“If You’re Going To Let One Stupid Prick Ruin Your Life, You’re Not The Girl I Thought You Were.”

“I like how sleeping next to someone means more than sex sometimes, the body’s way of saying ‘I trust you to be by my side at my most vulnerable time,’ you have no defenses when you are asleep, you tell no lies”

— Eric Shaw

“Go into your loneliness with your love and with your creation;”

— Friedrich Nietzsche, from The Complete Works: “Thus Spoke Zarathustra,”

spring turns to summer <3

How I Increased My Confidence to the Point Where I Can’t Stop Looking at Myself in the Mirror!!

1. When I felt bad about myself, I would sit in front of a folded mirror in the dark for 5-10 minutes at a time. I felt so self conscious about my reflection staring at me from 3 angles that I felt exposed. I realized it’s not me who feels bad about myself, it’s the others who feel negatively about themselves to the point that they’re inflicting their self hatred on me!

My mood and self esteem level changed instantly! I couldn’t believe it. From middle school to my junior year in high school, I didn’t hate myself, it was other’s energy!

2. Don’t ever care about the negative comments or backhanded compliments others say to you directly/indirectly. Literally, ignore it unless you’re being threatened. I laugh at anything anyone says at me. At the same time, don’t allow anyone to talk about you and you take it.

“If they can dish it out, they can take it.”

You’re too pretty to insult yourself and pick out flaws about yourself. You’re too pretty to waste your energy and eyesight on picking out flaws on others. They’re them and you’re you.

3. Unlearn stage fright and the feeling of being cornered. For my graduation practice, I walked in the field in my favorite fitted dress, waist ⌛️⏳ (I had on a waist trainer but no one could tell) and the vintage Louis Vuitton bag I just bought. They people I had issues with kept staring at me to antagonize me or to get me to look down/away but I really, really didn’t care.

My waist captured everyone’s attention and I was going to go have fun afterwards while they rushed to work and gawked at me.

(My graduating class really thought I got my waist done 🤣)

I didn’t appear as and really wasn’t the same meek girl they saw before the pandemic shut everything down. Know that you’re better than whatever others are giving out.

You don’t have to prove anything or have a revenge “‘“glow up’”” on anyone.

4. Never stop learning about how to improve yourself. I discovered femininity when the change happened and it was a life transformation. Wake up earlier and have a healthy drink or meal. Watch makeup tutorials and hacks while walking on the treadmill. Find out your personal style and measurements.

5. Think about your confidence this way. Your self esteem levels are like a dimmer switch. The more you notice how attractive and lovable you are, the higher the switch goes up or more the knob turns. You see your inner & outer beauty even more as the brightness increases.

Now, I’m pretty euphoric and I keep a mirror on my nightstand. I’ve had to hide mirrors from myself and buy more to place in my surroundings!!

Gilda & Pearl 'Diana Marabou Robe in Marilyn'

being classy is an aura of being sophisticated and confident, not arrogant.

class has everything to do with self discipline and self knowledge.

Buttefly

Swinging with a Friend, by Ida Rentoul Outhwaite.

Hello

So you guys know that Jet is always wondering off, I think the reason for his "friends" comment could be because he has witnessed every RINA moment

since Ricky arrived to camp

to the rekindling of their friendship

Them getting lost in the woods

The meaningful "I'm Proud of You" moment

My theory is that Jet has witnessed all of these moments.

and I can’t be without you why can’t I find no one like you?