Ah, The Good Old Taxi Driver. I Get That One So Frequently As Well, Especially Since I Dropped Out Of

obsessed with mass market paperbacks. their pleasing rectangular proportions. how they fit badly in a hoodie pocket so you can drag them around everywhere with you like a temporary little buddy. the way they fit in your hand because they're MADE for human hands and not as bookshelf decoration. the way the pages feel when you riffle them gently with your thumb. How pristine and crisp they look when you get them and how creased and folded they look when you're done, even if you try to be nice to them. how that wear is okay, how that's correct actually, because they're made with the philosophy that books aren't meant to be PRETTY, they're meant to be read. that little ripple new ones get on the left side from where you hold them when you're reading, the way the ripple only goes as far as you've read, because u change stories by reading as they are changing you. how you can find thousands of these creased and folded and loved little dudes in every thrift store and used book shop and neighborhood library and you can instantly see the ones that someone carried around in a backpack for weeks or read to pieces or gave up on halfway through because they wear being read like fresh snow wears footprints. I love these poorly made, subpar little rectangles so much. truly the people's books.

5 years of grad school have taught me intelligence means very little in scientists you mostly just need to be obsessive and slightly deranged

The fact that all of the foreign Captive Prince editions have literally the prettiest covers and we’re stuck with this basic shit annoys me to no end

English:

Japanese: (they have ILLUSTRATIONS. Do you understand???😭😭😭 gonna go learn Japanese)

Taiwanese:

Polish: I—This is everything. Like, everything.

(The first cover is literally one of the best arts of Capri I’ve ever seen)

Dear Berkley books,

This is a crime, one i will not stand for. So,

TAKE MY FUCKING MONEY AND GIVE ME CAPTIVE PRINCE, ILLUSTRATED, WITH THESE COVERS

~✧°+* 1/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

27.07.2023

It's been very rainy and quite cold for the season here and the drastic change in weather (it was incredibly hot and humid before temperatures dropped) really affects me. I've been sleeping a lot more than usual which makes being productive difficult.

I try not to beat myself up about not getting things done easiely; or not getting things done at all. Instead, I take breaks when I feel like I need them and try getting back to work once I've had a little rest. And that seems to be working (somewhat).

I got a history exam this coming monday which I've barely done anything for. It's open book, so I hope it'll go alright reagrdless but I'll still try to revise all the slides over the weekend.

Positive things I did today:

did the dishes first thing in the morning

finished work for my professor

started revising history of witch hunts notes

went grocery shopping

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

enjoyed an iced coffee while playing some animal crossing new horizons

Hours slept: ~9hrs 30min

Screentime: 6hrs 10min

Steps taken: ~4.800

I love how Dead poets society perfectly presented how kids who don't receive enough validation that they crave from their parents often seek validation on teachers who act like parental figures to them instead. You know that thing where people would say that kids with mother issues often cling to female teachers while those with father issues on the other half often cling to male teachers? ─⁠─ Neil's father issues explains why he was so drawn to Mr. Keating. He's fond of him very much because Mr. Keating treated him with warmth unlike his father who treated him with such sternness and coldness. Mr. Keating acted like the father figure that he needed.

(he's so me)

oh my god there are so many books to read and instruments to learn and languages to speak and poems to write and oranges to eat and ideologies to study and songs to sing and films to watch and people to kiss and

~✧°+* 26/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

(first and last screenshot from: 虎狼来 (Kororon) - Eve Music Video)

29.08.2023

Feeling a lot better today! Meds helped a bunch, but they made me quite sleepy during the first half of the day. Because of that, I only really managed to be productive towards the evening. Regardless, I got a decent amount of work done. My Hamilton essay is due on Thursday. I'm planning on wrapping up my literature review tomorrow and then writing it all (minus the introduction, I got that done already) on Thursday!

Positive Things I did today:

continued working on the Hamilton essay

cooked lunch for my family

spent quality time with my siblings

Hours slept:  ~9hrs Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~500 (note for self: go on a walk tomorrow)

~✧°+* 4/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

01.08.2023

This has turned from a getting my life together challenge into a 'How can I fuel my Cillian Murphy obsession most efficiently?' challenge. Needless to say, I continued watching Peaky Blinders with my friend (daily Tommy Time, as we like to call it). But that's okay, because this Tuesday was rest day and now I am rested and shall try to get back into the groove.

I also recently found out about the Magical Readathon hosted by Book Roast over on YouTube. I doubt I'll actualy finish it, but I'll at least try to make use of the reading motivation I got from it. So far I've read the first 60 or so pages if Im Westen nichts neues (All Quiet on the Western Front in English). I really like it so far. It's sad (obviously) but I like that in books. And once I've finished it I can also finally watch the movie.

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

cooked two warm meals

went for a walk and read at a café

finished season 1 and started season 2 of Peaky Blinders with my friend

Hours slept: ~9hrs Screentime: 7hrs 30mins (how did I spend 4hrs on WhatsApp??) Steps taken: ~5.600

~✧°+* 34/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

06.09.2023

(this post was written several days in retrospect)

This is the day birthday preperations really kicked in, so a lot of cleaning was done.

I also attempted to be productive in the morning and looked for internships. I have to do one mandatory, 8 week long internship as part of my undergrad programm and it's the main thing holding me back from finishing my BA. I innitially wanted to do the internship around this time but wasn't able to find a spot, so I'm pushing it (and writing my thesis) back a whole semester.

Positive things I did today:

helped clean

looked for internships

Hours slept:  ~8hrs 30mins Screentime: ~9hrs 15mins Steps taken: ~700

~✧°+* 36/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

08.09.2023

The post social gathering burn out is real. So amidst helping my mom prepare for my siblings' party with their friends (yesterday was just for family) I just focused on recharging and not being sad.

Positive things I did this day:

did the laundry

helped out my mom

watched Eclipse

Hours slept: ~8hrs Screentime: ~8hrs Steps taken: ~1.500