TUMMY HURTS

Making biscuits

I'm going to *remembers suicide is often not a desire for death itself but rather an attempt to radically change one's life because the current state of being has become unbearable but the person can't think of any way to change it other than death* kill myself

Can I watch the raging sex and make out session that's about to happen? And maybe join

Yes, its going to be AWESOME.

Sometimes I wish my phone would take a screenshot of my notifications, like it's not good enough when I have to look for origin of the notification in the respective app, like how else can I express my delight when I get notifications abt my friend on twit and it's just them expressing big feelings of love for their boyf and I love it.

That guy deserves to be happy, and you, yes you Internet, deserve to see just how happy and in love he is!!!

Haiiiiii okay so..first...so I guess it'll be my intro!! (Still figuring out how to work this..)

I'm Seth!! I'm nineteen, live in the 🇺🇸🦅, trying to learn German but my native language is English!

This blog is kinda just whatever interests me in the moment and I try to stray away from NSFW but..well...not always happening..and well there's gore and death and weapons and violence and gays and suic!de mentioning and really just a lot more that you may feel free to look at!!!

(You can find more of my many many names and other information on my pronoun page, and I've got a Pinterest for those who are interested in looking!!)

Pronouns.page

@-SPID_DERR- • Pronouns.page

Hi hii hiiiii!!! Youre probably a friend of mine so ILY DUDE TY FOR TAKING THE TIME TO UNDERSTAND ME!!!! If youre not!!! Welcome…

Pinterest

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SP!D_D3RR | Formerly the eldritch horror Stag_Beetle <3 Ps you can call me an it aswell i don't mind :]

On the NSFW aspect I will clarify I personally don't like rape and I don't really have a thing for piss - but I do enjoy CNC and sadism (and a bit more stuff but I digress), I try to keep an open mind when it comes to other things like piss kinks since as long as every participant is into it and/or simply willing 🤷🤷

-Long lasting interests-

• Animals (like canines, felines, birds of a few kinds, hoofed animals, a bit of reptiles and amphibians, and finally arachnids and insects [I personally am other hearted for a few animals so you'll see things like that too])

• Shows, movies, and short films (Bluey, My Little Pony, Dexter, Spider-Man, Deadpool, Anime [Like Dungeon Meshi and others])

• Books and writing (Warrior cats, Shakespeare, Wings of fire, web/reg-comics, and manga [unless we can count that with anime])

• Video games (things like rn Skyrim, Minecraft, Roblox, Postal, Baulders Gate [DND in general], Sonic, Stardew Valley, and Animal Crossing)

• Art (Things like music [singing, dancing, instrument playing, Rock, Metal, Industrial], painting, drawing, sculpting, coloring, poetry)

And clearly more!

Even if they're not into it the state of distress as they watch my hands explore their innards would be great....i'd love to see the look on someone's face as I hold onto their lungs and hear them gasp as I squeeze...maybe even grab at their intestines and pull just to show them how pretty they are on the inside 🤤🤤

Ever since I could remember I've wanted to be vivisected painlessly but still able to feel it. The vivisection scene in JTHM did something to me.

I've wanted to be on the other side of that!! Having my hands in someones guts while they're clearly into it would be so good

um................... can i help you

LOOK EVERYONE BEE'S MAKING ANOTHER LONG TEXT POST!

LET'S ALL READ IT AND REALLY REALLY ABSORB EVERY LAST WORD!

Hello, it's me, Bee. I'm typing with proper capitalization to show you how serious this post is.

Recently, and especially yesterday, I've been getting increasingly upsetting and alarming engagement from fans (it feels stupid saying "fans" but also maybe my overfamiliarity is part of what's biting me in my huge ass.)

I am always of the mindset of letting people do their freak shit, never yucking anyone's yum, etc etc, but I think I have to start being a lot more explicit about where I stand on some things.

First of all, I want to specify upfront that Newfag Runs The Gauntlet is a work of fiction, and what's more, it's very explicit social commentary. You are Not supposed to root for Newf. He is purposefully Not A Good Person. That goes for pretty much everyone in NFRTG in fact; like, yes the CrowdSauce posts are funny and ridiculous, but if you find yourself reading some of the more violent and disturbing parts of those threads and being like "woah that's just like me!" then I urge you to understand that it's not a Good thing.

NFRTG isn't written to be representation for paraphiles or radqueers. I in fact do not use either of those terms to describe myself, because I personally am deeply uncomfortable with how broad and vague and muddy the definitions are, and how it invites and potentially encourages some really unsavory behavior. NFRTG is a cautionary tale first and foremost. It's a horror novel because it is SCARY how willingly all these characters agree to ruin people's lives for a laugh. It's also FUNNY because I am very funny :) and it's HOT and you can think it's HOT because I do! And definitely write parts of it to be hot and horny! That's part of the horror, too! Not knowing whether you're disturbed or disgusted or aroused! But please please please know that these characters are Not the good guys. There are really no good guys to be found. Intentionally. And that's not a Good Thing.

I'm going to take a big big BIG step back from fandom engagement for my own sake. There inevitably comes a point where creators kind of can't afford to keep up intense fan engagement and I think I'm there, so I'm gonna untrack my tags and let you all have your fun without mommy breathing down your neck. If you want me to see something, you can tag me or submit it to the site for sure! I WANT to see your art and writing and theories and all that! I LOVE it! I just don't think I need to be privy to ALL of it.

My closing remark is I am so grateful and so lucky to have gotten such a following so fast. Pretty much everyone I've interacted with has been very kind and sweet and curious, and I so admire that. What a lucky little bug I am! I want to keep feeling positively about my work and the impact it's having on others, so I urge everyone to approach NFRTG with a critical eye, understand that I am very much Pointing Out A Problem when I write characters doing or saying terrible things, understand that I very much Don't want people to kill themselves or each other, that I don't think these behaviors are just things we should turn our backs to. I was once a deeply suicidal, nihilistic, self-entitled channer who frequented gore sites and watched awful shit for fun. That was not good, and it took years of therapy for me to even START to unpack that and crawl out of that hole of self destruction. But I'm so much happier and healthier and better off now that I'm away from all that, and I will always encourage people to do the same. I really really would prefer it if people stayed alive and helped themselves and didn't harm others. That is my ask.

Thank you for your reading and I love you and I LIKE you. Please be safe and good :)