Wish You Were Gay // Billie Eilish

Jotting down my thoughts and theories on Jian Yi’s family.

Until this point, we know that Jian Yi’s father is a mafia boss, right?

The family separation from Jian Yi’s dream. For me, the father’s decision to leave is to protect his family from any potential risks. Living with a person of a mafia background is never a wise choice, for any members of the family could easily be targeted by enemies. Hence the father’s decision.

JY’s ‘kidnap’ (by Cheng & co.) from earlier was strange, but somehow it reminds me think of the newest chapter.

My point is: they were taking him to a safer place for protection, just like how it plays out in the new chapter.

At this point, Jian Yi’s identity as a mafia boss’s son has been exposed/discovered, and he is now being targeted by opposing enemies. They know Jian Yi is the boss’s weak point, and use him to their advantage. Jian Yi’s father knows how vulnerable his son is to the risks that may come, and probably orders his underlings to bring his son somewhere with further security. Hence the first kidnap.

There’s one obstacle: Jian Yi’s mom. She probably wishes her son to lead a normal life, and won’t be involved in his father’s shady business or some sort -> Jian Yi not seeing his father for years.

The promise between Jian Yi’s parents was probably 'To protect their family from any dangers of the mafia business, and not making Jian Yi involved in his father’s business’.

That’s why, when Jian Yi is taken away, his mother insists on letting him stay. Whatever danger there is out there, the father is obliged to protect his son, but not by taking him away from his mom, and ripping him from living a normal life.

Basically, both parents want to protect their son, yet cannot come to terms with their actions.

Unable to take his son away from his house (=danger), Jian Yi’s father has ordered his underlings to protect him.

He Cheng receives the direct command, but Qiu is the one who does the job.

The situation has been getting tense, as more dangers started to surround Jian Yi.

This frame hasn’t been translated yet, and we aren’t certain who is on the other side of the line. From Jian Yi’s reaction, it seems to be a call his mom, saying “Follow brother Qiu , I will find you later”.

His mom has probably realized her son’s situation, and agrees to meet Jian Yi’s father.

I love your in-depth analyzations. Some of them have completedly changed my point of view of certain characters. By the way, I want to ask something about Xixi. During the 'twist his balls' scene, he is the first person out of the three boys to think that Momo a good person, even though he was directly injured by Momo earlier. This turns out to be true later on. How do you think that Xixi could pinpoint this?

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I think one of the reasons is that XiXi is one of the more mature characters in the manhua. He doesn’t seem to have any kind of troubled past or old wounds, and he grew up in a healthy family, he’s very serious in contrast to somewhat childish and effervescent JY. So that’s why I think he may not be prone to making hasty assumptions about people. I’m fairly sure that he sees school delinquents for what they are: kids with some kinds of troubles that they are trying to resolve them with violence/rebellious behaviour.

What’s more, despite Momo all trying to act badass and tough, he really gets scared fairly easily. During that ball-twisting scene, he quickly back-pedalled instead of trying to fight or threaten XiXi and JY. He literally tried to buy his way out. 

And we can see that Momo is also scared when He Tian tried to threaten him to stitch up his mouth, also during dreams sequence when classmates tried to bully him after “ass-shot”. I think XiXi might have caught a whiff that deep-down Mo is scared and is trying way too hard to appear badass so that others won’t hurt him. After all, it was XiXi who gets all like “eh? Are we really going to twist his balls?” and then “these two are scary”. To me, it says that Xixi has a big heart and doesn’t hold grudges, and he also doesn’t indulge in petty revenge.

On a side note, I kinda want to see him becoming friends with Momo after JY disappearance. The scene between them in the hospital is both awkward and endearing.

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on narcissa malfoy

i always joke with my friends that the malfoy family is matriarchal, partly because i, personally, would let narcissa boss me around in a heartbeat, but also because i actually think there’s a solid canon backing that she’s like. the Head Bitch of the family. especially later on in the series. (it’s also why i think reading lucius as abusive is a misreading of their relationship, but whatever.)

just in general, i will never understand the reading that she’s meek or timid. we see so little of her character but with what we do see, she defies voldemort twice (lying about harry and going to severus for help), doesn’t shy away from standing up for herself/her family, seemingly holds the family together when lucius has his fall from grace, is not the least bit scared of her sister, and is more than willing to throw hands with her son’s rivals in public. to me, she’s very much lucius’ equal, even if she isn’t a sadist like her husband or sister (and i suppose there’s not a whole lot of canon material on that either way, so you can’t say for sure what she is). her capacity for compassion does not automatically make her kind, nor weak, especially since her compassion does not seem to extend past her family. 

personally, narcissa gives me a lot of lady macbeth vibes. particularly the whole ‘look like the innocent flower, but be the serpent under it.’ (‘s also why i think she’s aptly named—daffodils are pretty and poisonous.) but back to my point: 

the example of narcissa’s authority pre-everything going to shit is obviously this:

which is easily passable as an insignificant win in a family discussion, but then 

you’ve got

stuff like

this

i haven’t read the books in a couple of years, so these examples are just the ones i can pluck from the top of my head, but i think it’s very interesting that narcissa is generally the one who defends the family, who lucius and draco turn to for guidance, and who is also just. the only malfoy the other death eaters seem to really respect (dh era).

