I don't care too mugh about the grade either, or at least I'm trying not to. It's for a module in which I already have one very good grade and the Hamilton grade will just be added on. So even if I don't do well, the final module grade should turn out alright.

Taking my meds again also helped getting being sick back in check. I'm not feeling great yet, but we are getting there! Nothing comparable to two days ago.

On Friday I didn't do much. I played Sims (got the new Sims 4 Growing Together expansion, which I really enjoy) and spent some time with family. I'll be taking the weekend off and get back to studying on Monday!

I also got the worst haircut I've had in years. I was really bummed about it, but I'm hoping it'll grow on me with time.

Positive things I did these past days:

finished the Hamilton essay

spent time with family

got a haircut

rested

Hours slept:  ~7hrs 45mins & ~7hrs Screentime: ~3hrs 15mins & ~7hrs Steps taken: ~600 & ~1.200