My Biggest Fantasy At The Moment Is To Be A Sissy Cuckquean. Is That Even A Thing? I Want An Alpha Male

My biggest fantasy at the moment is to be a sissy cuckquean. Is that even a thing? I want an alpha male to break me in with his huge cock, lock up my little clitty, dress me as a sexy girl, and then keep me as his chaste sissy bitch. He makes me cook and clean for him, and he groped me and calls me a slut, but he doesn't fuck me. Instead, he dates beautiful, real women who suck and fuck his glorious cock however he wants. When he brings them home I serve both of them and, if I'm lucky, I might get a cock or pussy to lick as part of cleaning up after them. He makes fun of me for not being a real man, and she makes fun of me not being a real woman. He disciplines me with spankings and uses my mouth when he's horny and his girl isn't around, but other than that I just do what I'm told and get more and more sexually frustrated. He won't even fuck my ass in case I enjoy it too much. So, I guess I'm a wannabe sissy cuckquean. Is that a thing or am I just so messed up on tumblr porn that I've lost it completely?