there’s also the matter of movie canon, which i’m pretty eh with, but i do prefer the malfoy family ending in the films to the one in the books. and the fact that it’s narcissa who instigates it—who gets draco to come to them after he’s ignored lucius’ call, who walks away and calls for lucius to follow (and then he does)—is a nice representation of the authority she has in the books, i think. and then there’s also this:

which i could wax poetic on for hours, but it’d mostly just be shippy ramblings. 

anyway. tl;dr: the timid, meek narcissa you sometimes see in fanon is ridiculous.

it had always been eddie.

it had been eddie when richie was seven years old and a small, pale boy started playing with him and bill on the playground. richie hadn't even heard the word "gay" yet, but he knew the way he felt about eddie was special.

it had been eddie when richie was eleven years old, and he made his first mixtape for eddie. there was lots of disco, lots of wham! and george michael, all the stuff richie knew his friend liked. he snuck in a few love songs, hoping eddie wouldn't notice. and if he did, well, he never mentioned it.

it had been eddie when richie was thirteen years old, and they killed a clown over summer break. even when he had forgotten all about derry, about the losers, about eddie, he could remember the heat of eddie's skin against his own, when they clung onto each other in bill's garage, when he cradled eddie's face in neibolt, when he held eddie's hand during their oath.

it had been eddie when richie was fifteen years old, and he got his first girlfriend. she was shorter than him, with short dark hair, and was a clean freak. she wore short shorts and a fanny pack, and richie knew exactly what it meant. they dated for three months before she called it off. she kissed him on the cheek and told him she hoped he figured himself out, and when he did, to call her. she was nice, pretty. but she wasn't eddie.

it had been eddie when richie was seventeen years old, and he started wearing leather jackets and got his ears pierced, while eddie started wearing oversized sweaters and overalls. the sleeves of eddie's sweaters all covered his hands, and richie was mesmerized by the way he delicately rolled them up. they were lab partners in chemistry that year. richie had never been happier about anything in his whole life.

it had been eddie when richie was twenty-one years old, and already starting to forget. he had put states between himself and derry. between himself and eddie. sometimes he would catch himself forgetting eddie's name, having to say it over and over in his head, like a prayer.

it had been eddie when richie was twenty-seven years old, and had his first sold out show. he was still writing his own jokes back then, and, while he didn't know who he was writing his jokes for, he knew there was someone out there that his script was tailored for. someone who would have laughed hysterically at every joke he told. he thought he saw him in the audience, a man with dark hair and a fanny pack, but he lost him in the crowd. he stopped writing his own jokes soon after.

it was eddie when richie was thirty-one years old, and he bought his first house. he owned multiple first aid kits, two on every floor, and, curiously, each one was stocked with an inhaler. richie had never had asthma. but he left them, as taking them out felt so inherently wrong he wanted to throw up. he bought furniture with someone else in mind, always had vanilla ice cream in stock, and kept a plethora of cleaning supplies under every sink. he felt like he was sharing the house with a ghost of someone he once knew. and he liked it.

it was eddie when richie was forty years old, and he remembered. he remembered everything. he saw his friend, silhouetted by the glow of the fish tank behind him, and everything hit him like a truck. he remembered his laugh, his hands, his warm skin, his floppy hair richie had always wanted to run his fingers through. he remembered falling in love.

it was eddie when richie was forty years old, and he lost the love of his life. he felt the claw through eddie's chest like it was his own, prayed to anyone, anything that eddie made it out all right. he clutched eddie's lifeless form to his body, hating the way the warmth of his skin was already beginning to fade. it should have been him. someone, anyone but eddie. he clung on to eddie, even as the cave began to crumble, and would have stayed there with the only man he ever loved were it not for his friends. he left his heart there with him, down in that cave under neibolt.

it was always eddie, richie thought, as he recarved his secret declaration of his love. it always has been, and always would be, eddie kaspbrak.

So wait...

A “simple” spy is someone who works for the enemy. This is Snape as a Death Eater trying to spy on Dumbledore.

A double agent is someone who seems to work for the enemy but is actually betraying them with them thinking the spy is loyal. That’s Snape during the 1st Wizarding War, betraying Voldemort and working for Dumbledore.

A deep-cover agent is a person who still works as a spy, for a prolonged period of time (months or years), infiltrating the enemy and taking posts of responsibility and importance in the war, gathering precious information while cutting off all communication with his side of the war until they are “woken up”. That’s what Voldemort thought Snape was doing in becoming a member of the Order, a Potions Professor and Dumbledore’s (fake, but in reality not fake) spy, only to reveal himself as a true Death Eater after all.

A triple agent is someone who acts as if they betray the enemy but who’s really working for them, making the target believe a (false) tale of betrayal. That’s what Voldemort believes about his spy after his resurrection, when Snape tells him he’s “spun a tale of deepest remorse” to Dumbledore.

A quadruple (?)/fourth-time agent is someone who says that they faked a betrayal to the enemy but who’s really betraying them: they’re “faking a tale of false betrayal to the enemy”. That’s Snape who did betray Voldemort and made him think he convinced Dumbledore of a betrayal that was fake... although it was not.

Dammit Snape that’s a lot 😰